At my job I contact households associated with us. I can't really say how they're associated without giving away what company I work for but it's all established and on-going relationships. (Rather than sales calls or people who don't know who we are, etc.) We call the households to do updates and confirm our data…
Category: Grief
Birthday Countdown
I have a little countdown widget on the domain blog but I forgot that it won’t show up to those who read me on livejournal, so I’m making a post about it since they crosspost automatically. Last year’s birthday was really sad and quite a downer. I was just getting over the sudden and unexpected…
Emotional
So I wound up breaking down crying last night. Then I slept like crap. I woke up this morning…and broke down crying again. I tried to get myself ready for work but just was so overwhelmed with everything about the one-year “anniversary” of Rand’s passing I was just an emotional wreck. I wound up calling…
One Year Later
My dear friend, I still miss you so much. I’m not sure what else to say than that.
Sadness
It's been hitting me really hard the last few days. And I'm sure it's going to continue being difficult for the next few weeks. We're at a year now since Rand went into the hospital. A year ago Sunday was the last time we spoke to him and saw him conscious. A year ago now…
TGIF
Happy it’s finally Friday. This week has just been one of those ones where even though I got off to a fast start with our overnight “vacation,” still has felt very long. It doesn’t help I’ve been hormonal this week with all the fun that comes with it (cramps, back pain and migraines) and while…
So This is 2011
So far, not much different from 2010 I gotta say. We spent New Year’s Eve at a walk-in clinic since everything was closed and poor Love had a completely red and swollen eye. Turns out, he has an eyelid infection. I’ve been washing his eyelid with baby shampoo multiple times a day and applying an…
Halloween Sadness
I’ve always loved Halloween. Love? Eh, he’s never been big into it. It’s just not his thing. But our best friend Rand was always with me – he got into it and had fun with it. Since Love and I live in an apartment, we’d always go to Rand’s house on Halloween. His neighborhood had…
Six Months and A New Goodbye
It’s a sad day all-around. Love’s Dad has to put his dog, Red, to sleep tomorrow. Red is only seven and this is pretty sudden. He wasn’t eating very well and had lost weight so they took him to the vet. Turns out he had tumors around his heart and some problem with his…
Panic Attacks, Rainy Days, General Blather
(I tried posting this through posterous but it’s not working. So if later this shows up a second time, sorry!) Sunday night into Monday I didn’t sleep. I just couldn’t stop the horrible spinning thoughts in my head. I kept thinking about all this stuff about Rand and I cried and pretty much wound up…
Happy Birthday Rand
Today Rand would have been 43. We would have gotten together and probably gone out to eat. Gotten him a Wii game or a PC game or something – two of his preferred gifts for holidays – and probably watched a movie or something. Gotten a cake and forced him to listen to us sing…
Remembrance Tree
Of course you all know by now how many Tree of Life pendants I make. But this one’s personal and different and I wanted to share because of it’s meaning to me. To recap, in February, our best friend, Rand, suddenly, out of nowhere had to call 911. Turns out he had a complete tear…
Netherlands
I don’t care about soccer. Never have. I admit, I’m a typical American that way. But Rand was a HUGE soccer fan. He volunteered his Saturday mornings for ten years being a ref for a local kid’s league and played on two local teams as well. Rand was also born in Holland and while he…
So Much To Say, So Hard To Get It Said
And…it’s Tuesday again. Been meaning to update for a few days now but I really haven’t felt like it, there hasn’t been much to say that wasn’t a downer and there just didn’t seem much point. But I’m at work and I’ve already had a very busy morning so I felt like I needed a…
Sad
I’m so sad today. And I’m sick of being sad all the time.