Having spent the entire night awake-tossing and turning, mind racing-I was completely unprepared to acknowledge the alarm when it went off at 5:15am. Normally, 6:15am is hell enough, but to have it go off an hour earlier on top of the four hours of non-sleep following a day of migraine hell makes me very annoyed this morning.

The only two perks are that I flew into work-took me all of 25 minutes or so!-and the fact that for the moment, I'm in that so-tired-you're-not-tired mood. I can only hope it lasts until 4pm.

Don't know why I'm updating this to be honest, just habit I guess. I've kinda gotten into the whole maintaining a Journal mode over the last 6 months or so. It's a good record of events and patterns, so I'm keeping up with it for now for my own sake.

My Love's got Poker Night with the boys tonight. Normally, I'd be sad that I'll be spending the whole evening alone at the apt, but tonight, I think I'm looking forward to doing whatever the hell I want-especially if it's nothing at all. No obligations, nothing to do. My huge "pending" list of items for the site is going into storage and I'm going to surf and relax. Stop being nothing more than the figurehead for DDD and start being whomever I want. Why the hell not?

Online or not, awake or asleep, at home or out…I'm doing what I want to and it's a damn nice concept. Only took me three years to figure it out.

~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream at 1/26/2001 08:30:57 AM ~ ~