Take Three
The interview was the THIRD one I've had for this one position! They are taking they're sweet time about it all, which sucks because I not only need a job, but I really think I could do well in this position. The location's not bad - it's driveable from the area I want to move back to which is good - and the job itself seems dynamic enough to hold my interest. I'd be working directly for the VP of Sales and he was excited to see my HTML and newsletter experience since he wants to have some touch with those two items as well. (You know me, never opposed to making webpages and getting paid for it!) I originally met with him May 15th in person, then had a phone interviewon May 27th, then today was the final in-person meeting. He said it was between myself and one other candiate and that he'd decide over the weekend and call me either way on Monday. Damn, do I want this job!! Grr! I've been out of work for almost two months now. It's getting so terribly serious that I'm having continual nightmares about my past-due bills. It's going to be another l-o-n-g weekend in waiting! Wish me luck - I need this badly!
Does Size Matter?
Ok, so the other day, I got into this discussion with my sister about engagement rings (no, this isn't a hint on either one of our behalves - just sharing the discussion). She's under the impression that it's all about size of the stone. For her, anything less then two carats is an insult! That's one heafty-assed stone. She looks at it like, "If a guy can spend $30 grand on a truck, he can at least spend $13,000-15,000 on a ring I'll wear for the rest of my life" While I can understand the concept that it should be something that you like (and, for those of you wondering, here is what I like) but, I don't think it has to be a massive chunk of stone to be acceptable. I'd be more happy with an honestly purchased 1/2 carat stone bought out of true love, then a 2+ carat beast bought just to "buy" my love. Maybe it's just me, but I don't think it's all about the cost of the ring. *shrugs*
An Hour Later and You're Hungry Again
Isn't it weird how no matter how stuffed you are when you eat Chinese food, that truly, just a mere hour or two later, you're starving like you didn't even eat a meal? Maybe it was also that the last time I had Chinese was the other day with my Love (*wink*) when we got together to talk....and, well, talking about serious things (like bills, issues to still resolve, and assorted other split-up things like that) makes you kinda forget to actually eat. Or, it could be that I wasn't so much hungry for food again after he left as much as I was realizing how much I desperatly still miss him. I've been trying to just move on with life in general and put up an all-around "stoic" front, but damn, it doesn't mean that my heart doesn't still exclusively ache for him. He is truly the love of my life and I couldn't imagine ever not wanting him as my boyfriend/love/mate/partner. It's weird. Everyone tells me things like You're such a pretty woman, you'll find another man easily" but they fail to understand that the only man I want is him. Just my Love. No matter what ever happens, he's always going to be that - my Love. I may be trying not to show it as much, or talk continously about it, but it still hurts every single day when I'm not with him. I love him so much and can still not accept my future without him. *sigh*
The Rest
Ugh. Tired. (I know I said that in the beginning, but it's still true and the Excedrin I took is just NOT helping my throbbing headache....) Oh yeah, thanks Orbie dearest for your note as well as the notation in your blog that you sent out the modem. No worries over it being delayed - I certainly understand the lack of money! I still lack even a phone jack, so it's not like I've been without because of it. (jack comes after job since well....food, overly expensive gas, and things like that are the priority. Well....food isn't as much as gas since everything is over 30 miles south of me now, I need all my fundage to go for that). Hmmm.....train of thought just took an Amtrack. (*derailed for those of who you didn't get the joke*) Oh well. I think this is the point where I am going to close. Be well all - remember to be nice to Orb on the forum - her word is Law when I'm not there (and hell, even when I am! She's scary! *laughs*) and I expect everyone to respect that! I'll try to write again this weekend sometime if possible, but....who knows when since it's hard for me to get online.
-m
~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream
at 6/1/2001 03:31:01 PM ~
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