ok, just to get it out....I am soooo pissed at the majority of users on the forum right now. People like {removed}, {removed}, and the dipshit {removed}. (the first two just make rouble for the sake of making trouble and the last is just too fucking stupid to do anything then be a center FOR trouble!) I'm sick of the politics, I'm sick of the bickering, and I'm sick of the general bullshit. I'm sick of watching my friend (joolo) be attacked and gossiped to death, I'm sick of having to be the "nice" one with out an opinion of her own, and I'm sick of not telling people to fuck off when they annoy me. Guess what? There are people I don't like on the board. Some of them are regulars and I get annoyed at their very presence, let alone their actual words. I don't care about being nice, fucking "fair" to everyone, nor kissing ass just to maintain balance.

I am still a fucking person and that means that I have the right to get pissed off and I am still the fucking owner of the board and that means I have the right to tell someone off too. Fuck you, it's my board.

It's just been such shit lately that I can no longer keep my hostility out of the light. I am just so annoyed with all of it - every last little melo-fucking-dramatic "outrage" and every last little person telling me that I'm such a horrible admin. They have no idea how much bullshit I go through for them and just deal with it and what do I get back? Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. I get to deal with people always having something nasty-ass to say about me and who always twist my words to suit their desires.

I'm sick of the whole fucking thing right now and I've had just about enough. Seems like the only people worth talking to on the forum at all these days are the officals themselves. Everyone just has some fucking barb up their ass and I do NOT want to have to deal with each and everyone of them...I've got my own fucking barbs, I don't need theirs too.

GRRRRRRRR

I should post the transcript from the chat the other day...people were utterly defending that {removed} as if she were the fucking messiah...it's just like that lately...all I deal with is the fucking hostility of those around me and at the same time the insults of my "favoritism" Well, if that means that I stand by my friend of 8 years instead of some poster that I tend to find annoying in the first place, then yeah I'm playing "favoritism"

Anyway...I'm just so pissed right now and I needed to get it out...

~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream at 8/11/2001 01:12:27 AM ~ ~