frustrated...poor...and entering another deep blue funk...I am just so utterly and completly beyond poor that I'm at a point where I just don't know what to do anymore...and it makes me want to just curl up and sleep...it's just that I'm at a point where no mater what I do, it's not enough...and yet, I can't even find something that is a START...gr...
The work situation is so horrible, no one is interested...I actually have an interview like 1 1/2 hours (commute time) away tomorrow and it's for like no pay and I don't want to do it but...what the hell can I do, you know? I'm sooooo bummed out... (And I didn't even get to go to the beach the other night to relax and recharge like I had planned! Grr)
My big problem is that I stil have a sense of moral decency...ie: I won't do something that I can not accept normally for myself. like I won't go strip or something. (I don't see it as "wrong" just that it's not something I could do you understand?)
Another problem is, where I am staying at my sister's nothing is "local"...everything is like 30-40 miles away and I just can't afford the gas...damn mustang is not the most fuel efficent...plus my license is a year + expired and I have no insurance...grr...it's dangerous and scares me to drive these days. A LOT.
So I'm stuck. And I don't know what the fuck to do...
~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream
at 8/7/2001 03:25:44 AM ~
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