Oh, I forgot to mention something rather small, but weird from yesterday…
We have a guy who comes in like twice a week and cleans the office. General stuff, bathrooms, vacuuming, etc. He’s got some Jamaican-type accent but I’ve never really talked to him or anything. He just comes in, does his work and goes. So, the yesterday, one of the guys asks if he can clean the front door – it’s full of fingerprints. He says that he can’t understand how people just HAVE to touch the glass when there’s a perfectly good bar to open it. I laugh and admit that I’m guilty of pushing it open with the glass because of the fact that I get shocked far too easily anytime I touch metal. The cleaner pauses from cleaning the door and looks at me and with a weird sorta smile, says, “It’s because you’ve got too much energy.” I sorta just laugh and make some agreement of sorts thinking ok, just a normal joke. But, he looks directly at me again and says it a second time…”You just have too much energy” Just something about the way he said it and the way he was looking at me like he knew a secret kinda made me a little uncomfortable. It was a weird experience…I don’t know what – if anything – that it means, but still…one of those strange moments where the rest of the world sorta dims out and you move past the normal for a moment and no one (or worse, in this case, someone) noticing.
Anyway, that’s my story. Thank gods its almost 5pm because I am sooooo ready to go home and start my weekend. It’s been a busy week and I pulled in 39.75 hours despite the fact that I didn’t get into work until 11:30am on Monday…that’s a lot of long days!
I’ll try to get those other pics up over the weekend. In the meantime, have a good one all, I’m going home!
Ok!! Pictures are up!! A couple of them I added to the left hand side menu so they're accessable at any time (such as the silly look at my home desk and my halloween costume 2001). But, to make it easy, here's a run down of what I've uploaded and where to find it...
There was another one with pictures of my work, but I forgot to save those pics on the floppy last night, so they'll come tomorrow or so when I can get over to a friend's house to upload them. Thanks go again to my friend Rand for letting me borrow his overly expensive digital camera so I could take these pictures in the first place!! Oh yeah, I have a couple I took of me in glasses, but the lighting didn't come out so I'll try to get better versions before I give it back to him tonight. Don't worry! I'll get 'em up eventually!
Now, there was something else I actually wanted to talk about but damn if I remember what it is...got so distracted with the whole uploading of pics and pages that I've drawn a blank. Let me close for now and get back to doing work (oh yeah, today is my first pay day!! Whoo-hoo!!) and I'll post later if I get a chance. The guy who usually works up front here is off today so it's just me and that means I'm a bit busy with the general running of the office today...
Hope everyone is well and if I don't post more tonight, I'll post over the weekend from Rand's house. Ta!
One of my co-workers (one of the salesmen) just walks by, looking frazzled and says, "My mind is going in a million places!" At which, I turn to him and say, "Hey, at least it's going. Could be worse, it could have stopped." Silly, but true. I know that I tend to forget this fact myself far too often. When you're stressed, or thinking there's far too much going on and you can not handle it, putting it in the perspective that at least you're here and able to do it is an accomplisment. Sometimes I think we all forget how fragile life is and can be. Like my mom for example. Tomorrow she has to go in and have sugery on her eye. See, she had gotten an infection in it (part of the problem with her being immuno-suppressed because of several conditions like fibromyagia) and it watered non stop forever. After the better part of the year and several doctors and prescriptions to try to "clear up" the problem, she finds out that this whole time, her tear duct has been damaged and is stuck shut. She's actually lucky the doctor said that it didn't get infected a second time since the duct is what helps keep the eye clean and properly lubricated. Long story short, because something so small as this and the fact that the doctors didn't diagnose it properly, she has to get laser sugery to create a new duct. Health and life are precious, fragile things. Remember that next time you get huffing and puffing over something that doesn't really matter...
Speaking of huffing and puffing.... I left here at about 4:40pm yesterday and didn't manage to get home until almost 5:30 (big, nasty accident about 2 blocks south of my apartment complex). Got changed quickly and rushed out the door again to head up to Joolo's where I was supposed to meet everyone prior to leaving for trick-or-treating so I could get some pictures. Well, there was another accident on the way there and I didn't make it until almost 6:30! (and it's a 20 minute drive normally) Got there in time to catch up with them en route, snapped a couple pics while out, and about 5 houses later, they're done. Tired and wanting to go home (I don't think I EVER wanted to come home - I'd be out for hours when I was a kid!). So, after about two hours of hellish traffic to get there, I got about 6 pictures of the kids but none when they got back because they were all too impatient to wait for photos...they wanted to plow into the candy instead.
The party went only slightly better. By the time I got back down and got my Love (who had been waiting like 45 minutes for me since I was yet again running late) and got to the party it was about 9pm. Some people were there, but not many and the witch was waiting on a couple others before starting food, games, and stuff like that. By the time we finally had to excuse ourselves (about 10:30pm since we were both beat and had to be up by 7am today), they were just kicking things into gear. My luck... So, I have to speak with Joolo and see how it went afterwards.
The cool thing though is that I have som pics to upload from both Halloween, me with glasses, and some silly shots like my desk (see the crazy desk which spawned this website *lol*), and my office. I'm going to make some pages of them tonight or tomorrow and post the links at that time. Waiting, waiting, but it should be worth it. :)
Oh, speaking of waiting...I had been told by Joolo that within a package he got from Radical Edwardo, there was something for me as well. I couldn't figure out for the life of me what it could be and with work and all, was unable to get up there to get it until last night. Turns out she bought me the Godiva Halloween Bear I had been drooling over a couple weeks ago! WOW! That was so nice!! Thank you Ed!! (I took a pic of it too and I'll upload that one when I upload the rest).
Anyway, I need to get going since I'm doing this from work as always. Hope everyone had a fun and safe Halloween. (under the first Halloween Full Moon in 46 years! And man, was it beautiful!).
Ok, NOW it's time to say.... BOO! *lol* Happy Halloween everyone!
This morning, I showed up for work in my fangs but nothing else of my costume (expect a t-shirt with a bat on it). I didn't make any big thing of it and just let everyone notice when I spoke or smiled or whatnot. Their reactions were great! Everyone did a doubletake and laughed and then said how cool they looked. All-in-all, it was a lot of fun. :)=
Tonight is a complicated issue though...have to get from my work to my apt.to grab some things, then all the way up to Joolo's house (only about 1 1/2 away from where I am now!) so I can meet up with him, my Goddaughter, my friend the Witch, and her son. We're going to get some pics with my friend Rand's digital camera (thanks again!) as they Trick-or-Treat. After that, it's coordinating with my Love to meet up somewhere in the middle as we head over to the Witch's house for a party. Its a lot of scheduling and manuvering, but I think we hammered out the details and it should go smoothly enough. Problem is that I didn't get to bed until after 1am last night (actually, closer to 1:30am) and when getting up at 6:45am, that's not a lot of sleep. Seeing as I'll be at a party tonight, I don't foresee myself getting to bed early tonight to make up for it so I know by tomorrow I will be hating life! I mean, I could go for a nap right now - can you imagine how sleepy I'll be by tomorrow?
I redyed my hair last night (or, more technically, my Love donned the gloves and dyed it for me as I stood there, cringing that he'd do it wrong seeing as he's never dyed a woman's hair before!) and that always takes a rather long time...it came out a lot redder and brighter then it did the first time so I'm a REALLY red headed redhead now! I also tried to get a new, smaller pair of fangs to mold for me, but I just couldn't do it because my bottom teeth have gotten all crooked and the molding just wouldn't hold properly. (I had braces for years as well as two operations of my mouth to correct my jawline and straighten my teeth...but, a few years ago I lost my retainer and ever since, my bottom teeth have been painfully shifting back to their screwed up positions. Lacking money to do anything, I've not been able to get it corrected and thus, they're all wonky). So, looks like I have to stick with the ones I got (and molded) last year...they fit well enough but the problem of course is that they are too long, so I can not actually close my mouth and that hurts after awhile. (a short while) I really wanted to be able to wear them all day (and the smaller ones I bought allowed me to close my mouth), but looks like I'll just wear them as needed for trick-or-treating and the party. Sucks... (or should that be "bites?" LOL)
Um....beyond that, I can't think of much to say and I am rambling on at work, so let me close here. Digital pics of tonight to follow hopefully in the next couple days...I'll post 'em ASAP. (and you can all see my cute little goddaughter in her butterfuly costume complete with wings!) Have a happy and safe Halloween everyone and a magickal Samhain and happy new year as well.
Just a quickie entry again since I'm at work. Getting ready for Halloween...got a new pair of fangs (since my old ones were too large to wear comfortably for any amount of time) and I'm redying my hair tonight (same shade, Wild Cinnamon) I also picked up a dirt cheap pair of pleather pants and dammit, I'm going to be one sharp (ha) looking vampire. All I need now is a nice pair of small, round, sunglasses I can wear all night and I'm set. (Anne Rice eat your heart out!)
Joolo, my Love, and I are attending a party tomorrow at the Witch's house and I'm borrowing my friend Rand's digital camera, so I'll snag some pics to put up. It should be a fun time. (Just stinks that it's a work night! Bah) Lots to do tonight to get ready!
Anyway, happy halloween to the general public and happy Samhain to all my fellow pagans (may you have a wonderful New Year!)
Ok, I'm at work, so this will be short. Just wanted to let everyone know that my court date went amazingly well. Basically what happened was that I plead guilty and in turn (since it was my first and only offense ever - and a second degree misdomeaner at that) they dismissed the charges (ie: there is no criminal conviction) because I had my new license to present to the Judge. The only thing I have to pay is $125 court cost within 60 days (December 28, 2001) and it's done with. No points, no charges, no probation, nada.
So, as you can see, life is once again good. The Judge was very nice so long as you showed her the respect she deserved (ie: saying "Yes" and not "Yeah" etc. etc.). I was beyond nervous, but my friend the witch showed up for moral support and it was over in a matter of minutes.
Anyway, that's the short version, but that's about all that went on and all is good so I'm going to close and get back to work. Thanks to all who were nice enough to leave me words of support. You guys are the best. *smiles*
Just a quick entry that I’m writing on my pc at home knowing I have to run to my friend Rand’s house in order to print up some information for court tomorrow.
Eep. Court. I am so scared about this. Come 10am, I don’t know what’s going to happen.
It’s so frustrating. I’ve had so much hardship I’ve had to endure just to survive and get myself to this point. Now, when things are finally starting to turn around and I start to honestly believe this freefall I’ve been in may actually come to a halt; that there might be solid earth again under my feet, I face this. This unknown. This fear that might change my life again for the worst. I’ve tried so hard. I’ve struggled so long. And now I don’t even know what will happen beyond tomorrow.
I know it’s wrong, but I lied to my boss and told him I had a doctor’s appointment - a ‘women’s annual’ I said - and that I’d be in as soon as I could after it. I just didn’t want to try to explain about how shitty my life has been and what horrible strain I’ve been living under for so long. Least of all did I want his opinion of me to change. I feared that if he knew I was going to court for an expired driver’s license, that he’d suddenly think of me as some criminal; some person who is untrustworthy and even reconsider the huge amount of promise he sees in me. It’s nice to have someone think of you as unlimited potential and not just a sum of all the mistakes you’ve made in the past. It’s nice to hear he thinks that because it makes me - even for a moment - think it for myself.
So alone and essentially unarmed, I face going to court tomorrow. Joolo has offered to try to get out of work early to come with me, as has his friend the witch, but neither is confirmed nor guaranteed. And, to be honest, I don’t know how much it will help. Seeing as the Judge will do whatever he or she wants to do either way leaves me back to the base fear.
Anyway, I’ve got to get going since I’m being harassed by my Love that if I don’t go, I won’t get back. And, seeing as it’s a nice, cool night again tonight for the first time all season (it’s in the 40’s at night! But just through tonight), he wants to snuggle in and have a cozy evening. (it’s the rare night like this that makes me really miss my fireplace).
Before I close, I ask just one favor. Anyone who reads this, keeps up with my journal, enjoys my words or works, and who can possibly even see beyond these digital words into the honest flesh-and-bone women behind it, do me one thing. Think well for me. Think positive that I will come out unscathed. For I’m having a hard time doing it on my own and maybe, just maybe, with the honest well-wishes of those around me, I might be able to be positive too.
