Been playing too much Disney Dance Dance Revolution Mix all weekend. It's stupidly addictive. It's also a shit load of fun. (and, is probably the first time I've ever gotten up and "danced" in front of people before). On the "Mickey Mouse March: Eurobeat Version" I actually got a score of AAA: Perfect with a max combo of 126! I rock! Sure, it's only a two-star song, but dammit, that was groovy. I've also gotten A's and AA's on three and four star ones. (like Higher and Summer Love) Some of the others are simply psycho and I don't know that I'll ever be good at it.
It's a cold and annoyingly rainy day today. Been that way for a bit now. I like it cold and cool and all, but damn do I hate rainy cold days. Ugh. It's just so miserable. Not to mention the driving sucks as does the visability. Bleck.
Still feeling really...out of it, I guess. Just sorta off and I'm not sure why. Didn't even bother bringing in my webcam because I honestly just didn't feel up to it; the transporting, setting up, and having it watch me all day. Not like it's huge or hard to plug in (one USB for crying out loud) but I felt like it was too much for me. A lot of things are feeing like they're too much for me and it sucks because there isn't really anything that IS. *sighs* It just seems that there's all these things that are bugging me that aren't really a problem. ANd then I wonder why I am getting so bothered over such silly, little things. I mean, there's still BIGGER issues in my life that I should be focusing on and if I'm going to worry about something, it might as well be something that's actually scary, but instead, I just sorta drift along, pretending everything's alright, wondering what little thing is going to set me off next. I keep feeling like it's nothing or crying and I can't give into crying, so it's nothing. A fake smile, laugh, sense of humor I'm just not really feeling right now. In a stupid way, maybe it's why I've been enjoying DDR so much the last couple days: You can't think about it to do it right. It's one of those weird Zen-type things where the more you focus on it, the more you'll screw up. When you just let your mind drift, your feet just move. I don't know - I mean, it's not like this is the way to enlightenment, just something to distract me a bit.
Anyway, I need to get back to work. I have SO much to do today and the day is just slipping right past me.
~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream
at 1/7/2002 03:00:05 PM ~
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