my stomach is in knots this morning. I so do not want to be here right now. I feel like I need yet another stop into the restroom but that's the last thing in the world I want to do. ugh. It has to be this antibiotic I was put on for the UTI - it's one of those new ones that you only take for five days, but stays in your system for 5 more after that. This whole time, my stomach has just been miserable, but today it officially passed into the realms of hell. There's no way to get it out of my system either - it just will be here until it decides to leave, so I'm stuck for an indefinate persiod of time trying to just deal with it. It's not working. I was an hour late to work because I was just so sick this morning, I couldn't leave the bathroom for over an hour and a half straight. I had to hurry up then and come into work because Michelle has lost her voice, but the small reprieve from the pain has not only ended, but come back with renewed force. All I want is to curl up in a ball and sleep so I won't have to feel it; so I won't have to have my whole stomach clench and boil; so it won't roll and stab me like a hot knife with ever small movement. Going home is so NOT an option though that I don't know what to do - I can't think, I can't work, I can't move, I can't even speak - it all just hurts. Breathing is hell and moving is unimaginably worse.
I made a new layout for the journal last night but I don't know if I'll have time to upload it today. I like it - it's a little more "modern" or something - and I'm eager to show it off. I realized the other day that I am just not content in any way shape or form to leave a design alone for any period of time. I can really relate to my friend orb on the sheer need to change a design, but the utter frustration of having a huge domain. (I'm not even done with the design in place now and I already want to change it. Hundreds of pages and I have an itch. *sighs*) So, despite people complimenting me on this current design - which I DO like, don't get me wrong - I really can't wait to change it. *lol* I'm so fickle about it I guess, always thinking of something different. The only bad thing with the new design is that it's really made for 1024x768. It does show up on 800x600 but it's sorta squished and you loose a little of the smaller effects (like rounded corners, etc.) No biggie, but from a design standpoint, I just hate anything smaller then 1024x768. *shrugs*
Well, work's not getting done and I don't feel any better sitting here typing this then I do doing my work, so here I close. Here's hoping I can make it at least 'til 5pm. Ugh, that's soooo far away...
~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream
at 2/4/2002 10:33:40 AM ~
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