I think it loses something now, but this is what I wrote last night but could not publish because blogger went down sometimes slightly before I hit the publish button. Anyway, I wrote it and saved it though and it should have been up last night so here it is now. Don't know if I feel the same in the light of a sunny day or not, or if it's all just loss and hurt and pain in general....*shrugs*

*sigh* bummed. broke. depressed - or at least sinking there quickly. I hate feeling this way. It's like teetering on the edge of a cliff and though I look over and see just how far I have to fall I can't bring myself to move to stop myself from falling.

Part of me is so cold inside...numb from not wanting to feel it anymore - any of it.

Part of me is screaming...fighting and pounding from within but grows smaller and smaller each day.

Both are just dimming....shrinking into the nothingness of the void before me; the depression at the edge of the cliff. So I sorta totter there on the edge unwilling to take a step in either direction.

~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream at 5/29/2002 03:00:37 PM ~ ~