Today was a productive day. I wake up to the sound of my mother calling my name. Apparently she and my sister decided to come down and help me get stuff done since I haven't been able to accomplish much on my own sans car or money. We first got my license reinstated - she forked over the $100 (not that she has it, she has very very little money since becoming disabled) - today so it was only out for about half a day. We then picked up the Mustang and drove up to the place I had a prepaid gift certificate for my transmission flush (it's needed this for like a year now). After that we got my oil changed - she had a free coupon wee! - which was another thing overdue and also got my tires rotated for me. We also managed to get in touch with the Unemployment office (I tried all day friday and only got busy signals) and the guy fixed the system so I can claim the other two weeks of May it wouldn't let me do before (kept telling me I had no more weeks available to claim) and that he'd try to expidite the final decision on whether or not I qualify to get my checks (they're being held up because of pending contact with my previous employer or something stupid). So I'll either end up with FOUR checks (since I've been waiting since April and gotten zero so far) pretty much at once or I'll get none. (the fuckers) Let's hope for option number one. I also got in touch with Kush-ka's vet and begged and pleaded with them to wait one more week before cashing my first payment check for his surgery. (it was supposed to be for deposit June 7th but without any income from me yet and $21 to our name after rent and power until NEXT Friday when my Love gets paid again, I can't cover a $120 check.) At first they wanted me to come all the way up there to resign all my paperwork but I told her I can't get up there in time since they were 5 minutes away from closing for the day (today) and tomorrow I'm in my interview. She finally relented and said they'd wait until June 14th. I stopped by the store for my mom on the way to dropping her back off at home and she bought me some deli sliced turkey, cheese and bread too so I've got a couple snadwhiches out of it (food is a good thing when you're poor).
All-in-all it was a good day. I felt really positive about all the stuff we got done and with the exception being the $100 for my drivers license, everything was done for nothing. Another good thing. As I dropped my mom off, she walks me out to my car to say bye and we end up in this like over an hour converstation about all sorts of stuff. I admit to her that I'm a medium and tell her I think I got it from her. Surprisingly enough she agrees with me and I learn a hell of a lot about my mom in that hour then I think I've learned in years. She hears and sees and just "knows" things the same way I do. We talked about her faith (christainity) and mine (a broad no specific path paganism) and how they are very alike yet unique but that the uniquiness is a good thing rather then a bad. I think I really impressed her because she just stood there, smiling at me with this look of like wonder at me. It was so great. She was so impressed by the things I pointed out to her and the way I think I finally made her undestand I'm not only happy in my faith, that it's right for me the way her faith is right for her. For the longest time, she would harrass me that I needed to be christain "just in case" and that offended me to no end - like my ideas weren't good enough for her. But today.....I think I really bridged a gap. It was so neat to see my mom so impressed with me. And once I started talking, I just couldn't stop - we just kept going and going. I admited I never talked to her about these things before because I never wanted to offend her religion but she said she understands there's more then just what's written in the Bible - that she believes in aliens and stuff that is just part of everything and it's in addition to her faith, not a hinderance to it. Like compagnion to her christainity. I felt so proud of my mom today and that's a rare thing for me. I've respected her for a lot of things but I don't know how often I've honestly felt proud of her. I think we've both grown a lot and by sharing this with her it's helped us both. She even wants to meet my friend the witch and is open to meeting with healers or homopathic healers as well for her disease - something I've always wanted to offer to help her find but never knew how to mention it. She even told me today how frustrating it is for her because she just feels in her bones that she should be able to heal herself and eject the disease from her body - but just lacks the knowhow. It was just a stunning, awe-inspiring discussion. To be utterly blunt I never thought my mom even thought about such things let alone had a grasp on some of the concepts...like she doesn't have the terminology for it, but it's there to a pretty neat degree. And that's just amazing.
*breaths*
Anyway, I just never expected to have a converstation about anything even remotely like this with her. Ever. I never thought it possible. And that's just mind-blowing. Both of us have changed in some way and somehow I think we speak the same language for like the first time ever and it's an awesome feeling. (as I tear up as I write this).
Tomorow is my interview (11:45am) which is really close by and late enough I don't have to wake up too early. (weeee) I've decided to pretty much take it no matter what if they offer it (even if it's like a lame ass $8/hour or something) because right now, it's money and I need something. I'll just continue to send out applications if it's something I only want to do in the short term. Just need something, anything to get some income back in. (although, bleck, I am so not looking forward to a rigid schedule again...blah. There's something to be said for staying up til 5am and sleeping til 1pm LOL)
Alright, rambled on a bit. I think I'll check up on some stuff and then call it a night. Wish me luck.
~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream
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