Everyone thinks I'm being crazy or paranoid. Everyone thinks I'm being stupid. But I just have such a wrong feeling about this today. Every single fiber in me says this is wrong, don't do it.... but no one believes me. They think it's just the normal nerves of a new job...I've had those before and this is not it. There's just something about today and going there I shouldn't do. It's like the little voice in my head is screaming at me to see the sense and not go but everyone around me says I'm just being silly.

Something bad. Something wrong. And I feel like I'm dead man walking if I go - but no one's letting me have the choice because there's no "reason" not to go. Except this feeling....I am so scared right now. Not of this job, but like mortally terrified. And no one believes me. I feel like the woman given the ability to know what's going to happen - and cursed to suffer no one believing her.

I don't want to do this.

~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream at 8/5/2002 07:39:36 AM ~ ~