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Saturday, April 20, 2002

Oh my gods! Thanks has to go to FragileSin for finding this link on how the human population is breeding itself stupid. I've said this for years but never had another site to point to as reference: "smart people are being outbred by stupid people." And you know what? It's true. (sometimes I hate being right).

It goes like this: people with higher levels of intelligence are not compelled by the gutteral, instinctual need to breed. They understand that their actions have outcomes and that a child is a serious commitment and responsibility. Therefore, they wait; happy to ensure spiritual, professional, and personal growth before even considering adding a child into their lives. They take their time, plan their lives, and save their money, building a solid foundation from which to better nurture a child.

But stupid people - people who fall on the dead end of the gene pool and IQ scale - do not logically approach the issue of children. They are more likely to give into "base" instinct, engaging in sexual activity without thought of outcome. And, in turn, they have children - and lots of them. Those children have inherited the wonderful template of genetics from their parents and do the same thing in ever-widening numbers.

And thus, people continue to get more and more stupid.

It's a great article. (and ever the more frightening for being true)

Ok, got an entirely new layout up for my Cam Hightlights log! Wheee! Looks like everything is up and running correctly, but if anyone wants to take a peek and double check that they don't see anything wrong, it'd be appreciated! :) I decided I needed a more streamlined look for it since it's already heavy on the download because of the number of pictures posted. Also, I was bored with the peach which sould tell everyone that this design won't last much longer here either. Too many things I keep adding in and it's all a big clusterfuck. Ack I hate it. I mean I loved it when I made it in February, but come on its April now! Can't expect me to stick with a design for more then a couple months can you? LOL I am such a layout whore. I really am.

Anyway, check out the new layout over there and I'll work on a new one for over here. Toodles!

Well, this had been fun. My net went down in mid-load of a page about three hours ago and for some reason just came right back up out of nowhere now. I have another appointment (between the useless hours of 8am-8pm, which will, mind you be the fourth time they've had to come out) tomorrow but in case it goes down again - and probably will - this is to let everyone know why I'm not around.

Moo.

And, for the record, yes, I am my favorite cookie!


I'm an Oreo!

What Snack Food are YOU? Click here to find out!



Gods I need to go to bed. Or just up and make a journal for nothing but quizes. One or the other.

no clear winner here: (i mean they are all the exact same numbers. How weird)

Which Goddess Are You Ruled By?
Each of us has aspects of all seven goddesses in her personality. Some women may have more Demeter than Athena, some more Aphrodite than Hera, but to achieve a healthy balance we all need to integrate characteristics of each of the goddesses into our lives. By identifying the qualities of the goddesses in yourself, you can recognise needs you have left unfulfilled. By attending to those needs, you can become more self-confident.

Note: Scores are rounded to one decimal place and therefore may not total 100%
You scored 25% Athena
If you are ruled by Athena, you are bright-eyed, shrewd, resourceful and inventive. With friends, you are the wise counsellor – always ready with an empowering message. You believe strongly that women can accomplish anything men can. No wonder you put so much time into your career. Athena women tend to be ruled by their head, not by their heart. You carefully guard your intimate side, protecting your emotions and vulnerability. If you want to awaken your unexpressed womanliness, you’ll have to use the same passion you apply to your intellectual achievements. It’s important that you work to integrate your strong masculine side with your feminine side – bringing together your strength with your vulnerability, your creativity with caring, and your intelligence with imagination. Otherwise, you risk appearing unaffectionate and self-righteous. Take lessons from the goddesses Hestia and Aphrodite to do this.

You scored 16.7% Hestia
If you embody the qualities of Hestia, you understand the value of having your own sacred place, whether it’s an actual room or simply a time of day when you free your mind of busy thoughts and experience peace of mind. There’s no doubt this place is at home – where you feel the most joy. Home is your sanctuary. You are at home with yourself wherever you are, though, and no matter whom you are with. You know that the meaning of your life springs from your spiritual centre. This brings you a great sense of security. You do not crave attention or material possessions; you nurture your friends and family with your unconditional love.

You scored 16.7% Hera
If you possess many of Hera’s qualities, you tend to find fulfilment in relationships and look on marriage as a permanent union. In marriage, you feel no sense of frustration or resentment, because you are an equal partner with your spouse. You are confident and have no trouble asserting your authority in and out of the relationships. You seek men who are self-confident and successful, because you are comfortable with the concept that you can be fulfilled through him (and him through you). As long as your partner honours the marriage as much as you do and appreciates you, you will be happy. If he doesn’t, you must concentrate on your own growth and discover an identity independent of him.

You scored 16.7% Artemis
If Artemis, your independent spirit, rules you belong to no-one but yourself. Your body is vibrant, your attitude robust and your manner vigorous and alive. You are driven by physical rather than mental energy. You feel complete without a man in your life and would never compromise your essential nature for a romantic partner. You are skilled at establishing personal boundaries and enter into relationships on your own terms – in short, you can take care of yourself. This attitude may at times put men off. But if what you’re looking for is an equal, loving relationship, take some tips from Hera.

You scored 8.3% Aphrodite
If mostly Aphrodite, your femininity, rules you passionate spirit are the controlling forces in your life. You tend to be charismatic and self-assured, comfortable with your body and unrestrained sexually. Men are drawn to you like bees to flowers, which satisfies your erotic nature. However, you tend not to form permanent attachments with lovers because you value your sexual freedom, which may leave you feeling lonely and even depleted once a relationship ends. To find and form a more lasting relationship, you need to add more of the goddess Hera to your life.

You scored 8.3% Persephone
If you exemplify the qualities of Persephone, you have most likely experienced great loss in your life – the loss of your health or your emotional or physical security, the betrayal of a friend or lover, the loss of a child, your own divorce or that of your parents. This experience has forced you to face the dark, unenlightened side of yourself (the side that blames other people or circumstances for your own suffering) and transform yourself into a stronger, more independent, more accepting and more loving person. It may have also led you down a spiritual path, and moved you to place great emphasis on inner calm and on close connections with friends. You are capable of embracing, integrating and accepting difficult experiences. Because of that skill, you offer others the gift of empathy – you know where they are or have been.

You scored 8.3% Demeter
If you fit the Demeter archetype, you are a nurturer and caretaker. You have a generous heart and enjoy extending your love to others. You are motivated by the most powerful of instincts – to give life – and selflessly devote yourself to the life you create. You feel compelled to care for all those around you, even if they are not your own children. In short, you feel the need to be all things to all people and, therefore, your own needs sometimes go unmet. You must learn to say no, and apply Artemis’s sense of boundaries and Aphrodite’s ability to put herself first. That way, you can give to others from an overflowing rather than a half-filled cup.




Find out which Moulin Rouge song you are.


On a side note, I feel like I'm sleep deprived even though I'm not. That buzzed feeling though I'm sober. Gods I feel weird. Punch drunk or something. Ugh. I need sleep.

Friday, April 19, 2002


Which Angel would you be?
By
Angel Falls

Deep thought for the day... (or more information then you ever needed to know)
I discovered today that my vinal pants (yes I have them, not I don't normally wear them, I bought them for Halloween last year) has a problem in which the zipper does not stay up. All I can say is viva la Paint Shop to airbrush out the open fly.

You knew it would happen. I spent the day playing with my new digital camera. :) So I put up a new gallery of images (just a handful, expect more to come)

Wings, Wings, Such Beautiful Things...

Here is a shot from it:


Enjoy! Feedback welcome. :)

Thursday, April 18, 2002

Ok, I'm putting some more digital shots over in the Cam Archive. I guess I need to follow Orb's example and make a photo log, but that's work and right now I'm lazy. LOL

So, go on over and take a peek at a couple more silly shots from today. :)

Ok, the very first of my shots taken. Nothing exciting since it's like an hour that I've had the thing and I've not left the house nor even fully finished skimming the manual. LOL. Seems to take some pretty nice shots. Even the originals, when viewed normally (at 1600x1200) were sharp. These obviously have been shrunk and compressed but still, it's my new digital cam!







Thanks to Dawna I now know I am:



Find your emotion!
[?]



Also, I got some free hair color. Whoo-hoo! Just go here and click "color my hair?" At the end, you click "order" and you'll get it for free! It's limit one per household (seems to record IP address) but at my place we have two seperate IP's on two seperate pc's so I ordered both I kinda liked sending one to me and one to a friend's house. Yeah, yeah, but it's a shade I normally wouldn't have had the guts to actually buy but I'm interested in. ;) Oh I just LOVE free stuff!! *giddy*

And, speaking of FREE STUFF. HOLY SHIT! You'll never believe the amazingly COOL thing I got today in the mail. I mean, NEVER. It's totally amazing. This is the first time someone's ever sent me a present in the mail and holy crap, it's great! Ready for it? I GOT A DIGITAL CAMERA SENT TO ME!! It's totally brand-new in the box. Toni and Cynthia contacted me a couple days ago telling me that they had an extra and if I wanted it I could have it. I was flabbergasted then so you can imagine my delight when there was a knock on my door today and it was the mailman with a box for me! Holy cow! Inside was a Olympus D-380 that was LITERALLY brand new. The box and cd were still sealed! WOAH!

I'm running around like a chicken without a head now. I'm reading the manual, I'm playing with the settings, and I'm installing the software. Expect some pics up later this afternoon! I'm so psyched! And I can't thank Toni & Cynthia enough. THANK YOU!

So... ::giddy:: Free stuff day! Happy happy joy joy! More later!

Wednesday, April 17, 2002

Ok, I've started a new campaign on the domain. (hey, that sorta rhymes)

I hate Cingular Wireless and here's why

See, to me, there's something wrong with your service not working for months, you reporting it multiple times, promises made to correct it and instead service turned off. And then, when you try to actually pay your bill and try to resolve the issue once and for all, you're told that no, you have to pay PLUS sign an entirely new contract as a new customer instead of just reinstating your service.

I have a problem with being told by the customer service agent that I'm lying since I obviously was able to use my phone just fine during the day despite the fact that it's 25 miles away from my house in a different city all together and that I was reporting problems at HOME in my HOME city.

I have a problem with being told that since I cancelled my service - no I didn't, you people turned it off - that I can't reinstate it, but that they'll happily take my money from me. And I have a problem with them telling me that if I don't pay for service I didn't get, they'll report me to the collection agencies.

I have problems with Cingular Wireless. And I'm not the only one. I've filed an FCC Complaint and they now have 30 days to respond. The new and liberated M. Not taking crap from people and companies anymore.

Tuesday, April 16, 2002

A recent referer:
16 Apr, Tue, 17:07:17 Google: jokes christainity

/me fidgets....
don't say it....just don't say it....
/me fidgest more....

Ok, I can't NOT say it. It's too good a set up. Looking for Christainity Jokes? You mean Christianity's not enough of a joke as it is?

Doh.....had to say it.

Yeah, well. Yeah. Look, it's not that I hate christains or even the idea of the faith. But I sure as hell hate the damn church itself. The people in power who like the power and want to keep it at all costs. They SUCK! They're the ones that think it's ok to hate someone and kill someone and better to rape and pillage someone rather then just leave them be and let them possibly live to speak against them.

There's a big difference between faith and hate. And the Christain Church as an organization has none of the former and all of the latter.



/whimper

Ok, I want THIS Waaaaaa! Its for purchase here and it's based on this image. It's going for $69. I, in no way shape or form, have $69. Especially now that I'm sans a job. :(

Damn! Damn! Damn! I've been waiting for her to come out with a figure and now she does, they're in super limited supply and I've got ZERO freakin' bucks.

/me cries

Monday, April 15, 2002

LOL...my best friend Joolo got his hair cut short and spikey today and wanted to show it off on cam. Click the pic for some more silly shots.


It looks pretty cool. Of course, the pics are silly. But that's Joolo for ya. =D

Ok, one more...this is too funny.
_______________
After a careful analysis of your results, our high-tech computation device has tabulated your score.

Your Likelihood of Committing Murder is 0%


To Analyze your results use this handy dandy guide:
If you have a score of 0 or Below: You are the perfect being. Any psychotic tendencies you may possess are neatly balanced by you desire to help others and your devotion to the lord above. Well you could be an excellent human being, but you're most likely in denial. Try the test again, and try to tell the truth this time. If you still get a score of 0 then you may very well be the savior of the entire human race.
______________
No, really, I answered it completely honest! lol I'm not god-devoted, but I do believe in a the Divine, and I'm not perfect, but LOL I took the test twice and really came up with this result!

By the way, it's been awhile, so here:




Want To Know Which Element You Are?


Stuck between the sky and the ground, you lack
the sudden impulse that Air has but are unable to root yourself down like Earth. Though you have troubles
finishing projects, people can depend on you for the most part (even if it means pulling a few all-nighters).
On the plus side, you are extremely adaptable and thus can adjust to any situation. Sure, you might not like
it, but it doesn't weigh you down.

Best Match: Fire, just enough 'oomph' to keep your interest.

Worst Match: Spirit, you'll be out the door before they make up their minds.





Streea
wasted a bunch of time making this test.





(thanks to Dawna for the quiz)

I picked up the paper last night. I figure I should start looking through the classifieds. It's not that I've actually spoken to my boss and told him once and for all that I quit, but...on the other hand, since I've exactly not called him and not shown up for work, I think it's pretty much a given. I had a dream last night that I went in there - like normal - and he has my stuff packed up. (of course, it was a dream, so for some reason I had like a whole house full of stuff there instead of just personal effects of an office) He gave me a birthday card with a gift certificate in it (for $30 to some imaginary stor) since I wouldn't be there for my birthday next month (may 16th). He told me that it was for the best this way. I was a little upset, but really, I had expected as much. The happy thing about the dream was that he wasn't an ass as I fear he'll be in real life. I'm just so anxious over it all that I don't even want to call him and talk to him. I just want to slink away and hide. I'm such a wuss when it comes to any sort of confrontation. Too many years getting beat up by my asshole father I think as a child to be comfortable about a person's reaction in a disagreement. Not that I really believe he'd even come close to hitting me, still, I have that flinch away response. For better or worse, the things we learn as young children tend to stick with us. From my mom, I learned a love of reading (gods I'm a voracious reader who has to have a book in progress literally constantly) and from my father, I learned to fear a lot of situations. It sucks. :(

Anyway, I was dreaming I should email him; give him a status on what's going on (how I'm waiting for my dr's test results and I'll get back with him when I know) but then I got up and I didn't. Seemed futile. I mean, he never emailed me back from the time I emailed him last time (on Thursday, telling him I had another dr appointment for Friday) so it's kinda like why bother? It's all games anyway and I think he's already written me off for good so...eh, why bother continuing to play alone?

Oh well. This was gonna be a one-liner to say I'm away from my pc sorting through the classifieds. More about the Festival later when I have time to sit down and write about it. I'm so bummed. I wanted to cry when I left there last night. I just didn't want to go. :( More later...

Sunday, April 14, 2002

Tired.

Long day at the Festival. Just got done eating dinner. Ready to call it a night. Details tomorrow. My Love was part of the act again tonight. hee hee. It rocked.

Sleep now.

Hrm. This thing has been open for hours waiting for me to type something but nothing's wanted to be written. Tomorrow is a sad day; the last day ever of the local Rennisance festival. Seems after 23 years and numerous attempts, the city has finally manged to get rid of them. There's no idea yet where it can go or what will happen, but having been there multiple times a year for the last ten years or so, I'm really, truly sad to see it go. It's a beautiful location, with wonderful people, great shops, and fun times by all. Every year I said I would find out how to be a part of it - so I could be a player in the "town". Now I never will on those grounds and who knows if I'll ever get a chance if they move out of the region. It's a shame. A damn shame. It seems so silly, but it's really bothering me and it feels a lot like a little death. :(

I'll be loading up on images tomorrow in memorial, but you can take a look now at the ones from my last day there last month.
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