I love my Love My Love normally gets off work at 5pm and gets home sometime between 5:20-5:45pm pending traffic and the need to stop at the store. Today, it's 4:57pm and I hear him come in. You're early! I call out.
"Yeah, we got out early for Memorial Day today" he replies. (wow. I was so out of touch I had no idea this was memorial day weekend)
Oh, lovely! This means you have Monday off then too, right? I tell him.
"Sure do! he replies happily. He comes into the bedroom and tsks that I've not yet thrown away my birthday roses. They're all dead in the vase on my pc desk. I hadn't had the heart to toss them yet. He takes them out all the while telling me how rank the water smelled. (yeah yeah, it was getting that rotting plant smell to it) He comes back in a few minutes later and tells me to close my eyes. I do and then he says to smell. I do that as well. I smell a rose and I open my eyes to see just the head of a rose he's holding. It's a pretty cream colored, pink-tipped thing. I smile and ask him where it came from. He says it was outside; it must have broken off and he thought it was pretty and brought it inside. He goes back out into the living room. I finish what I was doing and in a moment, follow him to ask about his day and such.
There's a bouquet of beautiful roses on the coffee table. In front of that is a multi-colored bag filled with gold tissue paper. Inside is a card, a bat stuffed animal and an angel statue. See, I collect angels. Especially the Boyds angels - and they have a new line out called "Charming Angels." They're simply beautiful. He got for me the "Angel of Love." She's simply beautiful. Her dress is casscading folds of subtle graded raspberry color and she holds a bouque of flowers. The wings on the Charming Angel collection are a semi-transparant so that light can be seen through her wings.
I start to cry. (Happy tears) And I ask him why? What's this for? No reason. Just because I love you he replies. I of course, start crying more.
A couple friends came over in the evening (Rand and Joolo) and then afterwards my Love and I spent the night together. We watched Moulin Rouge and tried our hand at making chocolate milkshakes (harder then it looks! lol). It's been a lovely day and I'm so happy it's a long weekend for him - means we can spend even more time together.
I love my Love. *smiles* I've got some more pics I uploaded to post, but for now, I'm calling it a night. G'night all.
New Cam Archives Up Ok, put up a two new cam galleries with some assorted shots. One is M: Vamp Style and the other is May Archive Check it out. :)
FTP IssuesM Just so everyone knows, there's been some up again/down again issues with both my email access and my ftp access. This means I may or may not get your email and I may or may not be able to publish my journal when I write the entries. I've been emailing my host all day and they're baffled.
--------------------------- Via Email Me: Is there a reason it's been so up again/down again all day?
Them: Currently I'm blaming it on Mercury Retrograde because we're all scratching out heads - but we keep looking for it.
Try now. Hopefully mail won't go down ---------------------------
Yeah. So....if you don't see any entries, check back later or tomorrow. Last night's entry was posted today for that exact same reason.
Presenting... Honor! In the brief moments that the FTP has been up, I was able to finally upload and (mostly) complete my friend Joolo's site! Yeah! You can find it here: www.honor.drinkdeeplyanddream.com I made the layout for him based on an Anime called "Trigun" because it's one of his absolute favorites. Go take a peek and in a little bit when I get his comment system working, leave him a nice note as well. :)
Uh...Anything else? No, not for right now I guess. Starving...waiting for dinner to be done. I've got some great pics to upload which I'll try to get to next. Food's up, so I'll add those later. Ciao!
trying to publish last night's entry since the ftp was down at the time I wrote this
You've Got to Be Kidding Me *sighs* Yeah so last night I discover I've been RE-infected with the fucking "Fun Love" virus. No idea how, it just came back. *fuck fuck fuck* So I spend the day - again - cleaning the infected program files and replacing - again - my explorer.exe file. Arg arg arg. I HATE people.
100 Things You Never Needed to Know About M After reading the random info tidbits on other people's sites and thinking I needed one of my own, I finally wrote it and now it's up and live. It will have a perm link in the side navigation, but you lazy folks reading can just click it here. It is what happens when it's late at night (about 4am) and you've got nothing better to do since your pc is swarming with virii. Blah. (don't worry though, I'm clean again now and it's just a straight old boring html file - no bugs within)
The Ever Chaning Email Status Yeah so I couldn't get into my ddd email for weeks for no reason out of the blue. Then, just as suddenly and without reason it came back up. Seems it might have gone back down again. *sighs* So, in the event you need to reach me, continue to use the webmaster (at) giveneyestosee.com one. At least one of them is working. Of course, I'm now paranoid about checking my email (*grumble virus grumble*) but eh, it's there. Also, don't forget about the "thoughts" link which leads to the journal's guestbook. :) I obessively check it several times a day. lol (I only wish I were kidding)
Nothing Yet Still nothing on the job front. AND, while I got a letter telling me I qualifed for unemployment back the first week of May and claimed my two weeks printed on the 13th as instructed, I've received nothing yet in the way of money. I've also not received any further letters nor will the system allow me to claim any additional weeks. ARG. Hello people, it's a whopping $160/week you've approved me for and I can't even get that?? There are SO MANY THINGS that are seriously past due, I'm late getting my car registration, and things are getting turned off and I'm not even getting any money in from fucking unemployment. cries.... Why do things have to be so damned hard?
Headaches and Migraines - Oh my! My head's killing me so I'm going to close. I had a migraine yesterday and it seems to have invited company. Ugh. Damn bright, white screen is really, really painful to look at. Hate that. Hate migraines. Hate the fact nothing helps anymore - over the counter OR prescription. Hate the fact my neck is so permanently fucked up in the first place that it gives me these damned things. (nothing like your vertebrae growing fused together poorly but not knowing it until its too damned late)
Have a good night all. (and stop sending me virii! grr!)
If you liked the "Attack of the Nerds" clip more then you like Star Wars, then go here and buy this:
Just thought it was funny. Haven't bothered giving olg Georgie boy anymore of my money yet to see Episode 2 and the jury's out if I ever will. (although I might sneek in to see it after something else that deserves my money, I'm not sure)
Ok, first off West Wing is such a good show!!! Gods.. *breaths*
It's a Kinda Magic me: okay...this kinda compliments me and disturbs me all in one: "You know, do you ever find it odd, so many have come and gone on this forum, so many strangers to you, have watched you at work, seen your snaps, read your journal, listened to and argued with your thoughts, come to know you in an almost surreal and detached way, people you may or may not ever cross paths with, and if you did may never know, yet have had you in their minds for at least a moment of their life, in some fervor or fear, some admiration or hatred, like ghosts about a blind God...just a thought.."
chris: that kind of sums up a blogger
me: yeah but I have 3300+ people who registered for my forum, more who didn't, more who only read the site or the journal, more who've been across it's assorted locations over the four years and that really is an odd and yet flattering statment.
chris: cult following of M :-)
me: I think those things somedays when I'm walking in the mall, noticing someone staring at me like they think they know me....I think what if they know me from my site? what if I know them? what would I say if someone yelled out Memory!
chris: I know what you would say chris: "MOOOOO!" chris: =D
me: *giggles*
Still though, there is something to be said for having so many people spend a rather large accumulation of time thinking about me - for one reason or another. It's weird. But, sorta cool at the same time. I don't know. Just had to share.
Oh this is the best. Don't bother if you don't have broadband - it's ten minutes long - but if you do and you think people standing outside movie theaters dressed up and acting out scenes from Star Wars is a damned foolish thing to do, enjoy. (it's from Conan O'brian's show and it's DAMNED funny) Attack of the Nerds
Ok, I officially fucking HATE the little punk ass shits who make my life hell because they create and propagate fucking viruses. YOU SUCK FUCKING DONKEY ASS YOU STUPID LITTE SHITS. Hide behind you're fucking loser ass keyboards in your mom's fucking basement, because let me tell you, if I ever get my hands on you snivling wastes of flesh you will regret it for the rest of your pathetic (and short) lives. Don't believe me? Scroll down, take a look at the pic of me with the sword and think long and hard about all the places I could ram that.
Yeah so, I went MIA today as I went about removing the W32 "Fun Love" virus from every .exe file on my machine. Including pesky things like systray and explorer. Thank gods for my Love who is the MIS master and who helped keep me from having to completely reinstall windows. Just a tidbit. Go right now and see if you have a file called flcss.exe in your C:\windows\systems folder. Because here's the thing. Even after running my virus scan and all and clearing out - one by one - the remaining system files that needed to clean copies there was one on my list we hadn't been able to replace. (and that Norton did not tell me I shouldn't replace. The flcss.exe file IS THE VIRUS. It's where it orginates and from where it propagates. If you have that file on your machine, you have the virus. If you clean that virus off your machine, your goal should be to NOT have that file anymore. Just an FYI since Norton didn't bother telling me that - I had to figure that part out on my own from the ever wonderful Google
Now, I need to go and locate my Tablet drivers and reinstall that since it was just easier to unistall it then try to replace that exe with a clean copy. More later.
Still wanting the Target dog for $2.44, still don't have a means to get it (no credit card). *sighs* Had an interesting night last night, more on that later.
20 May, Mon, 01:59:22 Google: see through cams x ray camera see through clothes
Yeah. Hate to break it to you but those x-ray glasses in the back of your comic? They don't work. And you're not going to be able to make someone's cam see through their clothing either.
*laughs some more*
The Target dog *bats her eyes* If anyone wants to help me with $2.44 purchase since I can't use my checkcard (it was revoked) and I have no other credit card, would you please, please please email me at webmaster@giveneyestosee.com? Please? I want the dog. :(
He's a whopping $2.44 but I can't buy him because my damned bank turned off my check card because of my back monies owed on my car loan. The stupid shits. I mean, TWO DOLLARS and I can't even buy him. I have that much in change in my piggy bank.
*pouts*
Anyone out there have two measly bucks to part with to get this for me? I'll even send ya the money back if you want via mail. I just really like the dog and wanted one back at christmas but lacked the funds to get him.
So we went back out to Target today to take another look at the Foreman Grills. Sure enough, we found the perfect one! For some reason, the location we went to today had a Target Limited Edition version which was $39.99. My $40 giftcard paid for it! Yeah!
It's a good size. We were able to cook some large cuts of steak on there (one at a time) but they cooked in a little under 10 minutes. First try a good success. Looks like a great purchase and my Love and I are looking forward to expanding our dinners with some more options now.
On a side note, I have to say I find it a bit ironic that the Foreman Grill - used to help us mainly have a way to cook red meat - was paid for by a gift card from my sister. My sister is a strict vegitarian. Hense the irony. *laughs*
Not much else going on then that. Just thought I'd share the yummy news.
me (12:35:25 AM): I hate when I'm out of sync... me(12:35:27 AM): no clue me(12:35:40 AM): just not quite "fitting" in reality this evening me(12:35:57 AM): happens sometimes. no idea why and no idea how to make it ok. just rights itself eventually. me(12:36:05 AM): sometimes a couple hours sometimes a day or so
chris(12:36:57 AM): I know I'm bleeding off excess energy
me(12:38:52 AM): I was sitting there watching highlander (the immortal edition on dvd) and i was so fidgety and buzzy/tingly and couldn't figure out what was wrong adn then I realized. ugh. I'm out of sync. I don't know any other way to describe it. its like I'm moving just a bit faster or a bit slower then the rest of reality. or I'm moving and it's still me(12:38:59 AM): its an agravating feeling
chris(12:39:32 AM): I can imagine chris(12:39:39 AM): i'm always running faster or slower chris(12:39:41 AM): never dead on
me(12:40:22 AM): i tend to mesh ok for the most part but times like this it's glaring. ugh. and just....uncomfortable
chris(12:40:37 AM): like a caffine buzz?
me(12:41:40 AM): eh...sorta. like a caffine buzz while coming off a boat all day where you stil feel like you're moving plus a sorta skin-crawling feeling and a weird tingle in your hands and such like ants under your skin all in one
chris(12:42:08 AM): ah ok chris(12:42:13 AM): not like what I'm feeling then chris(12:42:14 AM): lol
me(12:42:17 AM): lol me(12:42:35 AM): (and you think you're the only crazy one here)
chris(12:42:49 AM): oh no, I know you're a nutcase chris(12:42:50 AM): :-D
So we went back out to 
