So I dyed my hair last night. Actually my Love dyed it for me. It's good and bad. The good is that it's pretty red. The bad is that we didn't get all parts of it. I have like an underlayer of hair that didn't get dyed like at all so it's still really brown. I'm thinking I can possibly pass it off as intentional - like super highlights or something. Er, at least I hope so. Anyway, of course, I'm trying to get some shots and it's all rainy and overcast today so there's not enough light to really see it. (my hair is so dark a base, no matter what, it looks dark in shadow you know?) This one isn't a very flattering shot of me, but at least it shows the red more. The second one is just the hair color on the crown of my head - where it's the most red.
Hrm. It did stink REALLY bad. But didn't hurt my scalp at all which is a good thing - no like fuck that burns kinda moments. Anyway, that's it for now. Gonna go run some errunds with Rand while I'm waiting for my Love to get back from helping a friend from work move. After that, we're having a "gaming night" over here and there'll be a bunch of people over this evening. I promise I'll get around to catching up to date what happened yesterday, just need to sit and think about it some more.
Gods, a lot happened today but I don't feel prepaired to write about it yet. I don't know why exactly. Sorta trying to acclamate maybe to changes? I dunno. Just... a lot. And most of it decent for once, just I still feel bad. Sorta like, let down a bit...after so much suffering, I guess sometimes you think when it's finally over (or at least on it's way to being over) there should be more. Like it should be perfect. And you should be happy. But, instead, I'm just feeling kinda...I don't know. I can't figure out my feelings exactly so I don't want to say anything. I also don't want people to think I'm ungrateful or snobby or overly particular, it's just that things don't feel any better and I sorta feel like let down. I feel like people won't understand and that they'll think I'm stupid for not jumping for joy. I guess it's hard though when you've gotten to a point where you're so low that you can't see the stars anymore that when someone tells you they're still there, you still can't really see them. Or maybe, even worse, you didn't see them for so long so you remembered them as so much more then they turned out to be...?
It was a busy day and a lot happened but I don't want to talk about it just yet. Maybe when I figure out why or what it is I feel or why I feel the way I do, I'll try then.
In the meantime, I think I'm going to go dye my hair tonight. Did the strand test. Didn't look too different - just brighter - but smelled like shit. I hope I can handle it. Pics to follow if I do decide to just do it. (which I think I just might)
I've officially broken ground on giveneyestosee.com. After two months of trying to figure out what I was going to do, I've begun the very lengthy process of taking all of the personal things of me off DDD (since they don't belong there) and getting them situated on GETS. This will include my journal which will be moved to www.giveneyestosee.com/journal I just need to start transfering the files and resituating everything. Now would be a good time to start planning on updating your links. There will remain a permanent redirect at this address to the new one but hopefully by next week, it will all be on GETS like it belongs. Yeah for me.
Go and take a peek and see what the new domain's layout looks like. I've not completed the journal's layout yet, but it will match. (for now, til I get bored and change it LOL)
I have a follow-up interview with one of the companies I applied for and went and met with last week tomorrow at 2pm, so that's good. In addition, my friend Rand's company is looking for someone to do Marketing/graphics/web so hopefully I'll get one of the two. We need to do something, things are just insane. Like rent is due again on Sunday and we don't have any where near enough to pay it and my Love doesn't get paid again until next Friday. This means we'll be looking at having to pay some insane $200 in late fees again and we just can't do that. We're so fucked. I can't take it anymore, I really can't. It's not like we have credit cards or anything like that we can eliminate, all that's left is rent, electric, phone, our car payments and food (when lucky) I mean THAT'S IT and we still can't keep up. I've still not heard anything on my appeal for unemployment - filed April 28th, so glad there wasn't any rush or anything fuck so it's like sit and wait and watch as we drown more and more.
Anyway, I've been at the pc for hours and I'm tired and sore and my back is still fucking killing me so I'm going to go.
Ever have the feeling like your back needs to pop or something but it doesn't it just sorta squishes instead and that makes it worse instead of better and like when you lay down it doesn't help it just feels like you're laying on rocks or something jarring into your muscles?
Gods my back is so sore....ugh. It's like days now it's so stiff. Fuck it hurts...for no reason either. Ugh. And my back being sore isn't helping my neck either. It's traveling right up to my shoulders and neck and you know what that does.....brings on a migraine. *cries*
Yeah so if I had anything to write about, I'd write an entry but....eh.... *yawns and stretchs* I don't really have anything to say. *shrugs* Just checking in.
Whew! I had a fun night! :) Got back in just a little while ago from Rand's Birthday Dinner. We ended up going to The Cheesecake Factory and DAMN was it good! Beautiful place, excellent service, HUGE portions, yummy food and AMAZING cheesecake (like 30 different types too!) it ranks way up on the Go Eat There Now scale. Their menu is something like 25 pages long - you can get everything there from hamburgers, chicken, steaks, pizza, seafood, you name it - and the food was great. It's all just a big positive from where I'm sitting let me tell you. I'll be sure to make the drive there again to try a few other items that I couldn't decide between (for the record, I ended up having the Orange Chicken which was so yummy, served over white rice with steamed vegitables). A big huge thanks has to go to Rand's mom for inviting us and treating us to such a wonderful and fun evening. It was really great. Most fun I've had in a while. I'm still in a good mood. :)
So I have some pics to share from the evening and I wanted to let everyone see 'em. Click the birthday cheesecake to see them
What a great night. Happy Birthday again to Rand and ta ta for now to all.
Today is my friend Rand's Birthday so a big Happy Birthday goes out!
So, we're supposed to join Rand and his family out to dinner tonight but I don't know if he ever came up with a place to go yet. LOL I spent half an hour on the phone with him last night trying to suggest places we could all go out to eat but he wasn't liking any of them. Sheesh! ;) Not like I know a lot of resturants...if it's not a chain place like Outback or Chili's, I probably haven't been there. *shrugs* Just never had a lot of money to eat out at fancy places.
Anyway, Just a happy birthday wish I wanted to get out. Have some stuff to do now so I'll either post again tonight after we get back home or I'll post tomorrow about today.
Alright, since I was too tired the other night to write my weekend report and just too darned lazy to do it yesterday, here it is now. :)
Saturday, July 27th 2002 My Love and I got together with Rand and met up with Kali and a married couple she had met just recently to see a late afternoon showing of Austin Powers: Goldmember. I don’t care what haughty-taughty critics don’t like it, I found it hysterical. We all did. The whole theater was cracking up so loud it was hard to hear some of the lines. Mike Myers is so funny and the spoofs within the movie and the way they make fun of even themselves was the best. Very funny, I’d recommend it for anyone liking the Austin Powers series and/or that sense of humor. (though the movie is best when you are familiar with the other two; I could see someone getting rather confused if they didn’t have them as reference)
After the movies, Kali and her friends went back to their place while Rand, my Love and I went back to my apartment. Kali and her friends came over a couple hours later and we all went out to do some Cosmic Bowling. (This is bowling late at night where they have black lights, strobe lights, and loud [mostly annoying] music playing. It’s silly but fun.) I, of course, came in dead last with a whopping final score of 61 (lol I suck) and my Love came in second with 88. (The wife didn’t play, but the husband came in first at 105 and Kali came in third at 83) My poor shoulder is still killing me from bowling though since my right shoulder has been just wrong for months and I had gone and gotten x-rays and everything but my insurance ran out before we could narrow down the problem. (the short of it is that it pops every time I move it and you can hear bone grinding on bone whenever it moves so flinging bowling balls with it are not the best idea)
After bowling we all went back to the apartment again and my Love made a late night breakfast for everyone and we played DDR for an hour or so. By this point, it was like 3:15am and everyone packed it up and called it a night.
I proceeded to get on the computer and chat and surf mindlessly until I made the post at like 5am realizing it was 5am and that I was freezing and in need of sleep. So endth Saturday.
Sunday, July 28th 2002 Rand, my Love and I went over to Best Buy – Rand wanted to shop ‘cause he had a 20% off computer software coupon and then over to Target. I needed a couple things like conditioner and such and I decided to try to return the box of hair color I got free online for one I could use. Problem was, when Herbal Essences was giving away their new shades online and I picked the reddish one, I didn’t know it was for the blackest hair only. Or that it said in big, bold letters not to use on anything but black hair. It wasn’t so much red as it was just a reddish tinting for black hair. Not what I was looking for at all. So I’ve had this box sitting around until I decided yesterday to try to exchange it. I’ve never opened the box or anything and that’s just what I did. Target let me switch it out for another one. This is the one I got…
It’s pretty damned red. My Love picked that one out over another one that I was looking at. (The other one was Ferria or something but it was a darker red) He said that since every time I dye my hair it comes out only half as red as it’s pictured on the box, I should try for a REALLY red and see what happens. Eep. He thought the other one I picked was too brown-tinted-red where as this one is like just RED. I’m just worried because it’s definitely not one of the “gentle on hair” or “no/low ammonia” ones that I’ve been using so I’m panicked it will eat my hair. It would be cool to be a red, redhead so I’m going to try it this week and see what happens. (eep) Anyone with experience with this brand or anything is welcomed to let me know your thoughts.
My Love and I watched a DVD movie later on last night (Three to Tango, funny movie) and that was about it for Sunday.
Today, Monday July 29, 2002 Just hanging out so far. Writing up my entry offline to save on dial-up minutes. Tomorrow is Rand’s birthday and we may end up going out to eat with him and his mom but I don’t know where. Last year it was this fancy, rich-people kinda restaurant (his parents have money) which was nice enough except every item on the menu contained far too many ingredients for my taste. LOL. Who needs to put that many vegetables on food anyway? Anyway, Rand said he was going to try to figure out what restaurant would satisfy everyone and get back to us. My plans for something I wanted to get Rand for his birthday probably are not going to work now – which stinks ‘cause I tried a lot – but I won’t go into details just yet since he’s been known to read this. (*waves* hi Rand LOL)
Beyond that….not much else going on. Still jonesing to make more jewelry, still not having any supplies to do it. Though Joolo has his daughter this week (my adorable goddaughter), he said we might hang out one day and go in search of beads. Cool.
