Hrm..went to the Dr today and got some antibiotics for my reoccurring UTI (arg) and it was the coolest old house. (yeah his office was in a house like 100+ years old. Very neat. I wish I had my camera with me. Tempted to go back one day and take pics)
Got three calls today from some guy named "Tony" calling from some prison in PA. Yeah I have no idea who that is and damned if I want to. I mean, inmate? No thanks. Luckily one of the options was to deny all calls from the inmate so I chose that the third time he called. (the first was on my voicemail, the second I just hung up on but then by the third time I was like, ok, enough already.) Just a little weird. (and creepy. Did I mention creepy?)
Watched some tv - saw the series premiers of Firefly (created by Joss Whedon of Buffy fame [a great show]) and John Doe on Fox tonight and I gotta say, both interested me. I'll tune in next week too. Pretty interesting and entertaining. Piqued my interest enough for another viewing. :) Then we watched Showtime on DVD. It was entertaining fluff. Worth a watch, but nothing more. Amusing.
Now I have a headache from hell that's getting worse (despite taking some excedrin an hour ago) so I'm gonna log off. Ugh. Damned head. TTFN.
Man, I've been slacktastic on my entries lately, haven't I? There's just been nothing really interesting to talk about.
Tonight I had dinner with my family at this nasty little seafood place. I HATE seafood. My mom assured me they had a full menu (what a lie). They were out of chicken. So, I had the worst steak ever. (it was so rare and literally unseasoned it was uneatable) Then they ran out of french fries so I got the worst baked potato ever. My Love had some nasty ass ribs. There were only three items on the menu that weren't seafood and one was out and the other two my Love and I ordered and both were just bad. Baaad. Bleck. My mom's brother was in town which is why we all wanted to get together in the first place, and all of them are big on seafood except my Love and I...needless to say the hole-in-the-wall place was my mom's choice, not mine.
Have an appointment with the Dr. tomorrow. Seems I didn't take enough antibiotic last week so my UTI is coming back...arg. *grumble grumble* It's gonna cost $50 plus the Rx, but hopefully he'll have some samples (that's what he did for my sister when she went to see him).
Right now I'm kinda tired and wanting to either go sit on the couch and veg or go to sleep. Not sure which, just sorta tired and head's hurting from staring at the moniter. Blah I say, Blah!
One last thing...you gotta love late night ads. There's one for a singles chat line. And I don't know if they did this on purpose or not but it's funny either way. At one point they're actually very honest in their description of the chat line: "It's just a lot of guys, getting to know a great girl." Guys plural...girl, singular! That's so the truth! LOL
I'd write but I don't have anything to write about.
I'd babble, but I don't really feel like it.
I've just been feeling sorta...blah lately. The kinda lazy sorta boneless feeling where you don't really want to do anything even if there's tons of stuff you need to do. That depression-born-lethagry which sorta pours down all over you and makes each action like wading through quicksand. It's too much effort to do anything, let alone accomplish things.
Lately it seems I guess I don't feel the press of time on me for getting things done. It's like...well, it will be there next week too so if I can't get it all done now, what does it matter? I've been looking at money that way too. We have all sorts of bills and things that need to be paid and paid off, but I know we can't do them all at once. So why stress over it?! Just take what we can as we can and do the best with what we got. Unfortunatly, this isn't an attitude shared in my household and this makes everything stressful. Yes we owe money to all sorts of things from people to companies, etc. But what good does it do to get so upset that it's not getting all paid all at once? I guess I just don't see things as needing to be accomplished simotanously because it's impossible for it to get done that way. It's sorta like stressing yourself out for nothing.
Maybe through this process I've developed more patience for things. Maybe I've learned that you can't only not want but can't expect everything to happen at once. That you have to deal with timeframes and that's all there is to it. So, maybe this month Z isn't going to get paid, but because you did pay off X, you'll have the money next month to pay Z. To me, I accept that's just how it's got to be right now, but not everyone agrees with me...or, maybe, just gets more emotional about it. Logically there's only so much you can do and beyond that...*shrugs* don't let it bother you. You do a little here and a little there and that's the best you can hope for.
I don't know. I'm just accepting things the way they are and whether that's a good thing or a bad thing, I don't know. I just don't feel like getting worked up and upset over things that I can't change. I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of being depressed. I'm tired of feeling worthless. I'm just tired. And I don't want to feel that way anymore.
So I ended up babbling out an entry afterall I guess. I dunno. Take of it what you will, I'm just...blah lately. (but at least I'm not sick anymore. thank the gods for that) Maybe I'm just hormonal. It is that lovely time. (though the change in my Pill has thus far been working wonderfully and I actually started right at the time I was supposed to - something I've NEVER had happen in all my adult life)
Wendesday things were bad. I almost went to the hospital. Turns out my mom gave me the wrong info. I was taking the antibiotics 1/day and it was supposed to be 1/6 hours. (slight difference hu?) So I took another one and waited. Figured I'd see if it helped and if not, then plan on going to the ER the next day. Spoke with my boss. He decided they needed someone else. Pretty much expected that. A bit annoyed at the situation (being sick for a solid week was miserable but not my fault) but overall, I'm not taking it personal. There were a lot of things that weren't making it worthwhile for me anyway (from the $8/hour pay to the 22 mile one-way drive for hour hours of work, to no insurance or sick days and errands on my time without gas milage, etc.) My unemployment is paying more so I'm not stressing.
Thursday I finally began to feel more like a person again. Go me. Wasn't normal again until about Saturday.
Friday we had a group of friends over for a housewarming/gaming night sorta thing. We played video games, the guys played L5R, we all played DDR, etc. It was cool. (Of course, I spent all of Friday day cleaning the apartment from top to bottom for our company - ugh! - but the place looked great)
Saturday we had to drive to my storage unit to pay them and give them my vacate notice. Got out a few things - the rest needs a U-haul. Got some stuff done and got ready for my Love's family to come over for dinner on Sunday.
Went out with my Love to the beach late Saturday night too. Weee! I love doing that. It's my recharge and reconnect and I don't get to go out very often. (even though it's like 30 minutes away, we never manage to get out there) So that was lovely. Spent about an hour out there. :)
Sunday was the big family dinner. We had his family over and I spent quite a few hours being the gracious hostesses. It was nice to have them over. It had been awile. Next time, we need to have my family over.
So, it's been a busy time. Had a lot to do and a lot to get done. Feeling just about normal again which is a wonderful change and running around catching up on all I've missed the last few days online. Hope all have been well. I'm out for now.
