Ever have one of those days where you are sitting in front of the pc and you look at the clock and see that it's 5am and wonder why you're still awake? Well, that's me at the moment. The computer has now officially replaced the TV as the mindless "idiot box" in which I can sit, staring for like hours and not even realize it. Looooooong after I should get up and go to bed, I'm writing a journal entry instead.
And all this on a piss-ass slow dial up. Oh dear...this does not bode well for the day I get broadband back and I don't have to dial up and wait for everything. I'm such a junkie.
On that note, I'm going to bed. No really. I already told netscape to download my mail (there was none but that was a couple minutes ago..maybe I should check again... *twitches*) and that I'm offline so now all I need to do is publish this puppy and actually disconnect.
Says self as I try not to fall over from exhaustion:Come on...you can do it. Hit publish and get some damned sleep.
Spent all day running around with my friend Jef trying to find a costume. He found one (it's actually really cool, I'll put up a pic tomorrow) of Mickey in the Sorceer's Apprentise robe and hat which looks really neat. I am still unsure what I want to go as. I was thinking of going as Death from Sandman, but it's a rather generic costume: just look like a generic goth. *yawn*
So we went to this other place that had this way cool costume that I really liked, but it was $40 and we're soooo broke it seemed like a stupid way to waste money. But I think it's be awesome, so now I'm pining over it. (our friend has a Halloween party so I have a reason to need a costume this year!)
*sighs* I LOVE Halloween - it's my favorite holiday - and each year I swear I'll actually get a damned costume, and each year I never do. It's like not getting presents at Christmas, it just sorta ruins the whole day for you...the fun is sorta missing.
I just have to say...for those of you (like me) who enjoy the ease of facial cleaning cloths that are out now from every company known to man, to run and hide from this one. (unless of course you enjoy washing your face with what feels like little pieces of glass, or basically sandpaper)
THESE THINGS SUCK.
I've used ones by everyone from Oil of Olay, to Biore, etc, and saw these were new so I figured what the heck. No. Wrong. Uh-uh. Bad. Unlike other facial cloths which are generally made of a paper type material that gets nice and suddsy when you wet it, these are literally like a over-startched cloth. Things only get worse once you apply it to your skin. Are they on crack? Did they not notice the in test runs people were rubbing away layers of flesh from their face?? It literally feels like you are using sandpaper. They don't foam, or get soapy, or suddsy or anything. In fact, somehow, despite being IN water, they seem to not even get wet.
The long and short is run; run far away from these things. Bleck (and owwww...)
I made a few more necklaces lately that I haven't linked up yet, so take a peek at the latest jewerly creations. For those wondering, I am in the process of setting up a section of the site for just my bead work and will be selling them. If you are interested in something you see, or having something created, drop me a note at webmaster AT giveneyestosee DOT com and I'll be happy to discuss it with you.
More on the couches since several people offered suggestions (thanks btw)
1) they don't match because one is leather and one is cloth. there's no way we can make them match unless we slip covered the leather one and since my Love is in love with his leather one, that's not gonna happen. *lol*
2) the damned hallway is not only too narrow, but too short to let the couch through. ARG. So, despite a LOT of trying, it's just mathmatically impossible for the damned thing to get in there because the angle is just too narrow.
3) the living room looks nice, it's just killing my neck to watch tv from either couch now because there's no point where you can see the tv straight on any more; everything requires you sit one way and turn your head another. *oww*
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Besides couch issues....my mom's coming over tomororw to bring me her video camera to take some footage of Kush-ka. He's still doing fair, but is losing weight quickly despite continuing to eat. (though tonight I gave him some of my chicken from dinner and he ate SO much of it I was very happy to see that) The tumor is also as large as my palm now and horribly visable pretty much all the time. I find myself still crying almost every day over how close I am to losing him forever. It's hard to see him and not think about how the damned tumor is killing him. It's horrible to feel so helpless.
Anyway...no crying now. Doing enough of that most of the day as it is, I don't need to do it at night. I'm in such a funk...I'm so depressed. I see it in everything from sleepin way too many hours to having no appitite and not eating (actually be replused by food to the point of feeling sick) to just sitting around unable to even motivate myself to make a phone call. I hate it but I'm in it too deep to do anything about it, know what I mean?
So we moved the living room around today....what a mess. Thing is, I have a couch. So does my Love. Mine has been in storage for the past year and a half. The plan was to put it in the second bedroom since that's our "den" so to speak. Yeah. No such luck. The hallways is icky narrow with the sharpest 90 degree turn just to get down the hallway into the room. The couch - being a huge thing of overstuffed goodness - didn't even come close to fitting. So, now we had two couches - that do not match each other - and one living room. Arg.
So, it works out ok like on paper and in theory how we arranged it, but I'm finding I hate it in reality and practical usage. You can't sit on either couch and look directly at the tv - it's at a kitty-corner angle. Now, my neck is permently f'ed up - several vertebrae are fused all wrong - so I can't sit in one position for any length of time (think like less then 15 minutes) before it starts hurting really bad. Before, the tv was directly across from the couch, so when I needed to, I would just switch ends of the couch. Worked great. Now it's not so simple. Everytime you look at the tv, you have to turn your head in one way or another to see it. This is really killing my head and it sucks because it's one of the only layouts that was acceptable.
We went for a drive today to see an exhibit. The here is new york - a democracy of photos collection is in Tampa from September 4th - October 8th. If you don't know what this is, it's basically a collection of thousands of photos taken by the people of new york and those there, capturing the scope of 9/11. More then that, it's the personal stories through images of the people who were there and it began with one person posting pictures they took outside their store and people adding to it. Part of the collection came to Tampa and I had wanted to see it.
It was, without a doubt, a painfully real thing to see. I could feel myself tearing up many times as we walked through the 300 photos in the Tampa exhibit. Some of those pictures were so...raw it was almost physically painful to view. I'm glad though I got a chance to see them.
There is another larger photo of the exibit in Tampa here. My three favorite images are numbers 0785, 0367, and 0218 and can be viewed in full (and purchased) here. More information on the Tampa exibit can be found here.
