I was pissed last night. We talked. It was a misunderstanding (he didn't know I was waiting on him; he thought I didn't want to watch a movie and was on the internet). He appologized. It's all good now.
Got a couple friends over - Jef was here too, but he had to get to work - and made two new necklaces. (I'll put some pics up later). One is a Halloween one with a center bat, black beads and larger, orange crystal beads. Looks cool.
Nothing much else. Just nosing about the net. Kinda bored. Kinda just...quiet. *shrugs*
What to do if you want to piss your girlfriend off.
boy: honey would you like to watch a movie? girl: um, yeah, sure, ok. boy wanders away to computer room to play video game
two hours pass. girl sits on couch alone, reading a magazine the whole time. finally, discusted, gets up and goes into the bedroom and logs online.
*four minutes pass and boy comes into girl's room* boy: hey, so did you want to watch a movie? girl: yeah, two fucking hours ago when I said yes the first time as I sat on the couch waiting for you to stop playing your video game I didn't even know you were going to play. boy: well you should have come got me girl: if you pick a video game over me, I'm sure as hell not going to come fucking get you. you made your choice. boy: we can watch a movie now...? girl: no fucking way. I don't want to watch one now. go back to your damned video game since it's more important then me.
Tuesday 15th: Had an interview. Was for an executive assistant. Pay was well within my required range (gods, finally, something decent in pay) and the location was nice (only about 10 minute drive away) but they're technophobes. They don't have email; in fact, they only have one computer in all of the company which has access to the net. They have one "computer guy" and everything has to go through him first. She told me they aren't allowed to have screensavers or change settings or anything and that the owner of the company is fearful of computers and doesn't know how to use them. She also wanted to ensure I wasn't really interested in computers or IT issues since I most certainly wouldn't have anything to do with that since they have the aforementioned "computer guy." Riiiight. *cough weirdos cough* She said they'd call me this week to schedule a follow up interview with the owner, but so far....na da. They made me do a Word and Excel skills test *yawns* and they were all but drooling over themselves that I - wow, go figure here - actually do in fact know how to use both programs (who'd have guessed?). Soooo...eh. Looking like it was a dud since I've not heard anything back. Seemed to have gone well enough at the time - afterall, she did flat out say she would be calling me for a second interview - but... since it's not happened, I guess that's that.
Wednesday 16th: As I mentioned, Jef and I ran around a bit to look for a coat-and-tails sorta jacket for my Halloween costume (with Z E R O luck) but Orbie gave me an idea to check out schools. (someone else suggested I might try a bridal consignment shop) so I'll have to look into those ideas.
Today, Thursday 17th: My mom and sister came over. They were supposed to be here like 1:30pm, so I set my alarm, got up, showered, and was ready for them at 1:30pm. I figured they'd run a bit late and be here like 2pm, but I wanted to be done on time just in case. Of course, I was up until 4am cleaning the apartment to make sure it looked good when they came over which meant getting up early would sacrifice sleep on my part.
They showed up about 3pm. *sighs* Nothing like sitting around, wondering what the heck is up and no one calling you or anything. Blarg. But my sister wants me to make her a necklace and my mom wants to get together next week and head on over to the craft store to buy some beads as she wants me to make her an anklet. She's all excited over it. I'm quasi nervous since these will be the first things I've made on specific order for someone and only the second things I've made that went to someone. It's just weird. *lol* But, they'll both give me a few bucks for the time and materials so hey, that's cool.
Let's see...what else? I had a recruiter call me today for another job he wants to meet me about. An Admin Asst for a new financial company which will grow in the next year to be an office manager with people under me. Pay's good, but location is kinda far (like 45 minutes far) but...I'm meeting with him anyway on Monday because dammit, I need to get something.
I've been playing tag with the Unemployment office in Tallahassee the last two days - they called me and I had to call them back ("within 48 hours") long distance at my expense nonetheless, for what turned out to be crap. I had to explain to them about why I earned a whopping $72 from the part time job and now I have to wait "10 business days" for a letter and determination whether or not I qualify to continue my benefits. What bullshit. AND, I also have been "given" an appointment time (no calling and asking if I can make it, or scheduling it with me or anything) for next Thursday at 9am to "evalutate my claim" for continuation of payment. I won't receive any further checks until after I have this meeting (where I have to present paperwork on my job search and prove I've been trying to find a job) HELLO?! Fucking morons? I filed in APRIL, got my first check in AUGUST and haven't gotten anything since and you need to evaluate me to ensure I am deserving of continued payments?? How about ANY payments? How about MORE THEN ONE? How about fucking bullshit policy which has made me jump when they tell me to for a pathetic $167/week that I'm not even getting?!
ARG. I mean, it's not like it's important or anything, right? Afterall, it's only money...only my sole source of helping to keep a roof over my head and my power on and such. No, obviously it's not like they should be in a hurry or work, oh I don't know, let's go on a limb here, quickly or anything, right? I mean, it's ok to make someone wait five months for ANY money and then string them along another almost two months and tell them they may or may not get more. Fucking bullshit system.
Sorry. Just so damned frustrated. Like it's my fault the economy sucks and I can't find a half-decent job. I paid into the system like everyone else, earned an amount which I can legally claim to try to help me out a bit, and I have to work my ass off to see pennies of it, and deal each day with the threat of them withholding the rest if they don't like my answers, or they tell me the wrong information and I don't call in on the right day (and gods forbid you should have your phone turned off because you couldn't pay the bill, but oh well, that's not a "valid" excuse) or I don't get them paperwork (mailed at my expense of course, because we all know you have tons of money for stamps when you have no income), or whatever crap of the day it is. It's so stupid these people have such power over me and my life and can't just give me a shred of dignacy and let me get some help for the first time ever in my life. Because gods forbid the government actually tried to help someone who wasn't filthy, stinking rich. *fumes*
I'm going to close I guess since I'm just mad and will vent for another few paragraphs if I don't make myself stop. I just wish, for once, some of those rich ass fucks in office could live in MY shoes and see just how wrong the system is so maybe they'd actually DO something about it.
Well I was going to actually write up an entry, but my head is really starting to hurt and my eyes are killing me for no real reason suddenly (I'm actually typing this iwth my eyes closed - and advantage to being a good typist), so I'm just sorta checking in.
My mom and sister are heading over tomorrow which is nice enough in theory, but the place is still a mess from getting my stuff out of storage. I haven't had the $ to go get some storage containers and the boxes are all nasty, broken and overstuffed. Blah. My mom's really crazy about clean so I know her coming over and seeing the place a mess makes her cringe, not to mention the "judging" my sister will do. She's worse then my mom at times! lol
Eh. I'm just grumpy because Aunt Flo's in town and my head's hurting and this is the first chance I've had online all day and I can't enjoy it 'cause my eyes are trying to claw their way out of my skull. Blarg. Time for me to go. Damned head.
Oh yeah, Jef and I went around today again looking for a coat with tails type of jacket for my costume, but no such luck. So no this costume and no luck so far on my second attempt to assemble one...arg. Getting bitter. Why can't I have a costume I like for my single most favorite holiday of the year just once dammit?!
So I'm a slacker and never got around to uploading the pic of Jef's Halloween costume from last week. Transfered it off my camera to my pc today and was like...oh yeah... So..here it is:
I have plans for what I'm going to do, I just don't know if I can find what I need (a "riding" type jacket with tails) so until I can flush it out in reality, I'm not going to get into it. Though if I can do it (going to search thrift stores tomorrow) it will be cool.
Had the interview today and it went ok, but I'm pressed for time and trying to read up on a few other things so I'll get to it later. ttfn
Woah. It's suddenly pouring outside - literally coming down in sheets. Very cool, but I know it will only last a matter of minutes. That's how storms are here in Florida.
Just wanted to let everyone know I got a call back on one of the emails I sent out yesterday - and I have an interview tomorrow at 1pm. They're pretty close (about 5 or so miles away) and they want me to come in for testing and an interview. It's for an Executive Assistant position (ooh ahh). We'll see how it goes. :)
Running away now, just checking in since I've not been online all day and with the rain, I'll probably get disconnected anyway. More later if I get a chance (I actually need to go to bed at a decent hour tonight).
I'm really bored. Just sitting here at the computer, reading up on forums and such out of habit. Just going through the motions. Don't particularly care or find myself interested in the slightest in anything I'm looking at, just sorta doing it because, well...there's really nothing else to do. Went through the Sunday paper, wrote out all the job opprotunities I might be able to wiggle my way into, emailed off to the (ooh whopping huge number here) five which had email addresses listed and that's about the sum total of the productive stuff I have to do. Well, I could go take a shower or something, but...eh...
That's just how everything is lately. Eh or sobbing. Eh like now when...eh....just don't feel like doing anything; am completly unmotivated; and just sorta feel...empty. Then there's times like last night where I noticed something else wrong about Kush-ka's health and I lost it and started bawling again. I didn't go to bed until about 5:45am and couldn't sleep until like 7am. Slept 'til 2pm, didn't want to get up - didn't seem to be a reason. Every day seems just like the one before and there's no point to any of it.
Still not eating. Just can't. It's like I never feel hungry. Yesterday I managed four out of five chicken nuggest from Wendy's and a handful of fries. Munched on some tortilla chips in the evening and that was really about it. Tonight, I had one bite of the rice and chicken my Love made and I felt sick. I just get this feeling like I'm going to lose it if I even smell it or think about it too much, let alone eat it. I snack during the day on and off and ate some cereal tonight and a cup of yogart so hey, that's a lot for me lately. My Love's worried...wants to make sure I eat of course. I feel bad because he makes such wonderful meals - he's by far the chef of the household, I am no cook - and I eat a bite or two and feel ill. It's not him or his food...it's just...I don't know honestly. I wish I did. Maybe it's just depression.
Ok well I don't imagine D&D was evern meant to be played by 8 drunk people with a drunk DM, but that's pretty much what happened. I did freakin' cool (not getting a scratch the whole game myself and healing big-time just about every other party member) not to mention taking the final dragon down to it's last point. (where another player's cat familier killed it off *lol*)
Quite entertaining evening - a lot more fun then I expected - mostly because everyone was just silly, drunk, and making bad jokes and movie references all night. Didn't feel so weird about knowing squat on D&D since most the others didn't either and we didn't really get nerdy particular about a lot of things.
