I am not writing out the whole fucking entry again, but this is the sum.
1) it was really weird not have thanksgiving with my mom and family because it was the first time in my life that I hadn't. sucked because it didn't feel like thanksgiving to me because of that 2) we went to my Love's cousin, but she made a deep fried turkey and I hated it. greesy and scortched at the same time, it didn't taste ANYTHING like a turkey should taste like. so I was still jonesing for turkey and still hungry when we got home.
FUCK. I JUST LOST MY WHOLE FUCKING JOURNAL ENTRY ABOUT THANKSGIVING BECAUSE SOMETHING WAS FUCKING UP MY BANDWIDTH SO MUCH, THE ENTRY GOT LOST IN TRANSIT TO BLOGGER.
FUCK FUCK FUCK
I am SO NOT writing it again. I had a shitty thanksgiving but who fucking cares.
So.....there's this site called Meetup.com and they have sub groups of different types of people. One of them is witches.meetup.com They schedule once-a-month meetings of people with similar interests (in this case, witches/pagans/etc.) to get together in a public place and meet
Last week was the local one for my area. I didn't go - I never do, too shy - and apparently they got kicked out of Krispy Kreme donuts They were discriminated against after having it there 3 previous months for "disturbing the customers" Even though they had previous permission to be there and had done it three months in a row previous, they were still asked to leae.
Someone commenting on it signs off with the statement: bad witch, no donut. (that part's funny, the rest is pretty sad) It's pretty lame and in 2002, a group of nice, normal adults can't get together for a meeting without being kicked out of an establishment just because of their religious beliefs.
My sister just called me from NY. She flew up there last night to try to get to see our aunt. She said she had an excellent flight on Blue, but ultimately was too late. My aunt passed last night, about 20 minutes before my sister could get there. I didn't talk to my mom because she was laying down and resting and my grandmother just relayed an "I love you" through my sister. I told my sister that if my mom wants to call me later, she can, but doesn't have to.
Wow. It's just so weird. I haven't been up to NY in quite some time and it's been a few years since my aunt's been down here. It's strange to think I'll never see her again. It's weird to think that my mom is only one of five children now, not six. It's just weird to think of her as not being there. My sister said being up there and getting to the hospital - even if it was too late - really made it "real" for her. I can imagine. It doesn't feel quite real to me. I've cried a bit, but it's more because there seems to be a hole in the family now. I think my aunt is at peace and such, but... it's just strange her not being there.
Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there, I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow I am the diamond glints on snow
I am the sunlight on ripened grain I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there, I did not die.
I was feeling silly the other day and decided to throw together some of my left-over Halloween costume bits on and take some pics. The Silly Faerie & Purple Stripes gallery are the result.
Yesterday, my Love came home and got me, and we went out to dinner at Ruby Tuesday's with our friend Rand and his parents. They ended up treating us to dinner and after, we went and saw Harry Potter: The Chamber of Secrets. It was pretty good. The movie was really long, and had some slow moments, but I enjoyed it. I think the only really bad thing is sometimes the pacing was just too slow because I think they were trying to really include everything from the book. The special effects were better in the second installment and I really, really want a Phoenix now! :) (see here, here, and baby Fawkes here) None of these pics I think are that great, but IT'S SO CUTE!
Anyway, that was yesterday. Today, Jef came over and showed me the damage to his car - which, eep is quite bad (I'll get some pics up later) - from his accident on Friday and we watched Ice Age on dvd (which was entertaining enough, but nothing amazing). Now my Love, Rand and Jef are playing Hockey again on the Xbox. Later on, another friend Tommy's coming over and we'll watch some Buffy at 8pm. Yup, seriously exciting hrm? *lol*
I'm going to take a shower - spent all day cleaning, it's tough work keeping up this place! - and join my friends. More later. :)
Just in case anyone has been trying to get to the forums today, ezboard is having problems again. I'm posting this here since there's no other real place to post it. Even for me, on my cable modem, I can't get the forums to load.
Slowness accross ezboard network 11-25-02 We are experiencing a disk failure again and right now the disk is going through the process of fixing itself. This will slow down the network all day today until it is finished. No data has been lost. We are very sorry for the inconvenience this causes. We will be compensating all Gold boards for this time. -- source announcement
My mom just left a message. They got there ok. They're heading out to the hospital to see her oldest sister now. She'll call me later tonight and let me know how it went. At least she made it up there.
Well, I just got off the phone with my mom. She's confirmed for priority standby for a flight about 7:30am tomorrow. She and my grandmother are going up together. We don't know when they'll be back yet, they'll be flying back standby too, taking it as it goes, based on how her sister fares. I'm just so worried about my mom and grandmother. I just worry about how this will their health. My nanny (what we call my grandmother) is 87 years old and has had some health problems of her own and my mother suffers from a degenerative disease for which she is disabled and she has good and bad days. I worry that this climate change and the stress and pushing herself too much will get her sick as well. She's already been not well today, running a fever, and now she'll be sleeping all of about 4 1/2 hours before having to leave for NY. I worry that she will run herself ragged through this whole thing. At least, when they were driving, I could be with her and make her rest and take care of herself too. This whole thing is so stressful.
No parent wants to outlive their child and here, my nanny's ready to lose her first born. It's just...a lot. It's weird I guess, because I don't feel so bad about the fact my aunt is dying (honestly, she's been a in a lot of pain and I don't see death as a bad thing; I think it's good she won't be suffering the way she has been all these months) but I do worry and feel bad over how much it will hurt the rest of the family. My mother's father came over from Greece when he was a boy - through Ellis Island and everything. His legacy is seen in his six children, all us grandchildren, great-grandchildren and even a great-great grandchild. My Nanny raised the my mom and her siblings and kept up their business after he was killed some forty years ago in a car accident. It's pretty amazing when you stop and think about what he did coming from nothing and making everything for him and the family that's lasted so long.
I guess I'm just reminicing now. Thinking of my family and trying to imagine how this will leave a hole in it where there wasn't one before. So I'll hear from her tomorrow after she gets there and learns first hand what's going on. Until then, it's waiting. I just wish I could be there more for my mom. This is going to be so hard for them all.
