I feel so sad lately. So lonely. I don't really know why either. It's just like everything hurts. Like I'm trapped at the bottom of some well, cold and damaged as the world passes by so far overhead. And I can hear them; and I can see glimpses of them out there, but I'm stuck waaaay down here where no one even remembers I've fallen. I hate when I feel this way. It's like it just washes over me; crashing like waves on the shore. And I'm suddenly there, drowning, under the force of the sadness. and it smothers me. I don't know, I just sit and stare and want to just cry. There's nothing wrong, but everything is and feels that way and then those stark, cold facts start slapping me and it mreminds me there are things wrong and everything is not fine. I'm just so lonely and sad and even though I have friends and a wodnerful Love, it never seems to permiate into the sadness. it helps me not be alone I guess but never helps me not be lonely.

~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream at 1/8/2003 04:22:08 PM ~ ~