Hrm. Haven't really written anything in awhile. I guess I just haven't felt like going through the motions of recording the sameness of most of my days nor the banal drudgery which marks a change of my schedule. Like, while it may be a huge thing for me that I hung out last Thursday with my friends Jef and Kali while my Love was out helping another friend, and that we had a lot of fun playing Animal Crossing (GameCube) and Super Bust A Move 2 on the PS2, it just doesn't sound all that interesting, nor does it seem like it's worth writing about. To me, that was a massive shift in my schedule, but to everyone else, it's like: eh, whatever, so you played some video games. But my normal schedule consists of things that aren't worth talking about. Here's my normal day.

12pm - 1pm (ish) wake up
--spend a couple hours on the net
--clean and/or get some chores done
5pm - Love comes home, start dinner stuff
--watch a little tv
7pm - eat
--maybe watch tv, or a dvd, or something with Love for a couple hours
1am - Love goes to bed (meaning I have to leave my pc since it's in the bedroom)
--watch tv, doodle, work on necklaces, etc. Kill time
3am - watch People's Court
4am - 5am (ish) - go to sleep
Rinse, repeat.

This is literally every single day for me. This is why I really just haven't felt like writing here. It seems so pointless.

However.... the last week or so, I've been slammed with things I need to do from all sorts of people. Everyone has that well, you don't do anything, so you've got plenty of time on your hands to help me with my project syndrom and it gets to a point where not only do I not have enough time in the day to do it all, but I get so frustrated with the backlog, that none of it gets done.

For example, I've been helping my friend Rand's mom enter her contacts into ACT! and trying teach her how to use the program at the same time. This isn't a big deal; it's extra money for me and I'm helping her out. But then, she up and decides she wants to include all kinds of quote information in the contacts in addition to just the standard stuff like address and phone number and so I didn't know what to do with it. Well, I spent literally all day Friday (hours and hours) just trying to figure out a way to edit the database and the fields and the layout (figuring it all out as I went since I'm no expert at the program, I just opened the box, installed it and started going when she originally wanted to move into a digital database). I tried so many different ways before finally settling on the way it is now. I was talking to my friend about it over the weekend and it seems his mother was already overanxious to get my update as she had even more for me to do. Suddenly, it was like I wasn't doing enough, and that my progress wasn't moving fast enough. The implication was that I was slacking on doing the job. Which really hurt my feelings. I was actually crying about it today before I finally finshed all the data entry I had. All last week I had other things to do as well (like my mom came over and we spent three hours taking photos of items she's selling on ebay to raise money to help my sister get her dental work done - over 150 photos which I just now today had time to upload to my pc and now have to go through and edit/resize/format them for use in the ebay auctions, then still write up all the info and make the templates for all the auctions) and it's not like I wasn't working on the project for his mom, it was just that I had to take time to sit down and figure out how to proceed before I could even do the actual work.

So...I've been overtaxed and I still have to prepare all 50 of my mom's photos and auction templates (I downloaded an Ebay lister helper software that I now need to learn as well), fix two necklaces for my sister (one I already restrung, the other needs to be taken apart and then shortened), somehow get to Rand's house to drop off the latest update of the database and pick up the next batch of files (hard to do when you don't have access to transportation during the day), register, create and design a domain for my mom for another project she wants (we're getting together on Wednesday afternoon), get to Rand's to do another afternoon teaching session with his mom, and of course, keep up with the laundry and the cleaning and all the rest while still trying to find time to do my own things like manage my domains and forums and such.

All of that turmoil and I'm on my damned period as well. So I'm a hormonal bag of crying rage and in addition to cramps my neck's bugging me and I've got a headache. Oh yeah, and I've been having some nasty dreams. So NO. I haven't yet managed to get everyone's projects for me done yet. Grr. People think this is 10-minute stuff but it's not. Restringing my sister's necklaces is at least an hour/hour and a half each for example and it took me 30 minutes just to upload all the pics and will take a couple hours to edit them all.

*tense*

Anyway, that's an update in a nutshell. Not that I think it made any sense; like I said, my emotions are all over the freakin' chart and I'm just sad and pissed and hurt all rolled into one and overall, frustrated and not a happy camper.

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Oh yeah, and then my pc isn't upgraded yet either - that keeps just busting out - and let's not even get into the added depression of the Columbia tragedy as well. Ugh.

~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream at 2/4/2003 01:12:05 AM ~ ~