I hate when people ask me "So, what's new with you/So, what's going on with you?" because I end up standing there, blubbering for a few moments, utterly at a loss of what to say. Fact is, not much is generally going on and there's almost never anything new of any import to mention. So I feel kinda like an idiot, trying to figure out how to answer it without sounding either 1)boring 2)someone to be pitied or 3)completely out of touch with the world. I know they're just trying to be nice, but...I sit around the house all day, five days a week. I do some laundry, I clean the kitchen, I vacuum every now and then, I play with the cat, I surf the web, I watch some tv ... nothing's ever really new or happening. *shrugs* I guess I need to come up with a "standard" answer for those times when I can't think of anything real to reply.

Which brings me to the journal entry. How do you write and keep it updated when there's just nothing of anything actually going on? At what point is it just pointless babbling - having surrendered any pretense of being journaling? Or, is journaling, in and of itself just the process and not neccesarily the outcome? Do I serve the point just by sitting here and typing out mostly meaningless strings of words or is only real if there's depth to the posts?

Worked on making an over-the-top Halloween theme today for one of my message boards. Pretty funny. It's all orange and black with witches and pumpkins. I love Halloween. And I love the fact that the other night, there was actually a little nip to the air after sunset. Could it truly be? Is summer actually surrendering it's hellish grip a little earlier this year? (Can I soon take out my beloved leather jacket from it's months of unuse in the closet and actually get to wear it? *gasp*) I dare not hope too much, lest we get a freak heatwave that hangs on until November. I'm just so excited at the faintest gleemings of Fall in a land that's well into the 90's for about nine months a year.

Speaking of Fall, someone from px sent me actual Autumn leaves last week from her backyard in Denmark. How amazingly cool is that? She said she felt bad that I'd be celebrating Halloween without a proper Autumn. They arrived in perfect shape and they've got those beautiful fall colors I love so much and miss from my childhood up in PA.

Alright, I managed to squeeze some content into this entry afterall. Perhaps the ends justifies the means as by merely babbling I came to some actual subjects. ;) I think I'm calling it a night. I'm getting sleepy and my head's been twinging at me in the way that says it might decide to blossom into a headache - and nipping it in the bud by going to bed generally helps. Ta for now everyone.

~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream at 10/1/2003 02:26:31 AM ~ ~