bummed out and frustrated right now. just feeling really helpless and like everything just doesn't ever let up. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. it just seems like i can't keep buying things to distract me from my real sorrows, probably mainly 'cause i don't have enough money to keep me distracted. when the treats are so far and few between, they don't seem so much like treats, but borrowing off of tomorrow's impending disaster.
pawning off my tomorrows for a sliver of fleeting happiness today...

going to bed. should have gone an hour ago. not tired and at the same time, weighed down with a want to sleep and just not get up.

~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream at 11/2/2003 02:02:01 AM ~ ~