Saturday my Love, my friend Rand and I went to a Art Festival held in a park. The park had these cool metal sculptures in a couple places and two of them were down along the nature trails. We decided to go look for them. We're wandering around, taking some pics of the trees and such, looking at the cute gopher tortoises that live there, getting a bit hot (despite being November, the sun was quite hot and it was in the mid 80's) and a tad lost. We're walking down what we're pretty sure is the right path this time when this english couple comes from the other direction saying we shouldn't go down that way because someone just got mugged. (!!) Woah. We're like...mugged?. We stand around for a few moments, talking it over and thinking how odd it all is and questioning the validity of the story vs. the fact Rand and I are carrying cameras and the guys both have cash in their wallets. Unknown factors like whether or not the guy (if he existed as we didn't know at that point) had a gun or something also figured in. Another family came by from that direction and repeated the story so we decided it just wasn't worth it and turned around. Got back to the park building and the german tourist who had been robbed was sure enough on the phone reporting it to the cops. Oy.
The festival itself was ok. There really wasn't a lot there in terms of things that were real craftmenship. Nothing I was even slightly interested in buying. My Love was curious about it because his friend's wife has had a booth there for her jewelry the last two years and he was curious about the draw and the type of people to see if it'd be worth it to put up his own work there next year. The mugging situation wasn't a nice aspect, but the real shame is that the area isn't the best and I guess the guy just figured it'd be a good day with a lot of people around.
Sunday we went to Disney. We had upgraded our Play 4 Passes to seasonal ones. (because we were able to put the money we had already spent on the play 4 - more then half the cost of the seasonal pass - towards the seasonal one it was an excellent deal) We were originally going to take Rand with us, but he bailed at the last minute citing homework. We didn't get off to that early of a start, but then, there really isn't any need to since we have seven more months of unlimited park access to all four parks, it's ok if we get to the park at 1pm and stay 'til close at 7pm. We got to see the new Philharmagic show which was EXCELLENT! Oh boy, I really liked it. It's a 3-D movie, but has 4-D interactivity like puffs of wind and sprays of water on you. I really enjoyed it and it's on my top ride list. The other good thing was the Carousel of Progress was back open finally. It's my Love's favorite ride. The damned "Big Thunder Mountain" STILL isn't open (my fav.) which stinks since I don't think it's scheduled until like the end of November. Bah.
I had a really hard time getting up out of bed sunday morning. I was just getting back down into a funk because there's a slew of money issues again and I'm battling the concepts of needing to do things in life and take advantage of ways to get a lot out of a little bit of money (i.e. spending a small amount on upgrading our tickets and not wasting the money we already spend, giving us tons of days of fun and much-needed get-away) versus the guilty feeling from spending ANY money at all. We have so many things that need to be paid for that it gets overwhelming and so disheartening. I tell myself though that we all need to be able to get away from problems in life sometimes and that the small amount spent wasn't enough to solve any problems, so I shouldn't look down on myself for wanting something nice for the two of us. I spend every damned moment of my life just about here in this apartment. We haven't been on vacation in years and there's no forseeable time that we'll be able to, and we both love really being able to get away from it all by going to Disney. But that guilt nags at me though I try not to let it. And I talk to my friends about it and they agree that everybody needs to do things like that sometimes and that no one will think badly for doing something like that. Though I guess so many years of so much guilt from my mother make that little voice in the back of my head mock me and make me feel bad for the choices I make. Hell, I could have decided NOT to do it and the voice would have said I was dumb for wasting the money we already spent. *sigh* There's no easy solution. There's just so many times when deep-down, I really hate myself and I see myself as being really such a loser that there really isn't a course of action where I'd win. It's like winning isn't an option so I just do the best I can to minimize how much damage I'll take.
I dunno...
Anyway, I had fun once we got there and it did help get me out of my slump a bit, though if I stop and think about it too hard or for too long, it threatens to tilt on me again and slide me back down into that pit.
Today, my friend Rand took a longer lunch and treated me to Olive Garden. It's a rare treat for me since my Love's allergic to garlic and that means he can't eat pretty much anything on the menu. It was nice of him to take me and I know he enjoys the chance to relax and talk a bit as well. I had the yummy chicken alfredo and I surprised myself with how much of it I ate. (I normally eat like two bites and I'm full after a couple breadsticks with the alfredo dipping sauce *YUM*). I managed almost half of it which honestly, has to be a record. Not only do I rarely eat during the day (generally I nibble a bit, then eat dinner and nibble a little at night and that's it), but they give you so much food there's no way I can ever eat much.
I woke up though with the worse neck ache. Right where my neck meets my right shoulder, it literally feels like whiplash. I think I must have slept weird and pulled it, but oh my goodness, it's just been killing me all day. It hurts to turn my head and the asprin I took didn't do a thing for it. My Love rubbed it a bit for me this evening, but it's still just wickedly painful. I want to sleep (I'm so tired and woke up earlier then I wanted today to be ready in time for lunch), but at the same time, I'm worried that I'll sleep wrong again and make it hurt worse. It's times like this that I really honestly and truly need some sort of medical attention for this. Actually, since I've been to several chiropractors and they all are baffled and can't help, I think I honestly need preventative help like theraputic massages. I know it sounds silly, but my neck is literally and permantely out of alignment which causes me varrying degrees of pain every single day of my life. It's gotten worse over the years so that it's causing my right shoulder to be out of alignment as well and the shoulder grins bone-on-bone everytime I move my arm. It also will sometimes cause shooting pain down my arm. The thing is that I need it to not get that bad; I need to keep it loosened up so it doesn't get this way and seize up on me.
This evening my friends Jef and Karii came over. Karii had rented the Quiddich World Cup video game and we're all big Harry Potter fans so we were looking forward to seeing it. It was a lot of fun and though confusing to figure out what's going on (though it got easier the more you played it), it definately was a good game and we're thinking of eventually picking it up. Though the problem is that we're pressed for cash this week and both the Finding Nimo on dvd, and a new cd from one of my favorite female singers, Sarah McLachlan came out today. (This is her first in six years!) So...we want both of those as well. Need to see how things work out and go from there, but I have just enough left over from the Halloween Horn sales to pay for the cd. I might splurge and get it.
Anyway, I've rambled way more then I intended to and my poor Love's waiting for me to finish up so I can turn off the light and let him get some sleep. I'm going to go ahead and close up here. Besides, Jef lent me his Super Mario Bros 3 for GameBoy that I want to play anyway before bed myself. Night.
~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream
at 11/5/2003 12:45:59 AM ~
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