Damn. Damn. Damn. Damn! First last night and now again tonight! Grrr! Yesterday day I was fine. Then it got dark and as the night wore on, I started getting jittery. Like when you get a shiver or chills (the whole "someone's walking over your grave"/you're skin's crawling from the inside-out kind of feeling) sort of jittery. My whole back feels that way and into my arms and in my chest. Well it happened Friday night and now, once again, as the night wears on, it's happening again. For several hours now, I'm just aggravated because it's a horrible feeling to have so continuously. I'm not hyper, I'm not over-sugared, I'm not over-caffinated, I'm not drunk or high or anything! No medications, no changes in diet, nada! Just this damned annoying incessant skin-crawling feeling! I've tried expending engery, I've tried ignoring it, I've tried calming down, I've tried all sorts of things and nothing's making it go away even in the slightest. It's so frustrating and distracting. What the heck is going on? Is there some massive electromagnetic shift that's wigging my system out? Are there planets out of alignment or some damned solar flare or something? I mean what the hell would cause this type of feeling to come on at night and get worse as the night wears on? I could barely get to sleep last night (at about 3am) despite being tired because I just couldn't get comfortable.
So annoying and so stupid. Damn Damn Damn!
~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream
at 12/7/2003 01:39:36 AM ~
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