Bah. My stomach's mad at me today. For no reason that I know of, just one of those things. I get really sick of never knowing when it's going to bother me. It's fickle like you wouldn't believe. And it's frustrating when you can just wake up all kinds of sick to your stomach and there's nothing you can do about it and you didn't know it was coming. Makes life hard to plan for when it's just so random.

*shrugs*

So morning came too early today. ;) The alarm went off and I was instantly sad. Hate when I have to leave the warm comfort of bed before I want to. Especially when the alarm's the thing waking me up at 7am. Blarg. But, I had to come back in after my week off. I'm here today and tomorrow. The boss left this morning about 9:20am for the day. I think he's pretty much going to be out for the week. I asked him how the schedule was going to be for the week and he said to ask the other guys in the mortgage side (the credit side is closed completely). They all said they weren't going to be here on New Year's Eve so I don't have to be either. I'll have Wednesday and Thursday off then and back in on Friday. Originally, the temp job was supposed to run through the end of December, but I've not heard either way if that is still the case. He's pretty wishy-washy on details for things in general. Hard to pin him down for actual answers. So I may or may not still be here next week and if I am still doing this next week, I don't know for how long. I definately don't want to go up to full time, so if he wants that, I'll just find another part-time job. No biggie. If he wants to keep going for the time being, even though I hate the mornings, I'll do it. It's not that hard and we can certainly use the extra money. Help get us caught up on some old bills and maybe even do things like fix my Love's car so we can have two working ones again and put a little money in the bank. (It's hell not having ANY savings and no credit cards to fall back on. Emergencies are that much worse when you don't have anything extra.)

So....it's quite. Only two other people are here in the office besides myself at the momet. Tomorrow will probably be the same. It's funny when there's nothing to do because it's like why am I here exactly? *lol* I wish I would have known the boss was leaving, I would have brought my book in. I guess I could normally anyway, but I always feel weird about that kind of thing. But really, what are you supposed to do when you're only a warm body answering a phone that doesn't often ring? They say that it gets really crazy, hectic and busy around here when it's not the holidays. I don't know that I'd like that any better. Sure I like to keep busy (helps the time pass quicker), but being stressed out with two ringing-off-the-hook phones (six lines in total) doesn't sound like my idea of fun.

Speaking of fun, I had a good time at Pleasure Island on Saturday. The one club is just really cool and I forgot how nice it can be just to let the music and the beat thrum through your body. Just feel it and let it move you. I end up half-closing my eyes because I'm just channeling the music. It's really cool when you can just let loose a little. It's like when I'm singing and I really get into it. I always end up closing my eyes because I'm so intent on the notes and the passion and the emotion in the song that it's like a distraction to have them open. I don't even realize it until I'm done. *chuckles* I love music. I love how it speaks to me and how it's such a bridge.

Alrighty, well I'm babbling enough for now I think. Ta for now. :)

~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream at 12/29/2003 11:10:24 AM ~ ~