bleck. Just woke up from a bad dream. I hate that feeling when it's just too freash and real and too close to you still. Were you still feel the fear of it and the panic and your heart's still beating fast and the images of it are still imprinted behind your eyes the way the flash of a camera doesn't immediately go away. bleck.
Weee! Jef left Animal Crossing here with his GameCube tonight so I can get to play it as much as I want the next day! The only thing that sucks is that the shops all close at like 10pm. That really bites for those of us who want to play it at 2am. *grr*
I've got my Love behind me whining because I'm making him go to bed this "early" (almost 1am) because he's not feeling well and thinks he's getting sick. So he's moping over it and yelling at me that I'm still in the room and keeping him up. He's so cute when he's sick. Like all men, he turns into a big baby.
"Those who are not with Mr Bush are against him. Worse, they are with the enemy . Which is odd, because I’m dead against Bush, but I would love to see Saddam’s downfall — just not on Bush’s terms and not by his methods. And not under the banner of such outrageous hypocrisy."
I also particularly like the comment “Peace is also Patriotic" and it saddens me to think that people are hateful towards that line of thinking. This whole "war" thing mades me so sick, I try to not think about it. But, I really enjoyed the article Orb lists and thought it was worth mentioning as well.
Yeah! Slept great. Neck's finally feeling better. In a good mood for the first time in days. It's amazing how just feeling better - like in this case, how my neck's not killing me and giving me near-constant migranes - makes everything else seem better. Yeah, we're still dead broke and such, but that's not nearly as overwhelming when I got a great night's sleep and I actually feel good. :)
wee! But DAMN, I'm freezing. My Love's got the a/c blasting even though it's like 60 degrees outside. He's a freak! He turns it waaaay down low while he's getting ready in the moring, then leaves it that way so when I wake up, it's 65 degrees in the apartment and my feet are numb and there's icicles on the ceiling fan. ARG. I HATE BEING COLD!
After having a miserable headache again today from my neck to the point I was crying when Jef came over to hang out, it's finally starting to feel better and come out of the no matter what, my neck's especially out of kink and is causing non-stop pain back to the good ole' standard it just hurts, but it's background, I can pretty much just deal mode. The first I can't deal with - especially days on end, when nothing makes it better and I wake up feeling worse then the day before. The second, I deal with all the time and though I don't like it, it's a hell of a lot better then when it's really bad.
The only thing is, now I'm worried about going to bed because I don't want to sleep on it wrong and wake up feeling like shit again tomorrow. Ugh. But, I'm trying to think positive and stay in the mindset that it's worked its way back to what qualifies for normal for me and it'll be all right.
(fyi: my neck was damaged when I was born. I was basically pulled way too forcefully into the world - should have been a c-section birth - and this damaged how my neck grew through childhood. Two vertebrae in my neck on the right side, just below the base of my skull are permentely out of whack. This became apparent when I was about 12 years old and in pain every day. Numerous doctors and chiropracters later, no one had any solution for me and the universal conclusion was I was stuck. Even in the last year or two, when I tried again to see another doctor and chiropractor about it - because when my neck gets bad, it triggers migraines for me - he actually stated he had never seen such a thing, was baffled at the fact it would not even remotely respond to normal treatment, couldn't believe I could live with the amount of pain it would cause on a daily basis and actually apologizied and said he wasn't going to keep taking my money since he couldn't actually do anything to make it better. Such is the background story of my neck and why it's hell to live with.)
So....stalling but I'm tired, so I'm heading off to bed now. *yawns* It's almost 5am, I think that's way late enough to turn back into a pumpkin. :) ttfn.
Had some friends over tonight - Jef and Kali (Rand's on business trip in Canada) - and we played Mario Party 4 and stuff. Had fun. Got to play a bit of Animal Crossing as well but the damned shop closed at 10pm so I missed it and have a basement full of things I need to sell. So, I'm hoping Jef comes over again tomorrow so I can play it a bit during the day to make some money and pay off my house. (you can expand your home and each time you do, you have to pay off the loan for the cost of expansion)
Haven't really had anything to say. Been having problems with my damned neck again - it gives me headaches because it's permanently damaged - which really sucks and has been making me rather miserable. Still feeling really blah, empty, and just really disconnected. I think I need to get out or something to help brighten my mood, but without any money to do so, it's really hard.
Dozing on the couch, was waiting for the towels to dry so I could put in the wet load before I went to bed. It's done now, so I'm going to bed.
Someone gave Orb this link, and it's just so cool, I had to share.
Pendragon Shoes. They have some of the single, neatest types of shoes I've ever seen. From the fantasy ones (like the amazingly cool Titania & Oberon leaf shoes) to the summer ones (like the way neat Mercury sandles), these things are simply fantastic! I want like ten pairs! How cool are these?
...playing too much Animal Crossing (got Jef to leave the GameCube over here yesterday and between my Love, my friend Rand and I, we literally spent all day playing it)
...testing out a new keyboard my Love gave me for Xmas (but that I only hooked up last night) I like it and I don't, I'm trying to get used to it. My buttons are in different places (home/deleted/page up/etc.)
...sleeping far too much. I doze off all the time. I don't know why either. dozed off while my friend Rand was playing animal crossing this afternoon and again this evening while we were watching an episode of Highlander on dvd
....trying in vain to come up with a new style for the journal here. I'm SO SICK of this one, and I've come up with at least a dozen good ideas, but I just can't seem to get it to look right, or I'm being too lazy to really dig into the coding to make it work right, or a combination therein. I've been SO lazy about it and it's only getting worse.
...utterly unmotivated to do anything
.... utterly flat broke. we had to pay the rent late because we were short and now we're really fucked because it was a $102 late fee for paying it five days past due and in addition, my Love's fucking company shorted his check by over $100 and they won't give it to him until his NEXT check two weeks from Friday. so now we have $0 until the 24th and fuck if I know what we're going to do about it
...tired. worn-out. not wanting to do anything. not even wanting to sit in front of the pc any longer. I'm going to go away now. the pc's hurting my eyes.
