As I'm just ready to go to bed, I check px one more time. Even after the horrid news from yesterday, today was no better as out of nowhere, multiple posts spring up insulting me yet again - and I can't even fathom why. It got so bad that the owner of the site actually put up a poll to discuss whether or not he should remove the TALK feature entirely. I've feel crappy much of the night because how wrong all this hate is and how much it really hurts to keep being the subject of such hostility and attack. So I check the site before I call it a night and found something to make me smile.
How the FUCK can ANYONE place blame on Miss M. Turner unless they stood behind her and physically watched her delete posts? Who the HELL does ANYONE think they are to blame her for bringing malice into a site which she is such a big part of?
The only people bringing malice here are the people who come here to cruelly attack others, insult their interests, and point fingers… and of ALL the places on the internet but HERE.. the site about speading joy and love to others.
You people should be ASHAMED of yourself. In a world filled with hate an darkness, our little home on the web to bring sunshine to someones cloudy day is now MARRED because of you SELFISH and CHILDISH imbeciles.
There is NOTHING stopping you from leaving here. NOTHING. Take your hatefulness and your spite and go ELSEWHERE. And leave Miss M. the HELL alone. —anon
To the person who wrote so bluntly this support, thank you. I was truly touched. Several people - friends I've made through the site - have emailed me this evening just to tell me that they are sorry for this wickness and to remind me they don't believe for an instant any of it.
And some others have posted similar thoughts as well on the site...
I don’t some of the above people understand! Miss M. Turner is not a bad person or a hurtful influence on this website. Someone has been using her name to send and do nasty things. She has always been an amazing contribution to this site, and I always get happy when I get mail from her. You’re all wrong to think such negative things of her. Anyone else who has ever recieved something special from Miss M. Turner should stand up for her too. -miss tina
You’re a great gal and I love getting mail from you. Smile. Don’t let the punks get to you.
From what I’ve seen from Miss M. Turner on this site, I think she’s a great person and does not deserve unprovoked attacks.—Anna Banana
I also got a half dozen comments in the px LJ after announcing the hate mail fraud issue there. All of it has helped me overcome these pointless attacks and made me realize that the site and it's people are more then these jerks. That, now more then ever we need to reclaim the site from them and send even more joy out. In the end, I really do believe that there are more good people then bad and that together, we are so much greater then their petty hatred could ever be. Seeing that first post I quoted though just really brought it home for me. Just cinched the understanding that they can yell and rant and be hateful all they want, but we will still be positive role models and that we will walk the world aware.
So thank you mby anon uplifter. You've brought me a sense of solace in admist a whirlwind of sorrow.
I feel ready to vomit. Someone on px just made a note letting me know she received hate mail with my name signed to it.
fucking HATE MAIL and they signed my name
I'm so upset by this I'm literally shaking. I keep having to back up because I'm trembling with just disgust at this whole thing I can't even type straight. I mean, forget for a minute how illegal it is to send mail to someone that's hate mail and a fraudulant name on it, but fuck...someone's out there trying to drag me in the middle of shit that I have nothing to do with. Someone out there thinks it's funny or some shit that they're causing trouble. I have no idea if this has happened in the past or if it will happen again. I have no idea how many other people have been victims - either receiving this hate mail or having their name stolen and attached to it. And I have no way of really, ultimately doing anything about it. And it makes me sick. Just fucking sick.
So on another blog, I find a link to a site that's trying to start a movement to get web buttons to be vertical rather then the standard, horizontal. It's called The Vert Project. The cool thing is that if you go there, the site owner will make you a vert or two for your own site to help promote the idea and spread the word. Curious, I asked and he sent these:
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Pretty neat, hu? So, I'm going to add one to the sidebar for people to use as a link back. Feel free to go to The Vert Project yourself and request your own vert. :)
Last night I finished up another photo project. This one was set-up through pX and started by a friend of mine. It's called The 9. So, I wanted to share my gallery which can be found in my postcardx section of my site. They're not all that terribly exciting, though you can see the other people who participated here. (sheesh! How many links can I make in one paragraph? *lol*) Seeing as I never get out-and-about (owing to having no transportation), the pics are pretty much all things I took around the apartment. The exception is the Imagination photo which I specifically went to Epcot on our lasttripthere. :)
So...feel free to take a peek. I'm off to go get slightly more human. (I'm thinking a nice shower sounds like a plan) Ta for now.
Exciting day today. *snickers* Cleaned the kitchen. Did dishes. Did towels and washed the sheets. Cleaned the living room. Vacuumed. Fun, fun fun, hu?
And now there's some new options on my blogger set-up. Guess you can change the date of your posts and stuff now. Hrm. Odd. Eh, one of these centuries I need to get around to changing over to MT like I planned to do oh, about two months ago when I downloaded it and printed out like 100 pages of manual. *sigh* Laziness sucks. Oh well. Too lazy to do anything about it.
Dropped off another application at another bookstore over the weekend. Dammit. Why is it so hard to get a damned bookstore to hire me part time? Couple hours a day, couple days a week. Probably the issue is that I'm unwilling to consider nights or weekends. I only ever get to see my Love those times and it's not worth it to me to give that up. I'm thinking though that within the next month or so, companies will be looking for seasonal help, so while I might have to expand out past my preference of a bookstore, I'm sure I should be able to find something. I better dammit. I mean I have four years of retail experience and six years in offices. I think I can handle it.
Anyway, it's 7pm and West Wing is coming on Bravo. Out for now.
Rawk. It worked. See, the funny thing is that after writing Sunday's entry about not feeling good, I started to tinker with the autumn color scheme. Yeah, makes sense, right? Ill and coding. ;) I did most of it, but then decided I just really didn't feel great and stopped. Today I remembered about it and decided to put the finishing touches and upload it.
It doesn't actually turn to Autumn until the 21st, and we will be in Summer here in Florida through at least the end of October, AND we don't have leaves that change color (no really, none at all), but....I love the autumn. Growing up in the middle of nowhere PA surrounded by miles of woods on a mountain, I have a great fondness for the colors of Fall. So, that's the inspiration for this version.
Just a couple more touches (like updating my journal currents i-frame background to match the new scheme) and we'll be done. :)
Wedding last night wasn't too bad. Though there wasn't any real food - just dessert finger foods and fruit cubes - so when we left there we hit a Super Wal-Mart on the way home to grab some dinner. Got home a little after 11pm. We watched like three episodes of Sopranos on HBO - they were just on back-to-back-to-back - and then I feel alseep at like 3am and my Love put me to bed. I wasn't feeling so great last night; like my nose and head were kinda stuffy.
Today I get up and I feel like I was run over by a Mac truck in my sleep. I'm achey and sore and just want to curl up and sleep. I think I'm getting sick. My friend Karii was really badly sick last week so there's a chance I might have gotten it from her. I hope not. I did manage to get myself out though to drop my application off at Barnes & Nobles because I'm still trying to find a bookstore that is looking for some part-time, day help. (I refuse to do nights or weekends since it's the only time I ever get to actually see and interact with my Love). *fingers crossed - esp since Waldenbooks never called me back* There's a Borders opening a little further away soon so they're my next stop. I was really hoping for the Walden though since they're the closest. Eh, something should come along, people will be looking at the very least for some seasonal help soon.
Blah though. I just feel so beat up. It's like all I can do not to just fall asleep right here at the keyboard. Got myself some soup and some saltines so even if I am getting sick, I'll have something to eat. Chicken noodle soup of course, is a cure-all and it always makes me feel better when I'm sick. Even science got around to proving it works. And, my favorite brand, Lipton (Extra Noodle) even made the cut. All those Grandmothers and Mothers for generations knew what they were talking about all along. *smiles* So...soup for me and some sleep. Hopefully I'll feel better soon. If not, well...I'll be the corpse under the blankets. ;)
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