So.....after last night reading and panicking and then today crying and talking to everyone from my mom, to my friend, to some friends online, I'm not any happier about the situation, but I'm trying to not think about it. At least not dwell on it. I'm still really worried about it. And the idea of my world getting smaller and smaller on me brings me to tears....so....instead, I'm just pushing it aside for now to get through the next couple days.
Accomplishment
Today we went and got my new glasses and my sunglasses. Ended up getting an amazingly good deal. It's still a lot of money but not as much as I was worried about having to spend and worth it in price for what I got. Two pairs, metal frames. Ultra-thin lenses (a neccesity lest I have coke bottles on my face), anti-glare on my regular ones and polarization on my sunglasses (another necessity since I need to cut down on glare), both frames ended up being brand name ("designer") frames complete and ready for pick-up tomorrow for $300. We got half off the complete set of both, plus a friend of a friend worked there, recognized us and gave us a "price match" taking another $70 off my price. The lenses alone for my standard pair were $105 a LENSE. The total cost before discounts was over $740. So, yeah, a lot of money. And money we don't have for other things (like getting our 2nd, unworking car to work again so I can maintain a permanent part-time job) but it's one less thing to worry about. Thank you tax return. Tomorrow after 2pm, I'll have my new perscription and even a pair of sunglasses after over two years being without. (The last time I had sunglasses, they were before I had glasses at all.) Anyone who has to get glasses and doesn't have insurance and is blind can appreciate a good deal with glasses.
All Dressed Up
Made some more penguins tonight. One of them is going out in the mail tomorrow for the lovely lady who ordered two bracelets and a penguin from me. It's a really amazingly cool feeling to have someone want things that you craft and to be excited over it. It reminds me how glad I am to have - at the moment at least - some calmness to my sites so I can FINALLY get around to working on my site and offer more things for sale. There's stacks of jewlery around here and I know that it's nice and that people would like it. Despite my nervousness of not being good enough, deep down I know that's silly - just artistic stage fright - and I think of how good it feels just to have even one person wanting things I've made. *smiles* I do have two extra penguins so let me know if you are interested. They're cute, little and perfect for the Linux lover. =D
More from the Stupid Commercial File
Watching a lot of tv (as always; believe it or not, it gets boring to sit at the pc all day long) and there's just so many stupid commercials out there. So many in fact, that I often think they deserve to be publically mocked. One that springs to mind and has been lurking as a topic for an entry is for a local community college. You know the kind that have "specialized" associates degrees meant to just give you job training? So, the guy walks into this call center. And the people are all bored as they answer the phone. He comes in and gives a big speech about how there's more out there and "do they really want to answer phones the rest of their life?" Then he pimps the phone number to call their college. As the operators all get up to go find a better career, he takes one of the empty headsets and tells the person on the other end, "Operators are not standing by." The voice-over annoucer then pimps the number to call the college again and mentions they're there 24/day to take your call. I can't even imagine the water cooler at THEIR call center the first day that commercial was on tv. Answering phones is awful and belittling work - so call us now, talk to one of our representatives and get a better job! It's a Homer-slaps-his-head-and-says-D'oh! moment if I ever saw one.
Take THAT cd industry!
Got my $13.86 check today as well. Finally. I was worried that I got left out. Hey, $14 is $14 and I don't look down on any free money coming my way. You're damned skippy that they overcharged on cd's. Good for them that they had to pay out at least something. It may not do very much, but it's still money back in my hand.
Influence of Books
So I mentioned a few weeks ago about how I was reading this book (Battle of Evernight) with very formal tones to the writing. And how it was bleeding over into my own speech and way of typing. The funny thing is that now I'm reading this other book (Daughter of the Forest) in which the main character is forbidden to speak lest she cause a horrible spell to never be undone. And I find myself reading it - as I was late last night for about an hour - and being quite myself. Not speaking. It's funny how that happens. Mika was getting into things but instead of yelling verbally at her, I smacked my hand down for example. I noticed how I was tending to do as she did the same as I did in the book with formal speech. And I wonder at how common that is. Do people get as wrapped up in their books as I do? It's like there's a world going on and when I'm away from the book, it's just on pause; holding and waiting for me to come back. Silly I know, but still. Books affect me and I don't think that's a bad thing. (Though I don't know if the optomitrist was joking or not when he asked if I read a lot as a child and commented that might have lead to my nearsightedness. Sounds too fanciful to be true, but then again, who knows? I went from 20/10 vision to 20/400. As good an excuse as any! Is that why so many bookworms wear glasses? *chuckles*)
The Rest
I don't yet know what this weekend has in store. We can go get my glasses tomorrow (as I upgrade my prescription for the first time...hope it's not like when I first got the glasses - everything swam for days and it was horribly disorienting. I'm hoping that it will just be a bit different, but not sickening. I'd hate to be queasy over the weekend.). Beyond that, who knows? It's cold out right now (actual is 47F with a feels like of 41F) with tomorrow looking to be in the low 60's for the high. This time of year it's like that though. 84F one day; 57F the next.
Well, I guess I've babbled enough. Trying to keep my mind busy so I don't let myself get - or stay - in such a funk over this cataract thing. (ugh, I hate that word) I upset my mom today. Didn't mean to, but I started crying when I was talking to her. I wanted to confirm that there was no family history of such a thing (there's not) and I just lost it. She called me later this evening and was teary-eyed herself telling me not to let it get to me so much. I know she's right, but I think right now I just don't want to think about it for a few days and maybe let the idea settle down in where it doesn't hurt so much and seem so sharp.
So on that positive note (*snorts*), I'm going to poke around the net a bit and call this entry done. Ta for now.
ps...thanks to everyone for the kind words of support.
~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream
at 2/27/2004 11:52:37 PM ~
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