I'm still very hyped today. I find myself unable to fully calm down after last night's moments of introspection and connection. By now, normally I'll have come back to myself; or, more commonly, find myself sleepy, tired and worn. Today I'm still jittery with this unexpressable need to do something. But I don't know what it is. It's too much, too much and it won't let go. Last night, it felt like I was ready to explode; like I was reaching a critcal point where my body simply could not handle it any longer. It swept over me like a tidal wave, burning me from the inside out.
I don't know how I managed to sleep. I don't know how I manage to move through the motions. It's so big, so looming, so much. Something inside needs out; needs to do something; needs in a way I can't explain.
Where do I go? How do I make sense of this?
~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream
at 6/28/2004 02:38:49 PM ~
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