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There are people on the net that have nothing better to do with their time
then be nasty to other people online. They post rude comments, spend hours
a day talking about sites they hate so much, that they well, spend hours a
day talking about them. (lame) They mock the owners and posters for their
opinions and their right to free speech. They expect everyone to fit into
their narrow-minded little world view or else they throw a temper tantrum.
To these people I say grow up.
Here's a bit of info people...the web is
a HUGE place. If you don't like what I say here, or who I am, or what I
do, or talk about, or what I look like, or the color of my hair, or
whatever asinine thing you dwell on, go somewhere else. It's
really, really easy. Honest. You just click the little "x" in
the corner of your browser and *poof* the offending, big, mean and nasty
site has disappeared.
I pay for this site. It's mine. That
means I can use it for whatever the hell I want to. Don't like it if I'm
bitching about something in my life? Oh fucking well. Go somewhere else.
Think I'm stupid for expressing my thoughts? Too fucking bad, don't read
them. Somewhere along the line, someone forgot this simple fact: Live
and let live Don't like me, cool, fine, whatever, I don't care.
This journal is NOT for you. It's for me. I'm not in it for popularity or
fame or anything stupid like that. I write it because I need to write and
express myself and get things out of my head sometimes. So read or don't,
it doesn't matter, but don't waste my time (or yours) bitching about it.
*gets off soapbox*
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004
With Several Hours Left Still To Go
...I'm running out of things to do. Heh. For those of you who don't know - which is probably everyone since I don't think I mentioned my plans previously - I'm holding vigil through the Solstice. It's the longest night of the year. Darkness holds power tonight longer then any other night. And yet, at it's end, the Light does come back and we move towards ever lengthening days. There's hope at the end of the dark night. So, I'm keeping Watch through the night and will not sleep until dawn. Last year, I think I only made it until about 5am. But sunrise is not until 7:19am. It only being 4:45am, I still have a ways yet to go. Winter has officially come. And it's going to be 75F outside today. Oy. The weekend will be a little cooler - highs in the low 50's during the day - but apparently rainy. Bleck. There's a neat celestial event going on right now - five planets visable with the naked eye in the hour before dawn. A heavenly show awaits stargazers this holiday season: Over the next few weeks sky-watchers can spot five planets in the same nighttime sky. I was thinking of trying to peek outside this morning - since of course I'll be up - but I realized, I have no clear view of the low sky. Hopefully, sometime before it's over, I can get out past my apartment buildings and to some open area to see them. I'd really enjoy that. It's hard though when you live in urban areas. Despite being very flat and sea level in altitude, anything around you obscures your vision. Buildings, street lights, etc. It's frustrating. Anyway, if you get a chance, it's worth getting up a little early for. Five planet convergence is a pretty cool event. 4:54am. Hrm. This isn't eating up as much time as I hoped it might. Hee Hee. Normally, it does. I get started on an entry and next thing I know, I've been at it a half hour or something. It's that whole lack of time sense thing. I can't discern how long it's been since I started doing something, or how long it's been since I went somewhere. Everything from five years ago to yesterday feels like a couple days ago, or a couple weeks ago at most. There's a liner sense of progression of events - one thing, then another after that - but no distinction of the space between the events. So, unless I specifically remember a date, no concept of when it actually happened. Like, going to MVMCP - which I know was the 3rd - feels like it happened a week or so ago. But it was really 19 days ago. Almost three weeks. Doesn't seem possible. But, it is and so it's why I never realize how long I've spent doing something until I look at the clock. I try to remember to glance at it regularly, but that doesn't always happen. Because "regularly" is relative to actually posessing a sense of time. Tomorrow, we're going to see the Phantom of the Opera movie. I already pre-bought our tickets. The play itself is actually showing in Tampa this month and we had really wanted to see it again (we saw it a few years ago last time it was here) but it's not even close to being in the budget. Thankfully, we're getting the movie here tomorrow. Huh. Looking at the site, it says "select cities Dec 22nd/Nationwide Jan 21st." I could have sworn it was opening on Christmas Day for everyone. When did it get moved to January? Hrm... Brr...Love has the fan on in here. On high nonetheless. And I'm freezing. Doesn't help that I'm tired. Whenever I'm tired, my already really low body temp (think like 96 and change - 97 and change F) gets even lower and I can't get warm. Of course the really odd thing is that when I sleep, I get hot. It's the only time I'm ever honestly really of a normal, hot body temperature. Taking it one step even odder are my feet. My poor feet are always cold. And I mean always. Even in socks they can be cold as ice. It's near impossible to get them warm. And yet when I sleep, I havet to actually take my socks off and often stick my bare feet out from under the blanket to help keep me cooled down enough. It's the oddest thing. If you know me, you know I can shiver on a sunny day. So the complete turn-around when I'm sleeping - the time your body temperature normally is at it's lowest - is just baffeling to me. By the time it's morning, I'm often times actually hot even if it's cold out. Of course, by the time I wake up and get out of bed, withing 10 minutes or so, I'm not hot anymore and generally back to being cold (and wondering why I was in such a rush to get out from under my covers!) 5:19am...started meandering around google looking at body temperature articles. Anyway, I'm kinda staring into space, so I think a change of scenery back to the living room is in order. Besides, my afghan is out there and no ceiling fan on high. Just about two hours to go...
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