Ok, just a head's up... My journal and domain may go missing for a couple hours to a couple days depending on how quickly the dns changes propigate.
My host is upgrading our servers and we're getting a MUCH better deal, more options and all that jazz, but.... it's a nameserver change. My files have already been copied over - though I'm purposefully posting to the old files and have not yet changed the nameserver info to let people reading have warning why I might be down. When I get home from work this afternoon, I'm going to changeover the dns info and then it's waiting until the changes take place. Hopefully soon, my domain will be resolving on a way faster server and everything will be seemless and smooth. I'll post when we come back.
Thanks and see you on the other side of the move!
*pokes entry to see if it will show up on the new servers*
In order to get my mind off the horribly nasty woman here at my temp job and her latest bitch-fest attitude (though hopefully I pretty much won't ever have to speak to her again since I no longer have to answer her phone line), I was surfing through px and looking at people's profiles. One asked the question, "how do you find peace?" I thought it would be a good thing to think about and focus on some positive, joyful and happy moments of life. I'm sending them out to some px'ers as random mail joy, but I liked the list I came up with and figured I'd post it here as well.
some simple pleasures, joyful moments and favorite things... a hot cup of tea on a cool night my toes digging into the sand as the surf rushes past my ankles being lost and engrossed in a good book that soft and warm feeling of being under your covers - esp when you know you can sleep in snuggling up to my Love, my head on his chest listening to the sound of the wind through the trees a thunderstorm at night the rich smell of a scented candle like vanilla or macintosh daydreaming (anywhere at anytime) singing (the way it feels when my voice merges and blends with the music) driving, windows down, no traffic feeling the speed the first taste of winter's approach being enchanted and enthralled in natural beauty - a flower; a sunset; a spray of leaves my cat purring on my lap, content cloudwatching savoring something rich like cheesecake or a chocolate mousse the clean smell of the air around rushing/falling water warm sunshine on your face cookies fresh out of the oven trying something creative/artistic for the first time and having it work out
What are your simple pleasures and joyful things? Take some time today and think about them. It will really help you feel better and your mood uplifted.
Ah...viva Claritin! Took it at about 10:30am and have been able to breathe though my nose ever since. No more sneezing either. I've not been coughing and my throat doesn't feel so constricted. This is all a Very Good Thing. My chest/lungs still feel like there's more weight pressing on them then there should be, but it seems minor compared to the relief I feel about just being able to breathe. It definately seems like it's a allergy issue since this worked so well, but the only thing I'm worried about is fluid issues with my lungs. Since it still feels so heavy on my chest and since I still feel like I can't draw a full breath, it makes me a bit nervous. But I never would have been able to make it even this far had this stuff not worked as well as it has.
Thankfully it's almost 1pm, I'm just about done for the day and I feel a little better. Yeah for small joys in life. :)
So, I showed up this morning like normal and no one made mention of anything like continued schedule or whatnot. Figures. Was I really expecting anything else? I guess I just keep showing up until they tell me to stop. It also appears that I'm no longer answering one of the two phones for the company (though no one told me so, the three times it's rung, someone else has immediately gotten it). Fine with me, but again, it's like they don't even think about informing me; like it doesn't cross their mind.
The sneezing/wheezing/coughing/not-able-to-catch-my-breath thing is WAY worse this morning. I was feeling better by the time I went to bed last night (about 1am) in that I only felt very slightly winded and that was it. By this morning though, the nose won't stop, I'm sneezing constantly and the 50lbs of weight on my chest feeling is back with a vengence. Holy shit I feel awful. I honestly feel like I'm gasping for air. I can't even guess how high my heart rate is doing nothing but sitting in the chair here. I can feel it alternately racing/fluttering/thudding in my chest. Ugh.
It's been only one hour.
Double ugh. I'm going to be out of tissues before long and I've only been here one hour of my four. Holy cow that's not enough. WAY more time should have gone by now. I certainly feel like it's been hours - if not days - the way I keep sneezing and wheezing.
Since I'm just babbling I guess I'll stop. Mindlessly surf a bit and see if I can't pass some more time.
Update: 10:35am Took 15 minutes. Went to Walgreens. Bought some Clariton. Hoping for the best. It's crazy though how much it is over the counter. I used to be able to get it as a prescription for my co-pay of $10 for 30 pills. Just now it was $7.99 for FIVE. Yikes. I know from taking it as a prescription that it helped when I needed it so I hope it addresses the problems I'm having now. I really don't think it's a cold and it should help with the symptoms either way. *crosses fingers*
Using the basics of the Birds With Teeth tutorial, I went ahead and made my penguins tonight. They're both cute - if a bit funny looking - but overall I'm really proud of how they turned out. The first one is bigger and thinner, but he's got the teeth (that gave me a damned hard time). While cooking him, I had some black left over so I went ahead and made a short, fat little one (sans the teeth). They're both pretty darned cute if I do say so myself.
Here's the first little dude
Here's the second, pudgy one
Both together (click for larger pic)
Cute, hu? *hee hee* I think I'll have to make some more again soon.
We have the seasonal pass to WDW because it's the cost of about three days admission and because we were able to upgrade our Play 4 Days Pass towards the balance for the seasonal. Anyway, the only thing different between a seasonal and a full anual is that with the seasonal you have some black-out dates. Two weeks at xmas you can't go for example. No biggie really, we were busy anyway. Saturday the 3rd was the last of the blackout dates so we really wanted to get back out there and had planned on going today. It's been about a month since we've been there now (went right after Thanksgiving) and we were looking forward to it. But, between me not being able to breathe and not being able to pick up my check on Friday, funds are really tight this weekend and we ended up deciding to go next Saturday instead. Bah though, I was really looking forward to getting back out there. I love WDW so much. And it just makes me feel better because it's such a change from the everday.
In the end though, I suppose it was a good thing that we didn't go. My friend Rand came over for a little bit today and he wanted to hit Best Buy, so we went with him. Doing nothing but standing around, looking at pc games and dvd's I was feeling extremely light-headed and the feeling of pressure on my chest and constriction in my lungs got much worse. So bad that I was afraid I was going to pass out a few times. I felt utterly winded just from trying to speak in normal conversation. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me... I checked the pollen count stuff on the weather channel website but it only says we're "moderate." Not like I've ever had this kind of weird allergic reaction before, but I'm running out of ideas what it could be. At this point, I'm worried that it's some kind of respiratory infection or something because I'm only doing three things: sneezing, coughing (dry) and feeling unable to breathe (throat feels tight; lungs feel lined with coarse fur or something). No runny nose, no itchy eyes, no other symptoms of being actually sick, and yet, I'm exhausted because I feel like I can't catch my breath and because my chest is so heavy.
I wonder if I should go to the doctor, but seeing as I don't have insurance, I'd hate to go and have him tell me to just take some allergy medication. But I've tried that and it's not helping. Nothing is. Hot tea; hot steam from showers; medication; etc. I don't know what to do anymore but it's really frustrating. I'm heading into my temp job tomorrow because I still haven't heard otherwise, but I'm worried about being able to function. If standing in a store made me feel like I was passing out, what will happen tomorrow?
light side of the entry: ...inspired by Orb, I got three things of sculpey and I'm going to try to make myself a bird with teeth (though I'm going to make mine a penguin!)
not so light side of entry:....but not tonight. Why? Because for the second night in a row, I can't breathe. It got really bad last night and it's really bad again now. Last night I took some Benedryl and it put me to sleep and I went through the day mostly ok. But as the night wore on, things got bad again. I keep coughing really hard like something's closing up my throat. I feel like I just can't breath and that there's something way low in my throat and inside my lungs (like really abbrasive fur or something. I don't know how to describe it.) It's awful and I'm getting worried about how much difficulty I'm having breathing and speaking. Last night I almost completely lost my voice. Today, even after a hot cup of tea with honey, it's still way reduced and scratchy. My nose has been running and I've been sneezing, but I don't feel like I have a cold. (It's not running anywhere near enough to be a cold, it's more like an allergy or something though I don't know what is in the house that I'm suddenly allergic to in the last two days.) I don't know of any allergies I have that would cause this throat/breathing issue (my only allergies are things like surgical tape because it melts my skin; nothing respiratory or anything). I'm really getting worried. Last night I passed it off as a fluke, but two nights in a row...? It's just really not good. I think I may take some more Benedryl, try to get some sleep and hopefully whatever it is will pass.
Non-smoker. Not around smokers. No new animals around (been around cats for about 14 years and never a problem). No new carpet. No new furnature. No change in anything that I can think of. And still, something seems to be making my throat constrict.
