Ow, my aching head All week, my head's just been miserable. I'm really sick of it. Basically, I've had a low-level migraine that hasn't stopped all week. It peaks sometimes and hits me really hard and strong then fades out but doesn't completely go away. Just moves to a dull, constant, background ache. Then it flares up again and I get the works - hyper light sensitivity, chills, trembles, foggy head, unsteady on my feets, nausea, etc. I've been downing caffine and excedrin like there's no tomorrow and it's not even touching it. I don't know if it's hormones, or weather shifts or what, but gods, it hurts. And so frustrating! All week, I can't think straight and I get stopped dead in my tracks when it flares up and hits me hard. I can't find a patter and I can't find a specific source that makes it worse. Nor can I get rid of it completely. It just lurks there in the background, hurting, waiting to get bad again.
It's here! My free iPod is here! It's in my grubby little hands! I'd show you but I need to install the software for my camera to upload the photos to my computer, then I need to install a photo editing software to resize the photo, then I need to install an ftp software to put them up on the domain. *sighs* New, clean pc's are always fun to work with. Heh. But trust me, it's here. Took like seven weeks or something but it really did come. And I didn't pay anything. Holy shit, I'm so excited! New toy! Weeeeeee!
Ssshhh...Don't Tell But I'm running WinXP right now. I know. I'm going to jinx it just by saying something. But....we got the 40gig harddrive to format. Got WinXP to install. Got it hooked up in my case. Downloaded Netscape. Found my profile with all my mail on my old harddrive (which is now my secondary). Took awhile, but even got my email moved over. Also downloaded Firefox since it's 1.0 now. Also was able to install my mouse drivers - the thing which crashed out the system last time I got this far along.
And so far, so good.
I have a shitload of programs I need to find, download and re-install to get things working again, but at least my email is all there as are my bookmarks, settings and cookies. Which is a major start. Had to undo my cd burner because we think it might have been part of the problem, but I can live without it. (I still have a dvd-rom drive in here so it's no massive loss. Didn't burn a lot anyway.)
Missed West Wing tonight because we were over at our friend Rand's house eating dinner, watching a movie and then working on the pc, but I did dvr it so Love and I will watch it tomorrow.
All in all, it's been an oddly positive week. Things have been going pretty well. Which actually worries me. Heh. Now I need to get a USB 2.0 port so when my iPod shows up (soon....aw....so excited...) I can actually transfer the mp3s off my old harddrive over to it.
Anyway, that's it. Just testing things out on the net and seems like it's all working. Which is great because I wasn't on my pc at all today. It kept crashing. Very frustrating. (Especially when you write out a huge reply email to someone and you lose it in a freeze-up. Sorry Bruce, if you read this, I'll reply and give you more WDW info tomorrow!) Hopefully, with all this room to stretch, a nice clean install of the new OS things will be a little more stable again.
It's about damned time! Well, I just got a notice and a tracking number that my free iPod has finally been shipped! Whooo hooo! I completed my offer way back on Oct 5th. Thankfully, I was pro-active and sent it to THIS address (my new one, before we had even signed any paperwork or anything!) because it's only now on it's way. Every FedEx truck I see I'm going to want to pounce on. I've been dying for my iPod and I'm so psyched it's really actually going to show up! Weeeeeee!
Oz in a Santa Suit *insert 16 year old girl squeal here*
OMG! OMG! OMG!
Christmas came early this year. The super kind and sweet Cy gave me an amazingly kind gift today - two tickets to Mickey's Very Merry Christmas Party at Walt Disney World!
*insert 16 year old girl squeal again*
Every year, Disney does a couple special events. One is Mickey's Not So Scary Halloween Party. Love and I planned to go earlier this year, but Halloween sold out months ago and we never had the cash to get the tickets. The other one is Mickey's Very Merry Christmas Party and we heard about it last year but have never gone to it either. For the Christmas Party, the park closes to the public and you need a special ticket to get in. They make it snow (!) on Main Street, give free hot chocolate and cookies to everyone, you get a free photo with the characters taken for you and the place is decked out in holiday style. They also have a special parade as well as a special fireworks show. All for a limited number of people per night.
It's so cool.
So, of course, we had been planning on trying to get our passes again since they expired in June sometime in the fall. We were shooting for saving up over the summer and getting them in October. Clearly, that didn't happen. Not only were we unable to save up, but we've gotten even further behind from the cost of moving. So it didn't look like we'd be going to WDW again until at least sometime next year - and that'd be pending a miracle.
Well, Oz showed up in a Santa suit today and we have tickets for Friday, December 3rd's event. To say I'm thrilled is an understatment. Having something positive to look forward to makes me so giddy, it's almost painful. So much has been dark and hard and just bad lately that I don't even know how to express what it means to me to know I have something fun waiting for me. I know people can't understand how something like this could mean so much to me. It's a silly and frivolous thing but when you spend so much of your life in such a deep funk of depression, anything which helps you put it away for a little while is so important. And so desperately sought. Disney is one place I'm actually happy. I actually feel something other then sadness. And so of course, it's something I long for when things are at their worst.
Anyway, I'm so excited. Of course, we need to make arrangements with someone to borrow a car to get to Orlando, but I'm sure we can figure it out between then and now. (Ours has gotten so bad, I can't fathom how it's still going and it certainly won't make the 2 hour one-way drive at this point.) A problem for another day. Today, I just smile and get that warm fuzzy feeling knowing I'm going to Disney World.
Oh, by the way...in other good news today, I have a custom horn order for a theater group in Manhattan to do (way cool) as well as a custom order of penguins (seven of them!) for someone's anniversary next week. So, that's really cool because it's a few extra dollars this week - desperately needed. Oh, and my mom came down, dragged me to the store and bought me some groceries. So I even have food for the week. (Which is really great; we are on change and had a bare kitchen.) It's been a good day.
Alright, going to close this out. Almost don't know what to do with myself having a positive entry instead of a negative one. Heh. I'd really like more of these, but most days it feels so impossible, and instead I try just to not talk about it. But I'm not going to think about the bad today. I'm going to just enjoy the good and worry about the rest tomorrow.
Oh yeah, one more thing...*insert 16 year old girl squeal one last time*
Lazy, Hazy Monday I feel like I'm asleep. Or in a fog. I find myself sitting, staring and not realizing that time has past. I've missed minutes of the tv show and not heard a word Love's said to me. I'm spaced and I don't know why. I haven't felt like doing anything. I haven't felt like really moving today. It's just seemed like too much work. There's things I could be doing but then those blackhole moments suck me in and it's an hour later then I think it should be.
Weirdness. So yeah, I'm really just disconnected from reality today. And I guess I though I'd share. Have nothing else to write about.
Weird Sight I saw something really weird today while heading to the pet store. The truck in front of us had a license plate from Hawaii. Think about that for a second. Let it sink in. Here, in Florida, a plate from an island in the middle of the ocean on the opposite coast. How weird is that? I don't think I've ever seen a Hawaiian plate before - ever. I can't even imagine the cost to ship a vehicle to the mainland. And did he ship it to California and then drive it to Florida? Either way, that truck's a loooong way from home. For the record, it looked this one only without the "Segway" personalization. I wanted to snap a pic to prove I'd seen it, but Love vetoed me saying the guy might freak out if I took a photo of his vehicle.
Oh and in case you're wondering he was pulling into a Dairy Queen when last I saw him. Maybe he really wanted some pineapple topped ice cream. ;)
Trying again... We're going to try for XP yet again tonight. Between complete crash and failure problems and harddrives not formatting, this has gone on for like a year now. But my friend Rand bought Rollercoaster Tycoon 3 and is letting me borrow it and I don't have the room to even install it so we have to try yet again.
We'll see if I have any computer left. Heh.
Update: 10:10pm: Well, so much for that. Again. The harddrives continue to crash out during format attempts and/or the case just resets itself in mid-process. Love's going to try to take the drives to work, test them there and see if the problem is with them or with the case. What a pain in the ass. XP'll be outdated by the time I can get it installed. *sighs*
