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Blogroll Me!
There are people on the net that have nothing better to do with their time
then be nasty to other people online. They post rude comments, spend hours
a day talking about sites they hate so much, that they well, spend hours a
day talking about them. (lame) They mock the owners and posters for their
opinions and their right to free speech. They expect everyone to fit into
their narrow-minded little world view or else they throw a temper tantrum.
To these people I say grow up.
Here's a bit of info people...the web is
a HUGE place. If you don't like what I say here, or who I am, or what I
do, or talk about, or what I look like, or the color of my hair, or
whatever asinine thing you dwell on, go somewhere else. It's
really, really easy. Honest. You just click the little "x" in
the corner of your browser and *poof* the offending, big, mean and nasty
site has disappeared.
I pay for this site. It's mine. That
means I can use it for whatever the hell I want to. Don't like it if I'm
bitching about something in my life? Oh fucking well. Go somewhere else.
Think I'm stupid for expressing my thoughts? Too fucking bad, don't read
them. Somewhere along the line, someone forgot this simple fact: Live
and let live Don't like me, cool, fine, whatever, I don't care.
This journal is NOT for you. It's for me. I'm not in it for popularity or
fame or anything stupid like that. I write it because I need to write and
express myself and get things out of my head sometimes. So read or don't,
it doesn't matter, but don't waste my time (or yours) bitching about it.
*gets off soapbox*
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Friday, March 04, 2005
More of the same
Couldn't sleep last night. Was sitting here, in the living room, watching channel after channel turn to infomercials and paid programming until about 4:30am. I finally went to lay down, though it took awhile to drift off into sleep. I just couldn't stop thinking. Over and over these dark thoughts just kept circling in my head. I want my pc back. I want to be able to update my site. I don't know what the status of getting a replacement hard drive is at the moment either. See, it's a complicated situation. I had Win98SE forever - way longer then I should of simply because I didn't want to deal with changing over - on a 20gig hard drive that was down to about 300 megs of space. It was also really buggy from years of program installs and uninstalls and it got to a point where I couldn't use my hardware because there weren't drivers made for Win98SE anymore. So, we added a 40gig hard drive and set it up as the primary. Installed WinXP on it and put my old drive in as secondary. It has all of my html files, photos, etc. on it. So, C: is 40gigs, is using about 20gigs between OS, programs and my music files for the iPod and E: is 20gigs and using all 20gigs for all my photos, webpages, etc. C: has gone bad. All of the problems I've been having apparently trace back to the hard drive slowly failing, corupt files and bad sectors. At this point, I need to replace C: with a new primary drive, something the same size at least, to start up again from scratch. Reinstall the OS, all the programs, etc. Until then, I don't have a pc at all. Bleck. It's wearing on me. Just one of many things that add up to this mood. Anyway, I'm tired. Still chilled and can't get warm. Just ate something since I pretty much only had a bowl of cereal yesterday. Frustated. Tired. Worn to the bone. Weary and seeking oblivion. Like everything in life though, it elludes me. I should be used to lacking, disappointment and desiring things that I'll never have. Somehow though, I'm not. I don't know that I know how to get used to being without the things I need in life. Being without basic survival requirements. Being without solace. Just being without. Just another thing I don't have.
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