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Blogroll Me!
There are people on the net that have nothing better to do
with their time
then be nasty to other people online. They post rude comments, spend hours
a day talking about sites they hate so much, that they well, spend hours a
day talking about them. (lame) They mock the owners and posters for their
opinions and their right to free speech. They expect everyone to fit into
their narrow-minded little world view or else they throw a temper tantrum.
To these people I say grow up.
Here's a bit of info people...the web is
a HUGE place. If you don't like what I say here, or who I am, or what I
do, or talk about, or what I look like, or the color of my hair, or
whatever asinine thing you dwell on, go somewhere else. It's
really, really easy. Honest. You just click the little "x" in
the corner of your browser and *poof* the offending, big, mean and nasty
site has disappeared.
I pay for this site. It's mine. That
means I can use it for whatever the hell I want to. Don't like it if I'm
bitching about something in my life? Oh fucking well. Go somewhere else.
Think I'm stupid for expressing my thoughts? Too fucking bad, don't read
them. Somewhere along the line, someone forgot this simple fact: Live
and let live Don't like me, cool, fine, whatever, I don't care.
This journal is NOT for you. It's for me. I'm not in it for popularity or
fame or anything stupid like that. I write it because I need to write and
express myself and get things out of my head sometimes. So read or don't,
it doesn't matter, but don't waste my time (or yours) bitching about it.
*gets off soapbox*
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Monday, April 11, 2005
Differentiating Pain
Maybe I spoke too soon. Friday everything was great. Narry a whiper of pain in my mouth. I figured it was over and I was on my way to the [perm] crown on the 27th. But then Saturday, there was a little ache. A twinge. No worries I thought and took some regular tylenol. Sunday, the twinge had changed to a dull ache. A soreness in the gums and jaw. Today, this morning, as Love got up to go to work, it hurt again. And still does. I don't think it's the tooth itself though (which, of course, is the worry), but rather the gums and jaw. Whyever would it be so sore though the last few days when it was without any hurt (besides a mild bruised sensation) the very day after the work was done? The only thing I can think of to explain it is perhaps I am grinding my teeth, or otherwise biting and clenching my jaw in my sleep. I was half awake this morning and the vague notion that I had just been biting down was in my head. I don't know though if I dreamed it, or if I really was biting down on nothing. It would explain the pain though today but I don't know how to explain it the last two. ... the floor falls away from me ... I've since called the dentist and explained everything. They want me to come in tomorrow on an emergency appointment to get it checked out. She said that the pain wasn't normal or at least, I should be having it. I don't know what it could be now. I mean it could still be a root canal issue though I'm hopeful since the pain is not localized to the tooth that perhaps I can yet escape that fate. It could be an abscess I suppose though it doesn't look enflamed or swollen to me. It could be maybe an infection starting that the antibiotic I'm taking isn't strong enough for. I don't know what it is, I'm just trying to come up with explainations for the pain. It was fine on Friday. I felt not only a lack of pain, I felt good. And now... I have to go back in. And I don't know why. Gods, I'm scared. I just thought it hurt a little. I only called to find out really what I should do to manage the dull ache, not at all thinking they'd want to see me again... I wasn't expecting any of this. I thought I was in the clear. Now I don't know what's going to happen. And it terrifies me.
~ flowers bloom by Memory and Dream
at 4/11/2005 01:03:00 PM ~
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