28 year old
Pagan female who lives in Florida with her guy and two cats,
loves Disney, reads fanatically, tinkers in photography and
believes growing up is overrated.
There are people on the net that have nothing better to do
with their time
then be nasty to other people online. They post rude comments, spend hours
a day talking about sites they hate so much, that they well, spend hours a
day talking about them. (lame) They mock the owners and posters for their
opinions and their right to free speech. They expect everyone to fit into
their narrow-minded little world view or else they throw a temper tantrum.
To these people I say grow up.
Here's a bit of info people...the web is
a HUGE place. If you don't like what I say here, or who I am, or what I
do, or talk about, or what I look like, or the color of my hair, or
whatever asinine thing you dwell on, go somewhere else. It's
really, really easy. Honest. You just click the little "x" in
the corner of your browser and *poof* the offending, big, mean and nasty
site has disappeared.
I pay for this site. It's mine. That
means I can use it for whatever the hell I want to. Don't like it if I'm
bitching about something in my life? Oh fucking well. Go somewhere else.
Think I'm stupid for expressing my thoughts? Too fucking bad, don't read
them. Somewhere along the line, someone forgot this simple fact: Live
and let live Don't like me, cool, fine, whatever, I don't care.
This journal is NOT for you. It's for me. I'm not in it for popularity or
fame or anything stupid like that. I write it because I need to write and
express myself and get things out of my head sometimes. So read or don't,
it doesn't matter, but don't waste my time (or yours) bitching about it.
*gets off soapbox*
Tooth
Drive:
I need to
raise over $850 for critically needed dental
work. I'll be listing my hand made
jewelry, bracelets,
earrings, necklaces and horns
for sale to try to raise the desperately needed funds.
Every order helps. I can accept paypal payments at
webmaster@giveneyestosee.com
or check/money orders at:
M. Turner
PO Box 1484, Elfers, FL 34684
Thank you for your help and support.
I've also set
up a
tooth fund for anyone
wanted to donate without purchase.
Need a
good webhost?
Try
DreamHost. Use
my linkI'll get a
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as well.
This and That The good is that my mom's husband was able to replace the alternator and charge the battery back up. The car is running again and we're going to get it after Love gets home from work tomorrow evening. The bad news is that they also changed the serpentine belt, some pullies for the alternator, an air filter, lubed the water pump and replaced my tail lights (which require you to disasemble the trunk and which the owner's manual actually says you have to take it to the dealership to do and thus we've had tail lights on only one side of the car for two years now.) While all that's lovely, the fact that it pushed the parts cost to over $220 isn't. I mean, still, yeah, that's a hell of a lot less then it would have cost me to get it done because I didn't have to pay labor, it's still more money then I have. I didn't have $150 for the alternator and I really don't have $220. My mom said I can pay her in payments though. I feel bad because she shelled the money out upfront (and not for the first time to fix my car when I didn't have the money to do it) and he did the work for free and I can't even pay them back fully for the parts. (Anyone want to buy some jewelry so I can get her more of her money back? I've got tons of new things I need to update but just haven't gotten to.)
The other bad news is that we utterly and completely can not find anyone to finance a car for us. At all. Not even $5,000 or anything. So without a co-signer (which I don't have), we're screwed. I don't know how we're going to get a new(er) car. Which still leaves us only one car that still needs more work - brakes for one are totally shot - and can't support both of us getting to-and-from a job. Without getting another car, I still have no way of getting a job. Which means we'll never get anywhere because we can't improve anything if we can't get more income in the household.
So, it's one hell of a bittersweet week. Don't get me wrong. I'm really greatful that my mom and her husband were able to get us back on the road in the short term. But Love works so hard and has been with his company seven years next month and we can't even get a loan for a car. It's like what's any of it for? We can't get a car, can't get a house, can't improve our situation. We're just stuck in such a quagmire and we can never even try to better ourselves. It's such a horrible, helpless pointless feeling.
I don't know. It's just wearing me down further then I thought I could be worn down. When you just don't have any reason to hope anymore and you don't have anything to look forward to and you don't have any way of making things better for yourself, you really just start to question why you even wake up in the morning, you know?
