28 year old
Pagan female who lives in Florida with her guy and two cats,
loves Disney, reads fanatically, tinkers in photography and
believes growing up is overrated.
There are people on the net that have nothing better to do
with their time
then be nasty to other people online. They post rude comments, spend hours
a day talking about sites they hate so much, that they well, spend hours a
day talking about them. (lame) They mock the owners and posters for their
opinions and their right to free speech. They expect everyone to fit into
their narrow-minded little world view or else they throw a temper tantrum.
To these people I say grow up.
Here's a bit of info people...the web is
a HUGE place. If you don't like what I say here, or who I am, or what I
do, or talk about, or what I look like, or the color of my hair, or
whatever asinine thing you dwell on, go somewhere else. It's
really, really easy. Honest. You just click the little "x" in
the corner of your browser and *poof* the offending, big, mean and nasty
site has disappeared.
I pay for this site. It's mine. That
means I can use it for whatever the hell I want to. Don't like it if I'm
bitching about something in my life? Oh fucking well. Go somewhere else.
Think I'm stupid for expressing my thoughts? Too fucking bad, don't read
them. Somewhere along the line, someone forgot this simple fact: Live
and let live Don't like me, cool, fine, whatever, I don't care.
This journal is NOT for you. It's for me. I'm not in it for popularity or
fame or anything stupid like that. I write it because I need to write and
express myself and get things out of my head sometimes. So read or don't,
it doesn't matter, but don't waste my time (or yours) bitching about it.
*gets off soapbox*
Tooth
Drive:
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Every order helps. I can accept paypal payments at
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or check/money orders at:
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PO Box 1484, Elfers, FL 34684
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Half Day Today was supposed to be another full day but I woke up with a really bad headache that's doing everything it can to turn into a full-blown migraine. Since it's slow, "Kay" doesn't mind at all if I make it half day. She also caught up a lot yesterday. They also want me to come back next week - half days all week. Which I can totally do. There's a point where my body just won't let me; where it can't handle it and I get these bad migraines and stomach problems. Part-time though I still have enough time to rest, and relax and give my system enough down-time to not completely spazz on me.
So it's not a great morning, but I'm really happy that they want me to come back next week again and that it's hours I can handle. I really can use the money but I really could not have pushed myself yet another week on a full-time schedule. So even if I'm here four hours, that's still $40 for a morning's worth of anwering phones and busy work. Which is so good.
Just trying to get through the next half-hour. I'm going to go home and lay down and hope I can nip this in the bud. I had to take an excedrin this morning just to try to stop the worst of it and my stomach wasn't happy about that. (It's too harsh too early and on not enough food.) So I'm looking forward to resting a bit and enjoying the weekend. Especially since I know next week I can earn some more money and I can do so on a schedule I know I can deal with pretty well.
Fingers crossed that they'll keep pushing this out and that eventually they'll take me on perm part-time. Something I know they've been mentioning more then once and something I think they're going to push for after helping them out these last two weeks. I know Kay has really appreciated the help and it's allowed her to get a lot done; taken a lot of load off of her back.
Hopefully too, getting on part-time hours next week, besides helping my system out a little will allow me to get caught up on some stuff too. Like my absurdly neglected PhoenixFire Designs site. I have SO MANY THINGS that I haven't gotten around to getting up on the site. Many of them bracelets. Which is an entire section I haven't finished yet. Ugh. Bad M, bad!
Anyway, that's the update. Little bit of bad but surprisingly, a bit more good. Who knew? ;)
Sleeping, the Benadryl Way I don't know what happened last night, but my eyes started watering and itching suddenly very bad. And then they started to puff. My eyes don't ever puff. I don't have any eye drops or anything at the house and I wasn't sure what to do. So I grabbed some tea bags and put them on my eyes hoping it might help. It did a little but it wasn't normal. So I took some Benadryl and went to bed.
I should do this more often. Because I slept the entire night through. Something I haven't done in weeks. Normally, I wake up three or four or even more times a night. And it takes me upwards of 20 minutes to get back to sleep. I even was able to fall back asleep after Love's alarm went off at 6am. So I got that extra sleep too.
Don't get me wrong. I'm still tired. (Six hours of unbroken sleep, while better then six hours of totally broken sleep, is two hours short of a good night's sleep for me.) But I'm slightly less tired then normal. And my eyes aren't puffy this morning. So that's another bonus for me. Heh.
It's Wednesday. We're half-way through. Tomorrow was supposed to be my last day this week. And a half-day to boot. Now I'm finishing the week and making both Thursday and Friday full days. Ugh. It's a lot of hours. I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to next week and sleeping in again. Man. It's going to take me forever to make up for last week and this week's complete lack of rest. (I'm so worn out that I'm actually laying down for an hour in the evening before dinner when I get home.) There's not enough hours in the day to get anything done. I have so much back-logged right now it's stupid. I can't even tell you how far behind I am on PhoenixFire Designs! The entire bracelet section still needs re-doing and I have tons of new stuff to add that's been sitting here for weeks that I haven't had time to do. It's awful. And I'm not getting any sales because I'm not updating the site. But I haven't had the time to do it!
So....that's my week so far. A lot of the same old, same old. Long days, early mornings, not enough sleep, bizare allergy issues. Just another day in the life of M.
Scotland Photo My friend, Lorena was lucky enough to go on a trip to Scotland this past week. She was taking photography requests for everyone as a virtual postcard of sorts. I didn't get time to post it the other day, but this was mine:
Birthday Wishes Big, stupid me totally forgot. (Which I don't know how I did because today is also my mother's birthday.) But... huge Birthday Wishes have to go out to Cy! Go wish him a happy birthday as well.
Long Day Early It's been a long day for as long as it's been a day. Mom came over yesterday because it's her birthday today, and since I'm working today, we thougtht we'd have dinner together at my place Sunday. Nice day. Made some food, had some cake, gave her a necklace I made for her. Normal evening.
When I went to bed, no problems. Until I woke up. And again. And again and again. I spent the whole night waking up with stabbing pain in my head. By 7:30am, I'd slept maybe a total of two hours and I'd developed a migraine. There was no way I'd be able to get through until 5:30pm that way. Absolutely no way. The problem is that the entire reason I'm here is because they don't have anyone to answer the phone. So I had no way of letting anyone know (except my friend Rand which I finally called him and asked him to relate a message when he got there) and they had no one to sit in the chair like they needed. How awful is that?
I finally was able to sleep and I basically just crashed, hard. The phone rang after 9am and it was the lady who's the lady I'm filing in for's boss. (*wonders if that makes sense* The lady I'm filling in for, we'll call her Kay. It's her boss who was being so sweet.) so half asleep and still in pain, I get the phone. Turns out she gets migraines. So she completely understands. I keep babbling apologies and tell her if I can get it to break I'll come in. She keeps telling me not to worry and just feel better. She even offers to run over and bring me Imitrex. What a sweetheart.
I fall back asleep like the dead for another couple hours. It's going on noon when I get up. I feel better but certainly not perfect. But I feel bad enough that I ditched them in the morning, so I call Rand and ask if he can come get me on his way back in from lunch and that I'll come and do the afternoon. So I got in around 1pm and it's now almost 4pm. I've got an hour and a half to go. This is why it's been a long day for me. It pretty much started at around 1:30am when I woke up and went downhill from there. Bleck.
"Kay's" boss though is a real dear and despite this morning asked if I could come back in on Thursday and Friday also to help out. Kay is going to be so slammed from being out and she'll have so much to catch up on, she won't be able to do it all on her own. Originally, it was going to just be through Wednesday and then Kay asked if I could come in on Thursday morning but her boss asked this afternoon if I could just finish the week. I think she's even thinking of pushing to get me in here permant part-time. Which would be great. Because even if I were part-time, I'd get health insurance. Which we all know how desperately I need. And while I know one hundred percent that my body can not under any circumstances handle doing full-time on a perm basis, I'm pretty confident I can handle part-time.
This is going to be another long week though. It's going to be so hard to get through it. I tried to talk to Love about it a little last night but he didn't understand how my entire body hurting, aching and me being exhausted was related to working. He just doesn't get it. I don't know how to put it in words either. I just physically don't have it in me to do that many hours every single day. It's not that I don't want to, it's that I literally can't. And when I try, my entire body revolts and hurts so bad it makes me sob. Plus it leads to things like migraines (I've had two now in two weeks where in the last month before this temp job, I've had only one.)
So anyway, it's just not an auspicious start to my week. There's so much more to go too...
