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"an autumn wind" ver. 14
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There are people on the net that
have nothing better to do with their time then be nasty to other
people online. They post rude comments, spend hours a day talking
about sites they hate so much, that they well, spend hours a day
talking about them. (lame) They mock the owners and posters for
their opinions and their right to free speech. They expect everyone
to fit into their narrow-minded little world view or else they throw
a temper tantrum.
To these people I say
grow up.
Here's a bit of info people...the
web is a HUGE place. If you don't like what I say here, or who I am,
or what I do, or talk about, or what I look like, or the color of my
hair, or whatever asinine thing you dwell on, go somewhere else.
It's really, really easy. Honest. You just click the little "x" in
the corner of your browser and *poof* the offending, big, mean and
nasty site has disappeared.
I pay for this site. It's mine.
That means I can use it for whatever the hell I want to. Don't like
it if I'm bitching about something in my life? Oh fucking well. Go
somewhere else. Think I'm stupid for expressing my thoughts? Too
fucking bad, don't read them. Somewhere along the line, someone
forgot this simple fact: Live and let live Don't like me,
cool, fine, whatever, I don't care. This journal is NOT for
you. It's for me. I'm not in it for popularity or fame or anything
stupid like that. I write it because I need to write and express
myself and get things out of my head sometimes. So read or don't, it
doesn't matter, but don't waste my time (or yours) bitching about
it.
*gets off soapbox*
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Caffinated And Hating It My neck's been really bad the last week or so. I toss and turn all night, unable to get or stay comfortable. Which has made for a lot of broken sleep and thus vague headaches and general uncomfortableness.
Well, tonight my neck got bad enough to turn into a budding migraine. I dealt with it for a couple hours, using my heated beanie wrap to try to coax it into relaxing but no go. Around 10:45pm, my head was getting worse and I was even getting dizzy, so I broke down and took some excedrin. Thing is, I'd already also had a coke a few hours before, with the hope that it was early enough to let the caffine help without having to resort to the excedrin.
Now it's three hours later and in typical fashion for me, the caffine has truly hit me. It's not an immediate thing with me. It's always a two-to-three hour delay. The forming migraine has receeded (though is still lurking somewhere just below the surface) but the caffine is really making me uncomfortable. I don't know how to describe it exactly because it's not just a normal caffine jitter most people are familier with. It's this just-shy-of-painful buzz right under my skin. I get urpy to my stomach and usually my pre-migraine visual distortions (I get a lot of motion blurs of my vision and after images that drag when I move my focus) get worse. Even though, like I said, the migraine itself has receeded, some of these odd symptoms from the caffine get worse at this stage.
It's why I loathe caffine unless I need it. I hate feeling so unsettled in my skin. It's also why I loathe taking the excedrin and try to put off taking it as long as possible. I have a good couple hours more of this miserable feeling and it's going to make sleeping really difficult - despite the fact I'm quite tired and want to sleep. And of course the caffine isn't going to help with the frequent waking up problem I've been having nor the fact I reach a point [too] early in the morning where I wake up and can't get back to sleep. It's like my internal clock's gone all kinds of wonky. I keep waking up spontaneously at the exact same times every day despite the fact that I don't want to and that there's no reason for it.
Just generally frustrated with the sleep issues lately and so damned uncomfortable right now with the creepy-crawly, ants-in-your-skin sensation that comes with the caffine overdose. Knowing there's nothing I can do to make it better and that I just have to ride it out stinks. It's getting to a point where I'm frustrated with having no other options to help manage migraines when I do get them. (I've done a lot and come a long way in preventing them, but without insurance, I can't afford to explore other prescription rescue medication options.) More and more, this by-product of the excedrin, while it does usually help the migraine from fully forming, is a miserable option. I find myself almost not wanting to keep making this choice because of the side effects. The line between riding out the migraine through sleep and enduring the results of the excedrin is getting narrower. And for anyone who has experienced a migraine (a true migraine thankyouverymuch and not just a "bad headache") will know how serious a statement that is. Enduring a full-blown attack is hell on earth. So to even consider not taking the excedrin shows how bad the side effects of it are becoming. I wait longer and longer these days before taking it in the hopes of not having to endure this kind of feeling.
Frustrated, uncomfortable, tired and facing a long night.
(Aaaaand...big surprise. Yet again, blogger just won't publish an entry. For absolutely no reason. I guess I'll have to try to post this when I get up tomorrow. Er, technically, later today since it's after midnight.)
2:34am: Just for the hell of it, I'm going to see if it will publish in IE. If it does, that sucks. Because I refuse to use IE. If it doesn't, then I'm going to bed and I'll try again when I get up.
*Update: Yup. Worked instantly. *sighs* This could be an issue.
