Well, I was actually going to finally try and get back into Halloween a little this year. For so many years, it was wrapped up in traditions with our friend Rand, from carving pumpkins to decorating his house, to dressing up and handing out candy to the trick-or-treaters from his house. When he passed away…
Tag: grief
Selfish Grief
I’ve discovered with Rand’s passing that grief has many faces, shows up in many different ways and comes and goes with varying impact – even long after you think it should still bother you. It was two years this March and many days it’s easier to deal with; the grief is well-worn in and doesn’t…
In A Bad Place
I thought I was dealing with last week being the 2nd anniversary of Rand’s death pretty well, until I realized last night as I was getting ready for bed that I’m actually in a bad place. I’m really angry and have no patience right now and everything is overwhelming pissing me off disproportionately to what…
Painfully Numb
Today is two years since my best friend, Rand, passed away. And needless to say, it’s been difficult for me all over again. I read in a book recently that grief never truly goes away, you just kinda forget about it until something reminds you and then the pain rushes back as fresh as ever….
Feeling Blue
It’s the time of year again where I get a little sad and melancholy. When dates and events start reminding me of my friend Rand’s passing two years ago. It stirs up some sadness and feelings of grief. Two years ago, Love was getting ready to celebrate his 40th birthday on the 18th. So Rand…
Tuesday Blues
Today I have an appointment at 2:45pm with the hematologist. It’s a follow-up to my pre-op appointment to determine how he wants to proceed with getting my iron stores (ferritin level) back up to normal levels. It was originally going to be last week but my Mom had an appointment that day and I wasn’t…