I’m really scared about tomorrow’s appointment. I’ve already broke down crying twice today. *sigh* I’m just so afraid of what this shot is going to do to me. I have no way of knowing how I’m going to be feeling for the next two months and that’s just so terrifying. What if I’m miserable and in pain nonstop from here on out? Love says not to stress about it since I can’t change it and I know he’s right logically, but emotionally, I’m just a wreck.<\/p>\n
Once I take the shot, that’s it too. It’s part of what scares me. It’s not like I can change my mind if it’s horrible. And, because the whole point is to get my estrogen levels low, I can’t even take things that people normally do to help offset the symptoms if they become unbearable. I’m afraid it’s going to have permanent effects on me and I’m also afraid it will be severe since it won’t be a natural, gradual hormone change but rather a big, sudden forced change.<\/p>\n
I’m also still stressing how I’m going to raise money for the surgery and for living expenses. It’s very frightening not knowing if I’m going to be able to pay my bills you know?<\/p>\n
One of my friends had a thought about setting up an etsy shop specifically for fund raising. Where I would ask my crafty friends to donate a few items each for the shop. I know so many people are creative and in a lot of variety of mediums, so maybe the variety and diversity would help sell more items? It might be a good way to let my friends who want to help but don’t have money to help to do something too.<\/p>\n
I don’t know, thoughts? Would anyone be interested in helping me do something like that? Maybe donate a few handmade items to go towards my medical bills?<\/p>\n
Anyway…just a wreck. Big surprise, what else is new right now….<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I’m really scared about tomorrow’s appointment. I’ve already broke down crying twice today. *sigh* I’m just so afraid of what this shot is going to do to me. I have no way of knowing how I’m going to be feeling for the next two months and that’s just so terrifying. What if I’m miserable and…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13,1,50,7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1051","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-finances","category-general","category-hysterectomy","category-health"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1051","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1051"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1051\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1052,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1051\/revisions\/1052"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1051"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1051"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1051"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}