{"id":26,"date":"2010-04-16T17:38:22","date_gmt":"2010-04-16T22:38:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/2010\/04\/t-30-days\/"},"modified":"2010-04-26T11:26:11","modified_gmt":"2010-04-26T16:26:11","slug":"t-30-days","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/2010\/04\/t-30-days\/","title":{"rendered":"T-30 Days"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class='posterous_autopost'>T-30 Days <\/p>\n<p \/> Normally, today, being one month until my birthday would be a day <br \/>where I get silly and post links to my amazon wishlist and excitedly <br \/>remind people about my upcoming celebration, give out my post office <br \/>box addy, etc&#8230;.this year though? I just find I&#8217;m not terribly <br \/>excited. I don&#8217;t really care. I&#8217;m still too emotional, upset, <br \/>grieving, panicked and otherwise disengaged to want to celebrate <br \/>anything. Not to mention, it will mark the first &#8220;holiday&#8221; of sorts <br \/>since Rand passed. It will be a big, obvious empty place in my <br \/>birthday without my best friend there. <\/p>\n<p \/> So it&#8217;s 30 days until my birthday and I really wish it just was <br \/>already over. I don&#8217;t care about the number this time around, I just <br \/>don&#8217;t want to face trying to be happy and failing.      <\/p>\n<p style=\"font-size: 10px;\">  <a href=\"http:\/\/posterous.com\">Posted via email<\/a>   from <a href=\"http:\/\/memoryanddream.posterous.com\/t-30-days-0\">memoryanddream&#8217;s posterous<\/a>  <\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>T-30 Days Normally, today, being one month until my birthday would be a day where I get silly and post links to my amazon wishlist and excitedly remind people about my upcoming celebration, give out my post office box addy, etc&#8230;.this year though? I just find I&#8217;m not terribly excited. I don&#8217;t really care. I&#8217;m&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-26","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-birthday"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=26"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":46,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26\/revisions\/46"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=26"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=26"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=26"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}