{"id":32,"date":"2010-04-23T08:42:37","date_gmt":"2010-04-23T12:42:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/2010\/04\/friday\/"},"modified":"2010-11-13T03:07:06","modified_gmt":"2010-11-13T07:07:06","slug":"friday","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/2010\/04\/friday\/","title":{"rendered":"Friday"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class='posterous_autopost'>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\">Friday<\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\">It\u2019s a trilogy of fun this morning: my head hurts, my stomach hurts and I didn\u2019t sleep worth a damn. I really needed another half hour or so to address the stomach issues but I was already 10 minutes late, so I didn\u2019t really have MORE time to deal with it. I\u2019m not sure how I\u2019m going to make the entire day though.<\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\">\u00a0<\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\">And last night, my subconscious decided it would be loads of fun to give me nightmares. All night long, dreams about people I love dying and me being left alone. Awesome. That sort of shit scares me already, normally as it is. I would lose my apartment and have no place to go with no money whatsoever if something happened. Even more so now that Rand\u2019s gone because he at least had a house with a guest bedroom. But if something happened to Love\u2026I\u2019d have no place to go.<\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\">\u00a0<\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\">I am so not ready to face the day today. I so don\u2019t want to be here. (Which is why I\u2019m stalling and writing up an entry instead of making my calls.) I\u2019m so on the edge of tears right now, it\u2019s absurd. Even typing this, I can\u2019t think about it too much or I\u2019m going to cry. Today feels like one of those real, \u201cI\u2019m going to totally break down\u201d days. These tenuous threads I\u2019m clinging to are so frayed they can\u2019t hold anymore.<\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\">\u00a0<\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\">Anyway, what else is new? I\u2019m broken. I\u2019m damaged. I\u2019m exhausted. And I don\u2019t want to face the world. Broken record these days.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-size: 10px;\">  <a href=\"http:\/\/posterous.com\">Posted via email<\/a>   from <a href=\"http:\/\/memoryanddream.posterous.com\/friday-3446\">memoryanddream&#8217;s posterous<\/a>  <\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Friday It\u2019s a trilogy of fun this morning: my head hurts, my stomach hurts and I didn\u2019t sleep worth a damn. I really needed another half hour or so to address the stomach issues but I was already 10 minutes late, so I didn\u2019t really have MORE time to deal with it. I\u2019m not sure&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[23,7,8],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-32","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-grief","category-health","category-work"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=32"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":553,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32\/revisions\/553"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=32"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=32"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=32"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}