{"id":81,"date":"2010-05-03T10:34:48","date_gmt":"2010-05-03T14:34:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/2010\/05\/my-kingdom-for-a-nap\/"},"modified":"2010-11-13T03:05:19","modified_gmt":"2010-11-13T07:05:19","slug":"my-kingdom-for-a-nap","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/2010\/05\/my-kingdom-for-a-nap\/","title":{"rendered":"My Kingdom For A Nap"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class='posterous_autopost'>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">I think it\u2019s official at this point. I simply am no longer capable of sleeping.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">Last night, I took some Benadryl specifically so I could sleep. And instead, I lay there awake until about 1:30am. Then I woke up around 3am from a nightmare and again around 4am with the same thing.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">I got up when Love\u2019s alarm went off at 5:30am, dozed for about a half an hour and then was awake again from 6am until almost 7am. My alarm went off at 7:45am and I got up to get ready for work.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">*sighs*<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">Sleeping has never been a problem for me. Never. I love to sleep and I excel at it. Now though? I just can\u2019t. I just lay there and nothing happens. I\u2019m stressed and anxious about a million stupid things that don\u2019t even matter and I get myself all running in circles in my mind on \u201cwhat ifs.\u201d It\u2019s so aggravating because it\u2019s not even real worries, just exaggerated scenarios that are nowhere near likely whatsoever!<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">Not sleeping isn\u2019t helping other things such as my stomach hurting constantly and my head hurting all the time. Not to mention, it feeds the depression and aggravation and inability to function or desire to try to function. I already don\u2019t want to get up and go to work but without sleep, the sliver of drive I have to do it anyway completely evaporates.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt;\"><span style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial;\">I\u2019m here at work but I so don\u2019t want to be. I\u2019m tired and quite frankly, I just don\u2019t give a damn. More then anything though, I just want some rest.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"font-size: 10px;\">  <a href=\"http:\/\/posterous.com\">Posted via email<\/a>   from <a href=\"http:\/\/memoryanddream.posterous.com\/my-kingdom-for-a-nap\">memoryanddream&#8217;s posterous<\/a>  <\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I think it\u2019s official at this point. I simply am no longer capable of sleeping. \u00a0 Last night, I took some Benadryl specifically so I could sleep. And instead, I lay there awake until about 1:30am. Then I woke up around 3am from a nightmare and again around 4am with the same thing. \u00a0 I&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1,23,7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-81","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general","category-grief","category-health"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/81","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=81"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/81\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":549,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/81\/revisions\/549"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=81"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=81"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/giveneyestosee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=81"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}