I’m really scared about tomorrow’s appointment. I’ve already broke down crying twice today. *sigh* I’m just so afraid of what this shot is going to do to me. I have no way of knowing how I’m going to be feeling for the next two months and that’s just so terrifying. What if I’m miserable and in pain nonstop from here on out? Love says not to stress about it since I can’t change it and I know he’s right logically, but emotionally, I’m just a wreck.
Once I take the shot, that’s it too. It’s part of what scares me. It’s not like I can change my mind if it’s horrible. And, because the whole point is to get my estrogen levels low, I can’t even take things that people normally do to help offset the symptoms if they become unbearable. I’m afraid it’s going to have permanent effects on me and I’m also afraid it will be severe since it won’t be a natural, gradual hormone change but rather a big, sudden forced change.
I’m also still stressing how I’m going to raise money for the surgery and for living expenses. It’s very frightening not knowing if I’m going to be able to pay my bills you know?
One of my friends had a thought about setting up an etsy shop specifically for fund raising. Where I would ask my crafty friends to donate a few items each for the shop. I know so many people are creative and in a lot of variety of mediums, so maybe the variety and diversity would help sell more items? It might be a good way to let my friends who want to help but don’t have money to help to do something too.
I don’t know, thoughts? Would anyone be interested in helping me do something like that? Maybe donate a few handmade items to go towards my medical bills?
Anyway…just a wreck. Big surprise, what else is new right now….
I would be happy to donate a couple of items! I can make some special soap, just let me know when you’d need it by!
Aw, that would be awesome. Thank you! I want to try and start working on the shop maybe this week depending on how I feel. I’ve had some good response so far but of course, it’s going to take a little while for everyone to get things to me. The sooner I can get it going though and get photos and descriptions and the groundwork set up the better.
Thank you so much! It means so much to me that people are willing to help like this. I’m working on setting up the shop right now.
http://www.etsy.com/shop/phoenixfunds
It’s entirely up to you what you’d like to make. And if you rather take pictures and send me photos and descriptions which I’ll list, then you can ship when it sells, OR, send things to me and I’ll photograph list and then ship, it’s up to you. Just let me know.
Thank you again!!