Every part of going through the loss of my mom has been hard. I mean, yeah, of course, she’s my mom. But one of the most frustrating parts of this experience has been my inability to cry. And I don’t mean that I don’t want to, I mean, it physically hurts me to cry. I…
Just Sad All The Time
It’s so stupid. I have these moments where I’ll be sitting there, and I’m like I am so deeply and profoundly sad and for half a second I forget why. Then it’s like….duh you dumbass. Obviously! Your mother died a month ago! But even though that knowledge is there constantly and there’s no escaping it,…
Keeping Secrets
For years, I kept my autoimmune diseases a secret from my mom to prevent her from feeling undeservedly guilty.
Numb
My mom died yesterday.
I’m sure one of these days I’ll have the energy to talk about how we got here, but for now, I just feel the need to write and I’m starting at the end rather than the beginning. So forgive me.
Vintage Kelvinator Trimwall Foodarama Refrigerator / Freezer
Sometimes the internet is a neat place. We hit a local antique store today that does a monthly market called Brocante Vintage Market. One of the unique things they had was a vintage Kelvinator Trimwall Foodarama side-by-side fridge/freezer. It was in amazing condition so my guess is that it was probably installed new in a…
Dreams of Disney Days Gone By
It’s no great surprise to anyone who knows me that I’m a big Disney fan. I have been since I first went to Walt Disney World way back in 1984 when I was a wee girl of seven. It ignited a fascination in me and a sense of wonder. And certain things just really stuck…
Gracie
From the beginning, I knew something was wrong with Gracie’s mouth. It’s why I initially took her to the vet. But the vet felt the drooling was a nausea issue and got fixated on her abdomen and wound up sending me to a specialist for detailed blood work and ultrasound. All that cost me around…
SLAP Tear – Surgery, Recovery, And Asking for Help
On Friday, July 28th, following an MRI Arthrogram, I was diagnosed with a SLAP Tear; specifically, “Left superior labral tear extending along the posterior superior quadrant.” I’m going to need surgery which is going to leave me with one arm for months, unable to drive, work, or support myself in anyway. So I’m asking for…
My MRI Arthrogram Experience
Yesterday, I had to have an MRI arthrogram on my left shoulder. It was a unique experience and I was really worried about it and I wasn’t sure what to expect. I spent a lot of time trying to google and research MRI arthrogram as well as what it was like and what it would…
Dapper Day Spring 2017 Epcot
Since I had to work last November for the Fall 2016 Dapper Day at Epcot, I didn’t want to miss Spring 2017 Dapper Day at Epcot – especially since it was the perfect opportunity to do a Disneybound of my favorite Disney character – Figment! Two tiny wings, eyes big and yellow horns of a…
Gut Punch (My Reaction On the Eve of the 2016 Presidential Election)
I don’t have the words to adequately describe how disappointed, disgusted and literally scared I feel in this moment as a woman in this country. I knew we were still a country battling bigotry, misogyny, hatred and even anti-intellectualism, but….but. This is something else entirely. I thought we were better than this. I thought decency…
Vote for PhoenixFire Designs Best Handcrafted Jewelry
Can you do me a quick and easy favor? 15 years ago in 2001 I started making jewelry. It was a hobby at first, but people liked what I did and eventually 10 years ago in 2006, I opened my PhoenixFire Designs etsy shop. I continued to run my business part-time while also managing a…
Another mass shooting in America
The victims and families of the mass shooting in Orlando last night don’t want your prayers or your thoughts. They want your OUTRAGE that a small percent of gun nuts have successfully lobbied against passing ANY common sense gun laws and have put their profits over the lives of human beings. RAGE to your elected…
Megacon Orlando 2016
I went to Megacon for the first time this weekend. Previously, I made my Comic Con debut last year, in my first-ever cosplay as a girl Marty McFly to meet Lea Thompson at Tampa Bay Comic Con. This year, we had even higher stakes as none other than Doc Brown himself, Christopher Lloyd was going…
Birthday Girl!
Today is my 39th birthday. (Woah, I know!) I spent the day going to see Captain America: Civil War (#TeamCap!) and generally had a low-key but fun day. Here’s an obligatory birthday day selfie: