Wednesday was a stressful day.
Love’s Dad
Love’s dad went into surgery around 3pm today. They removed most of his gallbladder and it was apparently riddled with tiny stones. It was very badly infected. The doctor said that they think the severity of the infection was what was impacting his heart and it’s irregular beating as well. I guess they were unable to shock it back into rhythm. I guess the hope is that now the worst of the gallbladder is gone, his heart should normalize. The bad thing is that he was very weak from surgery, so they have him on a ventilator to help him breathe for right now. I guess they’ll evaluate him tomorrow again to determine how his breathing is at that time.
This has been very scary and stressful needless to say to Love and his family. And I haven’t been able to be down there with them as the hospital is about an hour away from the home and the last few days I just haven’t felt well enough to be out, let alone hours and hours away from home. So poor Love has been leaving work early the last two days at work to get down to the hospital to be with his family and not getting home until much later than normal. His work is about halfway to the hospital, so it just makes sense for him to run down there since he’s already halfway to it.
Still, I feel so bad I can’t be there for his family right now and I’m worried too about his dad. He’s so awesome and I really love Love’s family so it’s rough on everyone. Which brings us to…
My Health Update
I’ve had a rough few days this week. Low-grade migraines, a lot of brain fog, bad body aches and today some stomach upset. Just not feeling very well overall, you know? And it feels like I just have no idea what’s going on with my body right now and no control. I’m all over the scale.
No real hot flashes or night sweats yet but my internal thermostat is definitely all over the place. I’m hot one moment, then cold the next. Not so much that I’m sweating or anything, but I get a flush of being hot, throw off the blanket then a few minutes later I’m shivering and putting it back on me. Sucks but it’s not that bad. Hopefully, it stays like this.
I’m also really emotionally just fried. Thinking about money every day is just killing me. It’s just more then I can bear. And with my head hurting the last two days, I haven’t really been able to be on the computer a lot because it makes it worse, but that means I haven’t been able to update the PhoenixFunds donation shop like I want. Which then, I beat myself up for not getting it done. But when you don’t feel well enough, it’s frustrating. I feel guilty, like people would judge me and be like, so what are you doing all day? which I’m sure is stupid but I can’t help it.
Oh yeah and I’m this big emotional wreck. Oh my goodness, I’m like crying over nothing. Like, a sad moment on a TV show or something and BOOM I’m crying. Stupid freaking hormones, I tell you. So you can see then why I’m like beating myself up over not doing “enough” each day.
So that’s my mid-week update. I should be sleeping but I broke down and took Excedrin again today (it’s been like every other day lately that I just get overwhelmed and want some relief from the chronic headaches) and it was kinda late in the day when I did, so the caffeine is still kinda keeping me awake. I WANT to sleep because I’m exhausted but I didn’t just want to lay there so I figured I’d update.
Overall, I think I can sum most of this week up as blarg, stress, sob and sigh.