Yesterday, I carved a foam (fake) pumpkin. It was the first I’d made since Rand died and we accidentally lost the dozen or so pumpkins that we had saved over the years. And unlike the one I made for Mom, this one, I used one of the fancy patterns.
Tonight, I think I’m going to go up to Mom’s and help her hand out candy. Of course, we get zero kids here in my apartment complex but Mom’s in a neighborhood and she normally gets a lot. She also enjoys decorating the outside of her house too which helps with the draw. I think I’ll bring my pumpkin up to display at her house tonight too.
Halloween is still hard and bittersweet since it was so strongly tied to a tradition with Rand. But I’m trying to do new things for the holiday. It’s not easy because I still feel a little lost about the whole day and don’t really know what to do with myself, but I’m trying.