So far, not much different from 2010 I gotta say.
We spent New Year’s Eve at a walk-in clinic since everything was closed and poor Love had a completely red and swollen eye. Turns out, he has an eyelid infection. I’ve been washing his eyelid with baby shampoo multiple times a day and applying an antibiotic cream, plus he’s on oral antibiotics as well. It was the color of red grapes basically and so puffy and swollen it was almost shut. He looked like someone punched him. It’s gotten a little better – the color is less red and the swelling has gone down some but it’s still not healed by any stretch of the imagination. Because he was in a lot of pain (seriously, a LOT) we wound up just spending New Year’s Eve on the couch watching the ball drop.
Oh and despite him having insurance, we had to pay out-of-pocket for the visit because they claimed he had the entire $800 in deductibles left for the year. (Um, really? On the last day of the year you’re trying to say he has a deductible that he somehow hadn’t paid any of the entire year? Not to mention, he talked to HR at his work today and there isn’t a deductible at all in the first place! He’s been to the doctor many times this year but his Dr. moved to NJ so he didn’t have a primary care doctor anymore. Not that anyone was open NYE in the first place. Anyway, now we need to figure out how to submit the claim and try to get some of it back.)
So that was NYE.
New Year’s Day we hopped out to Disney late in the day – seriously, we got there like 4pm – and hung out for a few hours. I wanted to catch the holiday decorations one last time and get some pics. Our passes are through August 2011, so it doesn’t cost anything to go except gas. And we needed a day out after a bit of a downer NYE. Love was a real trooper and we hit three parks that day; Epcot, the Studios and Magic Kingdom. They had the fireworks WAY early at MK (like 8pm; normally it’s 9 or 10pm!) so we missed them. Bummer. But we stayed through park closing at 11pm. Wound up getting home late and I think it was 3am by the time I got to sleep.
Sunday, didn’t do much. Slept in. Ran a few errands.
Monday, I had to go back to work. Bummer too. Love took the day off because his eye was still really awful and he just wasn’t feeling 100%.
Tuesday, he went back to work and had to deal with everyone giving him a hard time about his eye. They kept joking that I punched him. He was highly annoyed. It’s finally starting to look a little better so hopefully, it’ll continue to improve. It’s been really miserable and I know he’d love to be back to normal.
We had some absolutely frigid weather last week (seriously, like Hard Freezes and overnight lows below 32F/0C for several hours at a time and daytime highs like 42F/6C! And remember, I’m in Florida!) but it’s warmed back up lately. It’s been around 68F/20C-ish for the high. It’s been a bit dreary though the last few days. Not a lot of sun and just kinda bleak looking outside. It looks like Winter outside if that makes any sense. The trees are all bare or mostly bare at this point and everything’s a little grey. We don’t get a lot of that here so it’s always strange when we’re in that brief period.
The New Year has also been rough emotionally. On one hand, I’m so happy 2010 is over. It was such a trying, awful year. On the other though, I’m feeling very…melancholy? about the new year since it’s the first year change since Rand died. It’s like…I feel like we’re all moving on and it reminds me he’s not; that he’s gone. And of course, that makes me really sad. In some ways it’s almost a little harder because I feel like it’s really over now. I don’t know if that makes any sense but it’s been weighing on my mind a lot the last few days. I feel on the verge of crying but I’m trying not to let it bring me down too much. I’m just kinda…sad right now I suppose. I still really miss him a lot. Some days are just harder than others and the days that are hard are still challenging. It is getting better but I don’t know that the hurt will ever fully go away completely.
Anyway, that’s about the sum of the first few days of 2011. I’m really hopping it’ll be a better year than last. I can’t imagine going through another year like 2010. Overall, I’m a bit stressed, Love’s a little unwell, I’m broke and a bit sad but I’m trying to keep my chin up and be hopeful for better things this year.